My Ward My Woman(16)

“Mom, where is Alexandra?” I’ve never raised my voice to her before and I could see the shock resonated in her eyes. She pointed up the stairs, “She’s in your old room. Poor thing I couldn’t console her.”

I took the stairs two at a time and busted through the door. Even before I was fully inside, I heard her tears. I stopped short at the sight before me. She was curled up on the bed with her face buried in a pillow I hadn’t lain my head on in years.

I went to her and climbed into bed behind her. “Why are you crying like this?” Stupid fucking question Solomon. She didn’t answer me and I didn’t expect her to. “Look at me Alexandra.” I had to turn her over myself. Her face was ravaged by tears, her eyes already swollen and red.

I wrapped my arms around her and squeezed. “I’m sorry you had to hear that that way, but I promise you this changes nothing.” She cried even harder, as if my words had fallen on deaf ears. “Let’s go it’s time to go home. We need to talk.”

“I’m not going, I’m staying here.” She stiffened her little body against me and tried to pull away. “The hell you are. You’re not staying here. Your place is with me, come.” I had a lot to say but not here. Alone, where I could reassure her of what she meant to me.

I lifted her from the bed and walked past my mother who was standing in the doorway wringing her hands with worry. “I’ll take care of her mom don’t worry.” She was listless in my arms, silent tears rolling down her cheeks. Each one twisted the dagger in my heart deeper.





16





Solomon





Outside, I climbed into the car with her still held firmly in my arms. I held her all the way home while she sat staring into space with an empty look in her eyes. I shook her to snap her out of it but she wouldn’t even look at me. She was pissed. Pissed, but I think more hurt than anything.

“Don’t do this, baby. I promise, I’ll make it right, just give me some time.” Nothing. My bright cheerful girl was gone and in her place was this shell that had neither voice nor will. I took her straight to my room once we reached the house and instructed the servants to leave once dinner was prepared.

“Is Ms. Alexandra ill? Maybe I should stay and look after her.” Betty, one of the maids that had been with us the longest had always taken an interest in my girl. She was the one more often than not, who’d been here with her if I was running late on the odd evening.

“That won’t be necessary. I’ll see to her myself.” I looked back at her on the bed exactly where I’d left her. Once everyone was gone, I went to her, climbing into bed behind her so I could draw her back into my arms.

“I know you’re mad and hurt; but I promise you I will make this up to you. You have nothing to fear. I will not leave you; not for any reason, please believe me. I told you; you belong to me. I take care of my own always.” I was rambling, looking for the right thing, that one thing that would bring her back.

“The baby belongs to you too. You’ll have a family with her. Where does that leave me?” Her voice had no life but at least she was talking again. “I will take care of the child when it comes, but I won’t lose you to do it. Now please stop crying you’re breaking my heart.”

“How can you say that? I know you remember? You took me in, took care of me. How can you do any less for your own son or daughter?” Her body shook with sobs and I held her tighter, wishing with every second that I had spared her this. But how could I have known this shit was going to hit me out of left field?

I still hadn’t had time to process the news that I was going to be a dad, and until I fixed the hurt to her heart I wasn’t thinking about fuck else. “I don’t have all the answers but this much I know; you and I will never be over. I will never let you go. You can take that to the grave.”

She hiccupped and pulled my arm tighter around her. “I’m scared Solomon, you don’t know Jessica.” I wasn’t quite sure what she meant by that but I wasn’t interested in finding out right now. Fuck Jessica.

“Don’t be afraid. No force on earth will take you from me. As for Jessica…” She clamped her hands over her ears like a two year old.

“Stop that, and listen to me.” I pulled her hand away and lifted her chin with my finger. “If this is true, then we’re going to have to talk about her. She’s going to be part of our lives…” I was about to say in one way or the other but before I could finish this one got to her knees with a look of fire in her eyes.

“I won’t share you, I won’t stand by and watch you marry her either. I’m leaving…” She moved to get off the bed and I grabbed her to my chest. She tried pulling out of my arms but I held her tighter.

“No you’re not. I won’t let you. I want your word right now that you won’t try to run away. I almost died when I couldn’t find you tonight; don’t put me through that hell again. I said I’ll make it right and I will. Now stop this.” I turned her face to mine and studied her eyes.

So sad-so bruised. My heart ached for her. “Trust me with your heart. I will never hurt you or allow anyone or anything to bring you harm. The baby was made before you and I became a couple. I can’t go back and change it.” As I said the words, I remembered the feeling I’d got the first time I took her; like I’d shared part of the essence of my soul with her. Like I’d planted my seed in her.

I kept talking, telling her what I thought she needed to hear. Telling her my truth. I don’t give a fuck if Jessica has twins I won’t leave her. I wasn’t too happy with myself for being so fucking careless. I’d always gone out of my way to make sure this shit never happened. In all these years it never has, so why the fuck now?

It didn’t matter. It didn’t change a thing. Like everything else in my life, I will take control of the situation and see that everything came out right. Jessica might get her feelings hurt once she realized that I wasn’t planning on having a life with her because of the baby, but that’s something she’ll have to deal with on her own.

I’d promised the young girl in my arms to take care of her. I’d lain with her, taken her virginity. All of that added to who she was to me, what she meant to my life, meant I wouldn’t hurt her for the world. Not even for my own blood. What a fucking mess.

“You don’t have anymore kids running around out there do you?” There was life in her voice again. I’d gotten through to her after all.

“No miss smarty pants. But I plan to make lots of babies with you; starting now.” Her tension eased and she looked up at me with a little less sadness in her eyes.

“I love you.” Her eyes widened on mine. She’d said the words more than once but this was the first time I’d ever said them out loud. Her eyes softened with fresh tears and her lips trembled. “Really?”

“Never doubt.” I lifted her chin with my finger and held her eyes with mine as I lowered my lips to hers.

She didn’t deny me, didn’t resist, and the soft kiss I meant to offer as comfort, became an inferno as she wrapped her arms around me desperately. I rolled over on top of her, crushing her into the bed. My hands moved around between us and made quick work of removing her clothes before straddling her to remove my own. She showed more life as she sat up and joined me, dragging my zipper down and releasing my cock.

“Oh…fuck!” She wrapped her lips around my cock and sucked me into the back of her throat with a few inches to spare. There was a kind of desperation to her movements and I understood when I felt the tears drip onto my flesh. “Shh, shh, shh, come here.” I pulled my dick out of her mouth and pulled her into my arms.

“You don’t have to do anything to win my love, you already have it. Look at me. Jessica will never take me away from you. Her child will never take me away from you. Nothing will. You’re mine; always.” She studied my eyes for the truth and finally found what she needed there.

She pulled my head down to hers and spread her legs open in a silent command for me to come to her. I sucked gently on her tongue and slipped into her soft heat gently. She wasn’t ready for me. I hadn’t given her my mouth so her pussy was extra tight around my cock.

I teased one nipple with my thumb while suckling the other, holding still inside her until her body softened and her pussy got wet. Only then did I allow myself to move inside her.

She clutched at me as if afraid I’d disappear and I wrapped her up in my arms until I could feel all of her pressed against me. “I’ll never leave you, never give this up, no matter what.” I made love to her the way she needed me to, the only way I knew to heal her heart.

Slowly, gently, tenderly, all the while whispering to her of my great admiration. “I love your ass, the way it fits in my hands. Your perfect tits that make me drool, and this…” I plunged into her pussy, going deep. “So deep.”

“Give me a baby Solomon.” My eyes went to hers. Even though I suspected I’d already bred her, the words made my cock grow an extra inch inside her. “Do you know what you’re saying?” She nodded her head shyly and moved on my cock.