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Mr. Rochester(16)

By:Sarah Shoemaker


With Carrot gone, the fun of replaying battles had dimmed for me—as I suspect it sometimes did even for Mr. Lincoln—so it was not with a great deal of disappointment that I greeted the letter that arrived on my thirteenth birthday. I had almost forgotten the significance of the date, it never having been celebrated in my time at Black Hill. But at tea that evening Mr. Lincoln handed me an envelope. It had been opened already, yet Mr. Lincoln gave me the rare courtesy of letting me read it for myself:

Son:

You are now thirteen years of age—old enough to learn more of the world. Accordingly, on 3 April you shall arrive at the premises of Mr. John Wilson of Maysbeck. He shall take you under his wing and teach you all you need to know about being a man.

I expect that you will give a good account of yourself and will not embarrass me in your situation and your dealings with Mr. Wilson.

I have directed Mr. Lincoln to entrust you with 1 guinea, which should see you to Mr. Wilson’s establishment. Return what is left to Mr. Wilson, and give him an accounting of what you have spent.

George Howell Rochester, Esq.



Maysbeck. Not Thornfield. I had only a vague idea where Maysbeck was, but at least, by then, I well knew how to find out. Mr. Lincoln’s gazetteer showed it to be a town of fair size, but of no particular distinction. Still, it was exciting—exactly what I had hoped for, because I would actually be out in the world. It was as if my father, all those miles away in Jamaica, or wherever he was, had read my mind, and, because of that, I felt an affinity for him that I had rarely experienced before, and I became certain that the next step would be joining Rowland and my father in Jamaica.

“It will be a new kind of life for you, Jamaica,” Mr. Lincoln said. “I trust that you will make the most of it.”

“I will try to, sir. My father is counting on it.”

“Yes, he is indeed,” he said, “and it is best that you keep that in mind.”

He turned away and rose from the table with his usual difficulty, to go to his room. It was a departure from his normal evening activity to go to his room so early, and in my childish self-absorption I imagined he was devastated to have me leave. I glanced around the table at the others: Pox, who had come to us a month before, and who had yet to accomplish even the shortest sentence in French; Buck, who was large and clumsy, and whose smile was infectious; Tip, who was small and quick of mind and body. He would be the next leader of the boys when I left. That thought caught me up—it was true: I had, almost without realizing, become the leader after Carrot’s departure. But I would be going to a new place now, and I would be the new boy and I would have to learn my way around the others, as well as learning the ways of a new tutor.

The next morning at breakfast, Mr. Lincoln behaved to me as if nothing had changed, as if there had been no letter from my father, no impending departure. He rolled out the map of Russia and placed the tokens for the Battle of Borodino, a battle I had enacted more times than I cared to think about, and it was clear that his thoughts were not of me on that day, but on the boys who would be there after I left.

At tea I broached the subject that had teased me all day. “Sir,” I said.

Mr. Lincoln did not look up at me. “Yes,” he said.

“Might I have Touch’s real name, that I might visit him one day? I know his village; it’s Mapleton, is it not?”

This brought Mr. Lincoln’s head up and his eyes on me. It seems astoundingly strange now, but in fact we never used our real names at Black Hill. It was further evidence that Black Hill was a place of its own. Yes, we were properly introduced when a new boy came, but only our nicknames were used beyond that, and I had no memory of Touch’s second name, though I recalled his Christian name was William.

Mr. Lincoln stared at me for several moments. Then he said, “William Gholson is not to be visited. Not in this realm at least. He went to meet his Maker less than a year after he left here.”

I did not think: No, it can’t be. Nor did I think: Why didn’t you tell us? I could not think anything.

He watched me struggle for a time before adding, “It was the fever, Jamaica. He was of a delicate constitution, as you know.”

But I did not know. I did not know when we ran across the fields, when we snuggled together in bed against the winter’s cold, when he did not complain as I leaned on him so heavily after straining my ankle, he who was so much smaller than I. It seemed there was still too much I did not know. “May I be excused, please, sir?” I asked, refusing to acknowledge the tear that was running, unbidden, down my cheek.

“I was going to read Caesar’s Commentaries,” he said.