Never Been Loved(51)

I can hear the kid start to cry, and they don't sound like crocodile  tears either. They're the kind that come out after a skinned knee, or a  tumble on the ground.

"You're amazing, little man. I promise you," Sera murmurs. While I'm  pissed at myself and jealous if I admit it-that she knows exactly what  to say to him, at exactly the right time-I'm glad she's here.

"People lie, Sera. And people go away. And they never come back, like Harry's parents. They left Harry all alone."

"You're not alone, kid. You have your dad and you have me."

"What if you go away?"

"Then you come find me, that's all. I'll always be your friend, Matty."

"Don't you want to be my mommy?"

Jules, what do I do? How can I make this better for him? Would you hate  me if Sera took your place? Didn't you bring her to me in the first  place?

Jules, I miss you, I wish I could talk to you. I wish you could tell me how to fix this. I've screwed everything up.

I pull in a few deep breaths trying to shake off the feeling that I've  ruined the kid's life. I can't deal with that right now, not tonight.

I move away from the door and go turn off the lights, checking the lock, and the slider, then move back to Matty's room.

Sera's fallen asleep with my kid on top of her, her hand on his back like she soothed him to dreamland.

"Sera?" I call from the doorway, watch her eyes jerk open and look around like she doesn't remember where she is.

"Yeah. I'm alive, just gimme a sec." She wiggles out from under Matty,  and stumbles over to me, her eyes half-closed. I want to wrap her up in a  blanket and let her fall asleep on me. Fuck, I'd like that a lot.

She moves to the couch in the dark, and sits down, yawning all the while.

"Want some water or something?" I ask from the kitchen, opening the  fridge to see her curled up in on herself, head down between her knees  and arms.

"No. I'm good. Come and sit."

Even if there's tons of space on the couch, what the hell am I going to  do with the leather when I've got her body waiting for me?

Two weeks after she's forgiven me, it's torture being around her like  this. Especially when she turns those eyes on me and eye-fucks me  whenever I'm walking around without a shirt. I do that a lot.

She leans into me more, shuffling her cold toes under my leg, and  slinging an arm over my abs, until I feel a tickle along my ribs. I  check my groan and tell Junior to stand the fuck down.

We're going to have sex, yeah. I'm twenty-eight years old, and while I'd  love nothing more than to toss Sera on my bed and have us having a good  time, Sera's been skittish around me, and she stays out my room unless  it's to sleep.

I'm pretty sure she's a virgin, and maybe I should come right out and  ask her, but you know, I've already fucked up a few times and I don't  want to add to that list.

"What are you doing?" I ask. I know exactly what she's doing. I just  like seeing her caught  –  it's adorable, and sexy at the same time. She  has no idea what she does to me.

"Sorry not sorry."

I'm about to kiss her, I'm about to make out with my girl like I'm back  in high school and there's no unwritten rule that we can't have sex, and  I'm not a total dick trying to get my cock inside a pussy or I'll die.         

     



 

It's my phone that buzzes on the coffee table that has my shoulders rising up, and I've snatched before it can wake up the kid.

"Fuck." Just my goddamn luck. "Aly's here. I don't know how she got in  the building, she either conned her way or some asshole let her in.  Shit."

Not this shit again. She's downstairs in the lobby and she wants to come up.

Jules, is this some kind of joke?

I have to get Aly out of here. She'll ruin everything.

Stupid idiot, trying to move me in the way that she wants. Trying to get  what she wants. I scratch my head and pull in a breath, coming to a  decision.

Sera might hate me, but at least I'd get one poison out of my life.

"I need to get her out of here. She's going to come up and wake up  Matty. Not to mention, she's going to be pissed when I'm not available  to screw around with."

"Who raised her? I mean, frak, was she raised in a barn? Where the hell  are her manners? Bloody hell." Sera waves her arms, and it's got me  grinning.

I move quick and kiss her mouth hard, and smile when I pull back and she's pouting, wanting more.

When I get back upstairs, it's all I'm going to be wanting, too.

"How do you always do that? Make me laugh?"

"I'm actually Hermione Granger, but you can't tell anyone."

