“What?” He stammered. I felt so small around his immense presence.
“Leave.” The word I spoke was barely audible to me.
“Why?” He asked. I met his eyes “Because you’ll destroy the little world I’ve created for myself and I don’t think I have the strength to put it back together after you leave.”
I exposed myself completely, opening up to him.
He stood still letting out a heavy sign. “So I destroy it. And?”
Tears began to well up as he spoke.
“I’ll help you build a new one.” My heart swelled at his words. Shit! Go for the low blow Alexia. Push him away. He’s too good for you and the other shoe will drop and you will be left alone to pick up the pieces.
“Nice, and should I say thank you?” He looked at me perplexed.
“I mean, did your girlfriend give you permission to slum it with me or would you have me on the side? Ah that’s right you must have a girl like me in every city you visit.”
I knew what I was doing, I always do. I go as low as I can to hurt whoever is around me. I push and I push so in the end I’m left alone. No one has ever stayed and I knew the reason was me. He pushed himself off my counter his face contorted. He turned from me and punched my cabinet. I was left startled.
“You are so infuriating!” He bellowed his hand now bleeding.
“I’m infuriating? Me? You have the nerve to come into my life, call me a whore and say you don’t feel bad about it.” I challenged. He stood still his breathing became heavy.
“There’s something here!” He barked pointing to space between us.
“Do you have the same something with your girlfriend?” I asked. He looked away from me and licked his lips
“Is she not your girlfriend?” I asked again. “Or is it fuck friend?” I corrected.
“Neither!” He bit out “She’s a close friend of the family. Yes she has always wanted more but I never gave her the time of day.” He explained “I told her off for her little stunt she did at the bistro on Thursday. I tried getting your attention but you only gave it to others and not me, which frustrated me to no end Alexia!”
He was glaring at me “After her stupid stunt I changed my meeting so that I could be there all day, but you didn’t even give me a chance.” He finished explaining, his nose flaring, his eyes fixated on me.
“When you walked in you ignored me.” I said quietly.
He smirked “If I hadn’t, Mollie would have been all over you. I had to…” He stopped.
I tried to wrap my mind around what was going on, I looked around my little condo. Broken glass and a cut hand, a broken cabinet and a busted fist, we were already dysfunctional. As though he understood what I was thinking he reached for my face and gently cupping my cheeks, the mere contact sent my skin on fire.
“It won’t be like this.” He willed me to look at him but I couldn’t. “Look at me.” He ordered. I didn’t move “Please Alexia.” He begged leaning in to kiss my jaw, the heat from his lips melted whatever resolve I had. My body went limp as he gradually moved to my lips. I could feel how wet I was, everything in my body yearned for him, needed him, wanted him.
I heard the door open, “Oh shit sorry!” Thank god for Roxi, I’ll forgive her for everything now since she saved me from him. She slammed the door shut, leaving Lukas and I in silence.
Lukas pulled away his face was full of regret, angry that our moment was lost. I was able to regain some sense. I pushed myself off the island and opened the door, Roxi stood in the hallway with a bottle of wine and some Thai food.
“Thought I’d come by and talk…I’ll leave.” She offered.
I reached for her hand and pulled her in. I walked passed Lukas and grabbed a Ziploc bag and filled it with ice.
“So…” I could see Roxi itching to know what had happened as she stood watching our exchange. I gave her a look and she sat herself down in the living room but she made sure it was on the couch that faced the kitchen so she wouldn’t miss a thing.
“Does it hurt?” I asked
“No.” He said dryly.
I rolled my eyes “Liar”
I massaged the ice over his hand and he flinched.
“We’ll go the hospital.” I offered as I reached for my keys.
“No!” So he was going to be the monosyllable Suit. Let’s try this again.
“Are you hungry?” He leaned in and slid his finger under my chin slowly moving his finger up till it reached my lips.
“Yes, but not for food.” He moved closer then passed me not bothering to look at Roxi.
“Goodbye Roxi.” He murmured. I heard her gasp as he walked through my door and left.