Her favorite word to describe Outlaw. The woman was obsessed.
“She hates Christopher so much because she wants to fuck him so bad.”
Had he heard right? Seeing Johnnie’s rising anger, Cash knew that he had and he blinked. Johnnie knew this and hadn’t walked away? Only love would make him stay. However… “She hates Outlaw.”
“She’s attracted to him,” Johnnie corrected. “Her fucking pride is also hurt that he knocked her on her ass when she came to seduce him. She’s damn lucky she didn’t end up with him. He would’ve shot her ass off a long time ago.”
“Outlaw wouldn’t have hurt her. He would’ve let her go.”
“No, Cash,” Johnnie said without humor. “I feel like killing her sometimes and there’s no woman I love more than Kendall. I’d give my life to protect her. Fuck, I’d give my life if I knew she’d be happy for the rest of her life. There’s no woman whose as beautiful or as witty as she is. But she has a dark side. A side that makes me want to wrap my hands around her fucking throat and watch her die when she hurts Rory.” He closed his eyes. “If she ever physically hurts him, I will kill her and mourn her loss for the rest of my life. I can’t fucking get through to her how much I love her. How wrong it is the way she treats our son. How she’ll never get her fucking job back with Brooks. I’m considering killing him. I don’t know if I want to get it done quick or torture him for hours. Kendall wouldn’t be so bad off about her job, if not for that motherfucker.”
More than one issue with Kendall was at work. Killing Brooks wasn’t the answer and it would cross a line. “He’s a club attorney. Wouldn’t Outlaw have to sanction it?”
“He’d understand.”
Maybe. Maybe not. Outlaw still had a club to run. The attorney had already proven himself loyal.
“Brooks has been at our side for a lot. I’m sure we’ll find another attorney, but it’ll be a process.”
“Then, I’ll kill Charlotte. That bitch hates me.”
Johnnie needed to kill to calm the beast inside of him. The one he hid with his charm.
“Killing Charlotte’s an option,” Cash agreed. “I suggest you wait until after Outlaw’s released. Otherwise, Brooks will be too torn up.”
“He loves her as much as I love Kendall. Kendall,” Johnnie repeated, as if saying her name calmed him. “Kendall can tell me anything, but she won’t talk. If she’d admit her attraction to Christopher, I’d tell her I understand. She’s human. Of course, she’ll notice other people.”
“John Boy, what the fuck all those bitches doing in the main room?” Val asked, coming into the hallway and interrupting the conversation.
“For Cash, I suppose,” he said with a shrug. Whether Potter had called him and alerted him or if he was just too wrapped up in his Kendall problems, he sounded quite unconcerned. “Daphne hasn’t been replaced yet.”
Val narrowed his eyes at Cash. “Interesting.”
“What?” Johnnie asked, hearing the sarcasm in Val’s voice.
So Val knew about him and Fee. That had to be the reason he looked as if he wanted to fuck Cash up. Cash imagined him running to Zoann with the news.
“It isn’t what you think, Val.”
“It’s exactly as I think, motherfucker.”
“What are you two talking about?” Johnnie asked in confusion.
That was the difference between him and Outlaw. Johnnie was lost in his personal dilemma, so he couldn’t see Cash’s problem revolved around Fee. Somehow, Outlaw doted on Meggie but still kept a pulse on the club. He would’ve known immediately what bothered Cash.
“I’ve been wanting to talk to you about giving up my position with the Bobs,” he said, skirting around the issue of Fee. “Stretch and I are going to give it another go. I want to do right by him.”
A half-truth. He also wanted to do right by Fee.
“Do you have a replacement in mind?” Johnnie questioned.
No, he didn’t. All his friends were happily married, so he couldn’t ask them to do the interviews. They’d decline. They knew how to balance their families with their club lives. Something that took compromise on everyone’s part.
“What about Potter?” Val threw out into the silence. “He’ll patch in in a couple of months.”
A couple of months wasn’t good enough. Cash needed a solution now. He hadn’t even been able to be at the house to greet Fee upon her release because he had to be at the club. To have his cock sucked. The flowers he’d had delivered to the house wouldn’t be good enough. Not only would she insist on him and Stretch being together without her, the knowledge of why he hadn’t visited would disgust her.