“At least I still feel.” I began to beat my chest slowly remembering his remark about how he had loved me. Past tense. Then why the fuck is he here?
“Why are you even here? You loved me once, it was enough, no?” I asked completely defeated now. I looked up to see his shoulders had dropped.
“You think you’re the only one who is broken? I was going to marry you today. You were my dream come true. You think I don’t have a fucken clue? Have you any idea how it feels to know I fucked it up so badly that you had to leave. I was so fucken angry at you. You said no matter what we were to never leave but you fucken left. You left me alone, in our home. In our world. I came home and found your ring on my nightstand. I tried calling only to find your phone in the closet where you took the clothes that only you bought. It was like you tried to erase me from your life, like I meant nothing to you.” He voice cracked and he began to cry.
“I’m sorry.” I said quietly.
“I was wrong to do that. I should have stayed and confronted you but I was so hurt and humiliated. I felt like everything was just an illusion, like our love was fake somehow.” I sobbed.
There we were, two broken souls ripped apart, so shredded that neither one of us knew what to do about it.
“I’m sorry, I’m so sorry Alexia I should have… I should have told you the truth and let you figure out your own path and supported you with whatever decision you wanted. But instead…” I interrupted him.
“You ripped my wings off and made a cage for me to live in.” I wiped my tears away my crying slowly stopping.
Lukas reached out and slowly feathered the skin of my arm.
“Alexia.” He whispered.
“So I guess it’s over.” I choked out.
“Alexia.” His breathing became erratic. He grabbed onto my arm and pulled me to him. He looked down at me, his blue eyes looked like the ocean with his lashes wet from tears that had began to shed. He brought his hands to my face and held me close.
“I’m sorry for what I had done. Never again will I ever do something like that but please don’t you dare ever tell me its over.” I held his gaze.
“You said you loved me Lukas.” He let out a breath.
“How can you ever doubt the love I have for you. You might think that I have all the power in this relationship but it is you who owns me. It’s you that makes my heart beat.” I reached up to touch his face but Lukas pulled back.
“I know I was wrong Alexia. But I did it to help you because I never wanted you to hurt. I wanted to give you your dreams just like you gave me mine.” He stopped what he was saying and let me go. He stood up and walked away from me.
I watched as my Suit reached the middle of my new living room.
“I might have money, I might have power. But you Alexia, you hold all the cards. I realize now how much you own me. I love you Alexia. I love you more than anything in this world and I would have proven it to you had you not left.” He said grimly.
“I left because I felt betrayed. I was humiliated.” I whispered.
“I know.” He said flatly.
“But you left me. We were supposed to be a family Alexia. You and I against the world but you are the one who left. You should have stayed and fought with me, made me grovel but you broke your word and decided I wasn’t enough.” He said gruffly his voice cracking.
“What are you saying?” I felt the pit of my stomach falling and knots only growing.
“I’m saying I came back because I couldn’t be apart from you anymore.” The moment I heard his words I rose from my seat and nearly ran to him but Lukas moved away from me.
“Lukas?” I said softly.
“But I realize now I’m still too fucken angry at you. I’m sorry Alexia. I shouldn’t have come here.” Lukas turned his back and continued to the door.
“Lukas? Lukas?” I ran to him grabbing hold of him.
“Stop Alexia.” He choked out.
“No you stop. You’re the one who started all this!” I cried out.
“No, it was you who did this to us.” He said and walked out.
I was left alone with the soft music of Alpha playing in the background, the sorrowful sounds surrounded me as I stood stunned at what just had happened.
My Suit didn’t fight for me but rather he left still upset at my betrayal for leaving him. We had both wronged each other. Now how were we going to ever find our way back to our world?
Cosmic Girl
It took a month before my father came and told me off.
“Is this what I raised you for? To be a coffee girl? I sent you to school to learn something. Fine it didn’t work out but you still have your brains. Use them because watching you do this to yourself is killing me.” My father berated me as he walked around my condo looking at my things.