“Mine.” The very word made me feel like I was home again. He stripped us both of our wet clothes and picked me up taking me to my room.
He laid me down and kissed me again but this time it was slow. His lips moving deliberating so he can taste me. I loved how gentle he was. He wanted to savor the moment. He lay on top of me looking only at my eyes.
“Keep them open.” He nudged his length between my wet folds.
“Look right at me Alexia.” I looked at him, my eyes fixated on his as he claimed me. He eased into me ever so fucken slowly. As he entered, he caressed my face. “I love you.” The words were so low, so careful that it soothed the throbbing pain in my heart.
That night Lukas took me over and over, reclaiming me, branding me as his again. My body and my heart finally felt at ease, happy and content that I was at last home in the arms of the man I loved. But it was my mind that kept gnawing at me, telling me that I was being stupid.
“Why are you looking at me like that?” I asked as I got up from bed. It was ten in the morning. My body ached from last night. I felt so good in his arms but my mind was still nagging me.
“Alexia.” He stopped and stood up. His naked body was a thing a beauty. His tall muscular stature only added to the whole assemble as he walked over to me and pulled me into his warm arms. He kissed me gently on the forehead.
“We still need to talk. I can see that this is still bothering you.” He sighed only holding me tighter. I raised my hands slowly hugging him back. I wanted to be held longer, I let my body meld into his.
“I…” I hesitated but decided to continue.
“I can’t see my face like I used to. I keep thinking that all you see is her, that all I am is this replacement, that your feelings are nothing but misplaced, left over from a past that I know nothing about.” He pulled away just enough to look at me.
“I don’t know what I need to do but I’m going to do all that I can to show you that all I see is you, my Alexia.” He brushed my hair off my face and placed it behind my ear, “you are not a replacement. How can you be? You’re so unique and beautiful, you are all I ever wanted, all I ever need, all I ever dreamed of. You have it all, my mind, my heart, my soul, my everything. My most exquisite Alexia. My most precious one.” He tilted my head up to him, his eyes telling me he was speaking the truth.
I smiled knowing he was trying, knowing that the words he was speaking came from his heart.
“I know I hurt you.” He whispered as he leaned his forehead to mine. “I know I caused you pain and the trust you had in me has been broken, but know that I’ll do everything I can to make this up to you. To bring us back to where we were before all this happened.” I closed my eyes, gentle tears escaping.
“Going to that penthouse…” He stopped me.
“I sold it, everything, it’s all gone.” His breathing became heavy.
“You sold it?” I asked wary of what he was doing.
“I was holding on it thinking that if I had it that I would keep her alive somehow, but it only brought me more pain. Losing you was enough of a wakeup call. The past is just that in the past, you… I need you. You’re my drug. There’s no way I can go a day without a single look or a touch.” He raised his fingers to my lips and ever so gently grazed them with his thumb. “Or your smile.”
I took a deep breath, trying to focus on what I wanted to say.
“Going to the penthouse, seeing all that I saw, you can’t imagine the pain it brought me, knowing that I wasn’t the one. Looking around I could see the memories you had with her. Lukas…” He shushed me. I looked away but he raised his hands to my face, forcing me to look at him. He searched for my eyes and when we finally lock gazes, I could see his pained expression. He slid his hands underneath my body and picked me up taking me back to my bed and placing me on the edge, he knelt before me.
“Alexia.” His beautiful low voice cracked as tears began to fall.
“Finding you inside the penthouse, seeing your horrified face, the sickened look you gave me. I might not know the pain you felt but the pain I felt seeing you so broken.” He lowered his gaze looking down.
“It was a living hell, knowing you were what I always wanted, but you were leaving me, I was losing you.” He sucked in air and exhaled deeply.
“Olivia made me feel normal and loved, but meeting you and knowing what I know now, you are the one, the only one. I realized now that I only cared for her, I sought her out for the feelings she brought me, but you? I’m in love with you. I’m crazy batshit in love with you. There is no one else but you. I didn’t realize how much I was missing or how much I was lacking in my life or even how broken I was until you came, making me whole. You and I are one.”