I kiss her again, because Jesus, she's being cute and I need more of it. I pull back, then kiss her on the corner of her mouth.

"I know who she is. And babe, you're hotter than Emma Watson."

"Okay," she says, kissing me to distract me from the whole hot thing. I  hate that she does that, and I want her to tell me who told her that  shit so I can get my fists dirty.

"I don't like that," I tell her, pulling away while she follows for more of me.

"Huh?"

"I want you, Sera. You're the only one I want."

"Okay."

I've made sure I'm all that she sees, and her eyes are wide and scared,  but they keep dipping to my mouth like she needs the distraction.

Baby, please stop that.

"No one has loved Matty before, like he's a part of me, not like he's an  extra person. No one's ever read to him in his whole life. He's happier  when he's with you. And so am I."

"Okay. Go see her, tell her to go home. Then come back upstairs." Sera  keeps looking like she might catch me in a lie, but her eyes skitter  away.

"I'll be ten minutes, tops." I kiss her again, trying to get her to  understand that she's the only one I want. I get into it with her,  standing over her and pushing her back into the couch. She makes this  moaning-purring sound that has my dick waving hello in my pants. I pull  away before Aly comes up here and starts something she's not going to  get to finish. "Then I'm coming back upstairs and I want more of this. I  want more of you."

With that, I move down the hall, grab a shirt of the floor in my room, and turn back the way I came.

"I'll be right back," I tell her as I walk out the door.

As the elevator doors shut slowly, I hear an apartment door opening, and  keep my grin to myself in the elevator car. Sera's going to follow.

Which means maybe I got through to her, and now she's going to make sure that Aly knows I'm the one she wants.

Jules, I'd bet you'd want to see how this play out.





Chapter 27



"I missed you, baby," Aly says, as I step out of the elevator and into  the lobby. "How come you won't answer my calls, huh? Weren't we good  together, Hunter? Didn't you like what we did?" She hops on me like I'm a  train about to take her for a ride.

"Aly, maybe there's a reason I'm not answering your calls or texts; it's  been four months. Maybe that reason is I don't want to talk to you  anymore," I say, getting her arms and legs away from me. Sera doesn't  need to see this.

This was a bad idea.

I should've just let her come up and refused to open the door. Then again, I can't remember if she has a key or not.

Now she's got her hands in my shirt and is dragging me closer. I don't  want to do this. The swirling sensation in my head is starting to hit  and that can only mean one thing. Yeah, my sugar's starting to drop.

"I know you didn't just say that to me, Hunter. Shall I call your mother to get this all settled out?"

"Yeah, call my mom, Aly, at night. Go complain to her that I'm not  following your plans. We're not getting married, and we're sure as fuck  never sharing the same bed again."         

     



 

Aly makes a show of getting her phone out of her pants. I'm disgusted  with all of this. How easy I was to play, how much Aly wanted to be part  of the game.

"How are you going to survive without your mom's money? How are you  going to take care of Jules' kid, huh? Oh, poor Hunter, don't try to get  a brain now, and start thinking for yourself."

She's got her stride now, and I try to breathe normal. Sera's heard  everything. "You marry me, we have enough money to keep us going for the  next fifty years. Aren't you tired of fighting, of struggling every  single day? Aren't you tired of it all?"

Aly just had to say it.

The swirls in my brain move faster now, and my head's too heavy for my  neck. Sera's here and she's listening; she's seeing everything.

I'm just tired, beyond exhausted of my life, of moving forward only to  be pushed a hundred steps back. I'm tired of struggling with my  finances, with the kid, with Sera, even though she's made everything in  my life easier.

I'm just tired of fighting it, tired of trying to be normal.

"That's right, baby. You know you want me over her anyway. My way is the  easy way, and there's nothing wrong with that." Aly says, but it sounds  far away, from a stony tunnel rather than standing right in front of  me. I'm somehow in her arms.

"You don't need her when you can have me," Aly whispers in my ear.  "Everything will be so easy for us, baby. We can do whatever we want, we  can buy whatever we want. You won't have to work and be so tired  anymore."