We bundled up and decided to take a walk outside. The sun was already setting even though it was four o’clock. But I didn’t care, I had Jason and to me he was my sun. I let go of his hand under the guise that I wanted to take a photo for Instagram. I carefully picked up some snow and formed it into a ball, but Jason beat me to it as he threw one at me.
“I can’t believe you did that!” I snapped, faking anger.
“Why? You were going to.” He shrugged and laughed.
“That’s beside the point.” I reached back and threw it at him.
“Typical girl, you missed,” he teased.
“You did not just say that!” I said pointedly at him.
“And what if I did?”
I turned to walk back home, but Jason took me by the shoulder. I took his hand and flipped him onto the snow bank.
“How do you like being played?” I stuck out my tongue at him. I watched as a surprised Jason lay in the snow, shocked at how I turned it. The look on his face told me to hightail it out of there.
I ran but Jason was quicker. He cradled me in his arms and dropped me into the snow. We both laughed. Jason stood up and stretched out his hand. I took it and he lifted me up and dusted me off.
“I missed this.” He said as he kissed my forehead and smiled.
“Me too.” I breathed.
Jason and I spent the better part of what was left of our day outside. It was our way to get to know each other again. I hated all the months we were apart. Each day seemed arduous and never ending. The way Jason spoke yesterday and the way he opened up to me slowly undid the small, carefully stitched up heart, which was ripped open by him. I had known he was pushing me away, but after that night I gave into his wishes.
“You left pretty quickly that night. I guess I got what I wanted,” Jason said sadly, as he pushed his food around on his plate.
“I did leave pretty fast.” I put my fork down and stopped eating. Jason was busy pushing his food around, but finally looked up.
“I thought I had to fight with you. I was even trying to come up with things to say. But after I said I felt nothing when you touched me, your face changed. I knew I had crossed the line, but I thought for sure you would fight back. But all you did was stare at me, like I had gutted you. It took everything inside me to stay ridged and cold. I was a fuckin’ prick,” he admitted, as he reached over and took my hand in his.
“I’m not going to lie and say I thought you would push me away the way you did. I knew we’d fight, but I figured we’d somehow end up together. Only when you continued to push me away, did I realize that what I believed would be an easy battle, ended up being far more difficult than I thought.” I said sadly.
“Then why go? Why did you not fight back?” he asked.
“Would you have given in? I knew you wouldn’t. So, I was prepared to do everything you wanted, even leave you if that’s what you wished,” I admitted.
“How could you ever doubt the love I have for you? How many times do I have to show you? Or tell you? I waited forever for you Kassia. I wanted you to find your own way without me forcing myself and my desires on you.” He took my hand and his thumb strummed along my knuckles.
“Kassia, I want you to know I’m not going anywhere. Even if in a few years you might not want me. This longing I have, this yearning for you, it burns from deep within me. You have been what I have wanted all my life. I’m never going to give you up or leave you.” He slowly kissed every knuckle and gazed up at me.
“Jason, don’t you know that you have sewn yourself tightly to me? I highly doubt I can go one day without wanting to be near you.” I smiled.
“Good.” He grinned. “Now, let’s say we leave our food here and I fuck you hard on the couch.” He lowered his eyes as the cute little grin he had before changed into something more sinister.
“I don’t know,” I teased.
“You do know,” he said more forcefully as he yanked me up and pulled me to the couch. He threw my duvet and pillow onto the floor.
“Take your clothes off,” he growled. My belly dropped and I was instantly wet. He leaned in and whispered, “On all fours.” My body reacted to his low and forceful command. “Butt up! I want to see that fine ass of yours while I fuck you,” he growled low into my ear as the vibrations rippled through me, hitting me right at my core.
I did as I was told and took off my clothes, leaving my body bare. Jason watched me as each layer of clothing came off. His eyes deepened in color. A quiet predator began to emerge as he sat on the arm of the couch taking me in.
“I said all fours, Kassia,” he repeated. His voice only grew more ominous. I slowly knelt down on my cushions and placed my hands at the back end of the couch.