“O geez…” I rolled my eyes. “Wait a minute. You should be there too.”
“What?” he snapped his head around my shoulder and stared at me.
“Would you please? Do it for me. You can come and hold my hand.”
“You do realize that you haven’t told me the story either.” He brushed the hair back from my eyes.
“I know, but it will be okay. I will feel better knowing you are in the room with me. You won’t judge me and I don’t know if they will.” I stuck out my lip. “Mom and Dad have already met you and they love you like I do. They will understand why you are there. I have told them that you are my closest friend. Please Johnny?”
“I’ll be there.”
“Thank you,” I hugged his neck. “Are we working on things tonight? Is that why you were waiting on me?”
“No, I think we have covered everything. You are gonna be just fine out there in the world of hot boys, or at least with the one hot boy that you want to be with.” I took a deep breath. Over the past couple of months Johnny has helped me cope with touch. He has taught me that good things can come from it if you want them to happen. We have explored each other’s bodies in ways that I never thought I would ever be able to do. We haven’t had sex but we have pretty much done everything else. Every time that I have told him to stop because I was scared or uncomfortable he did, without question. Then when I was ready we would try again. He never pushes or expects anything. I have come so far. When David took away my innocence I thought that I would be shattered forever. That I would never enjoy being touched by a man because I would always think of him, but I was wrong. I love to be loved the right way.
“I’m sure you are right, but I have been thinking and I want us to have sex. I’m ready to go all the way and I want it to be with you.”
“I don’t know about that. You are getting braver by the minute.”
“If you don’t want to, I get it. I know it isn’t easy for you but I was just thinking that I have experienced all of my firsts with you and it would be special to me this way. I know that you will be gentle to me and take care of me.”
“Someone could catch us Shine.”
“They know you’re gay. They never check on us. They don’t worry about you and me together.”
“This is crazy. When I thought up this whole plan, I never pictured us going this far. I know how much you love Moon, don’t you want to share this with him?”
I took his hand in mine. “I love Moon with all of my heart and I hope that one day I will get to share myself with him, but the truth is that it may never happen. If I do get the chance I don’t want to be so scared that I ruin the moment. I don’t want him thinking that I will always be a broken mess. I want it to be perfect for both of us. You and me, we already have an understanding and a love. We have a friendship that will never be broken and things will never be weird between us. It will be amazing and I can’t imagine sharing this first with anyone else.”
“I can’t believe I’m agreeing to this.”
“I can. You love me so much. I see it all over that cute little face of yours.” I pinched his check.
“Okay, that ain’t sexy so you better start turning up the heat around here if you plan on getting little Johnny ready.” I couldn’t help but laugh. “Come on stand up. Are you sure about this?”
“Positive,” I shivered when his fingertips ran down my arm. When his hands brushed the bottom of my shirt he started lifting it over my head until the shirt hit the floor. He slowly took his off too. He closed in on my body with his and kissed me. Both his hands wrapped around my back and before I knew it my bra joined the other clothes on the ground. The kiss was hot and his tongue worked me over. I knew what that thing was capable of and it made me wet just thinking about it. His hand moved slowly up my waist and onto my breast. Working his fingers around my nipples in slow soft circles nearly had me breaking apart right there and he hadn’t even touched me anywhere else. He kissed down my jaw, then my neck, and licked all the way across my collar bone. It was so sexy and hot. I loved when he did that; it gave me chills. “Are you okay?” he asked.
“So good,” was my breathy answer. He smiled when he led me over to the bed. I laid back onto the pillow and watched as he took off the rest of his clothes. He was so gorgeous with his lean body and all those swimmer muscles. I imagine that he won’t have any trouble finding partners when he leaves and I would be just the person to help.
“You have on way too many clothes,” he pointed to my jeans. I took them off and threw them on the floor and then took off my panties. I had no shame around him anymore. He had seen and touched it all. He tucked himself up beside me propping up on one arm. He ran his hands down my tummy brushing his fingertips across my throbbing core. My body was on fire with every touch of his fingers. His fingers entered me gently hitting just the right spot. He would take them all the way in then he would come all the way out moving right over my clit. He rubbed in small quick circles massaging me and just when I thought I was at the edge he would go back inside me again. It felt like my nerve endings were burning my skin, and I could hear my deep ragged breaths. I used my free hand to touch him. I wrapped my hand around him and moved it up and down matching his rhythm. Making sure that I massaged his balls because he told me how much he liked it. When his breathing picked up I knew that he was getting close. He moved his hands from my body and I whimpered. I saw him put on the condom and roll it down his hard length. He climbed on top of me and with each leg he pushed my legs farther apart, opening me up wider. He kissed my lips again and down my neck. His hands began to rub me again but this time it was a light touch but it was fast and I was seconds away from coming. “Johnny,” I moaned.