I wasn’t about to battle over my love for her with anyone. They could all fuck themselves with a rusty screwdriver. But Alexandra had a soft heart no matter how she tries to be brave. After playing around with the idea in my head I settled on dinner in a public place for our first outing as man and woman.
I called and made reservations at one of the most popular restaurants in town. One where I knew everyone who’s who was sure to be. My next call was to mom before I left the office to go see her. I sent off a text to my girl. Just a simple ‘miss you’. I shook my head with a secret smile when I got her response ‘I ache’ just as I climbed into the back of the car.
It wasn’t until I’d finished reading and her face flashed across the screen that I realized just how much she’d infiltrated every aspect of my life. I’d carried her picture everyday since a few months after she came to me. I’d never put too much stock in it, that’s what parents do right? And she’d been so pleased when I’d done it.
But now I could admit to myself that in the last few months at least, that picture had come to mean something else, something more. Plus the fact that I’d changed it from the cute little gap toothed angel to the one of her the night of the party was a dead giveaway.
We pulled up outside my childhood home and I sat in contemplation for a minute. When I walk out of there something was going to be different. Mom would either congratulate me or curse my ass. I wasn’t sure which I deserved, but I knew what my heart wanted and I’m fucked if I’m giving that up to please anyone.
I let myself in and headed for her favorite place in the house. She was fussing around her flowerpots and singing to her babies. I watched her until she noticed me in the doorway and that smile I knew my whole life spread across her face. Will this be the last time I saw that smile?
“Mom, I think you better sit down.”
“Why what is it, what’s happened? Is it Alexandra? Where is she?”
“Calm down mom, Alex is…fine.” She watched me skeptically as I led her to a seat and crouched down in front of her.
Taking her hands in mine, I thought of all the years the three of us have had together. I knew she loved my girl like she was her own. She’d watched her grow right along with me, and took so much pride in the woman our girl was becoming.
Would she blame me for tainting that? Well fuck! For someone who’s lived my life by my own rules without regards to what anyone else thought, I was finding this shit damn near impossible. I wasn’t worried about how I would change in her eyes, but how she would see Alexandra. All my angst and worry was for her.
She’d already suffered so much loss; been so hurt in her short life, I never want anything to touch her. If she lost mom’s love I knew it would hurt her. We were all she had. I took a deep breath and tried to find the right words. “Mom, I’m going to tell you something that you may not like. Please just hear me out before you say anything.”
I opened my mouth and the words just came. By the end I was giving her all the reasons why this was right. Why no one else could ever love Alexandra the way I do.
“Don’t you want us both to be happy? Mom, what the hell are you grinning at?” I was losing my shit and she was laughing her ass off. Not just laughing either, deep gut twisting unladylike guffaws. So unlike my genteel serene mother.
“Nothing, you should see your face.” She patted my cheek and got to her feet going back to what she was doing before I interrupted her. “And you’ve come here for my blessing I suppose.” She watered a plant like this shit was natural.
“I wasn’t thinking of it like that, but I guess. I wanted you to know before going public tonight.” She turned to look at me. “That’s my boy; you always were one to take the bull by his balls.”
“Mom.” What the fuck?
“Oh grow up. Anyway I have to let you in on a little secret.” Now I looked at her suspiciously.
“What?”
“I’m not surprised by what happened. In fact I kinda sorta helped.” Come again. “What are you saying?” She put down the water pot and wiped her hands on the cloth around her waist. “I’m saying that I’ve known for a very long time that that little girl was in love with you.”
“When she finally got brave enough to tell me a year or so ago I told her she was too young, that you would never even consider such a thing, but if she waited…” She shrugged her shoulders at me.
“Plus I wanted her to be sure that you’re what she wants. I knew if you two started anything and it didn’t work out it would shatter our family.”
“She stuck to her guns, but she respected my wishes and didn’t make a move, until her birthday.” It was taking me a while to catch up. I couldn’t believe my ears. Here I was thinking she was going to disown me and she’d been part of it.
“I helped her choose the dress.” She seemed proud of her damn self. “And the rest of it? Her making me crazy for the last six months?”
“Oh it worked on your dad so I thought what the hell. You can thank me later. Did she tell you about the wedding?” My guts tied itself in knots and my ears started ringing.
“Wedding?” I had a feeling I knew where this was going. Strange, while I was doing all that thinking that was the one thing that never entered my mind. I guess, because she was already mine in every way it didn’t seem that important.
“Yes of course. We’ve already started planning. Not to worry, I know how you feel about that stuff so Alexandra and I are going to handle everything our selves. You better get going if you’re going to your fancy dinner tonight.” She kissed my cheek and all but hustled me out the door.
What the fuck just happened in there? I looked back at the house as if seeing it for the first time. She knew? How the fuck did she know and I didn’t? Years? I tried to think back to the time before I first noticed the change. Could I really have been that blind?
Knowing what I do about her heart, all I could think of was the parade of women I’d had in and out of my life in that time. What must she have felt? I felt like the world’s biggest asshole as I headed for home. All this time I thought I was protecting her and I’d been the one hurting her. “I’ll make it up to you babydoll. I promise.” I ran my thumb over her smiling face on my telephone screen.
12
Solomon
I let the staff go as soon as I walked through the door and poured myself a drink as I waited for her to come home. Once alone, I finally had time to think about mom’s reaction and the things she’d said. I thought of the young girl I’d been responsible for all these years, and how the love we had for each other had changed in the last few days.
There was no question I was in love with her. All the way stupid in love, which left me with another problem. What the fuck do I know about being in love? Nothing! So far, I’ve been playing this shit by ear, just going with the feeling. Plus we hadn’t done anything but fuck since the big change; the fuck am I supposed to court a teenage girl?
I can’t treat her the way I had all the women who’d been in and out of my life since I was old enough to understand that my dick was for more than pissing. In fact the wild urge I had to spoil the shit out of her was new.
When I’d spoilt my ward, it had been with things suitable for the child she was. Now my mind was filled with all the gifts I wanted to shower my woman with. Her spoilt ass is about to become even more so.
I took a sip of my scotch and rested my head back against the chair with a half smile. Now all her fucking antics made sense. She’d been reeling me in even before I caught her scent. How the fuck had she dealt with it? I’ve only known this need for her the last few days and already the separation of a few hours was more than I could stand. Eighteen fucking years old, and she’d tamed the beast.
I felt the excitement grow like a teenage boy the closer it got to the time she’d be walking through the door. “She’s taken my fucking balls.” No way was I letting her know that shit. She’s already a handful, if she knew the power she had over me my ass would never know peace.
Now that I think of it, she’d owned me in one way, or another since the day she became my responsibility. Nothing had to change. We already lived together. I just have to move her into my room. And then there’s the question of college in the fall. I’m pretty sure I’m not letting her go anywhere; hopefully, she wouldn’t give me too much shit over it.
I heard movement outside and got up to look. I watched her through the window as she parked and turned to wave sassily at her security team before running up the steps. She looked so happy, so carefree.
“I’m home.” I’ve heard that same greeting almost everyday for the past seven years, only this time it had a whole new affect on me. I heard her bag hit the floor before she raced through the house to me, calling out my name.
I held my arms open for her and she flew into them with a loud whoop. “Hey sneak.” She gave me a look before holding her mouth up for my kiss. I made my way to the chair behind my desk with our lips fused together.
When we finally came up for air, she was straddling my hips and my hands were full of tit. She pressed her ass down on my hard cock and rocked.