Midnight Sun(48)

one of the problems." A rather insignificant problem, compared to the rest.
"Don't worry," she reassured me. "I don't understand any of it."
Good. Then she'd stay. "I'm counting on that."
"So, in plain English, are we friends now?"
I pondered that for a second. "Friends..." I repeated. I didn't like the sound of that. It wasn't enough.
"Or not," she mumbled, looking embarrassed.
Did she think I didn't like her that much?
I smiled. "Well, we can try, I suppose. But I'm warning you now that I'm not a good friend for you."
I waited for her response, torn in two-wishing she would finally hear and understand, thinking I might
die if she did. How melodramatic. I was turning into such a human.
Her heart beat faster. "You say that a lot."
"Yes, because you're not listening to me," I said, too intense again. "I'm still waiting for you to believe it.
If you're smart, you'll avoid me."
Ah, but would I allow her to do that, if she tried?
Her eyes tightened. "I think you've made your opinion on the subject of my intellect clear, too."
I wasn't exactly sure what she meant, but I smiled in apology, guessing that I must have offended her
accidentally.
"So," she said slowly. "As long as I'm being...not smart, we'll try to be friends?"
"That sounds about right."
She looked down, staring intently at the lemonade bottle in her hands. The old curiosity tormented me.
"What are you thinking?" I asked-it was a relief to say the words out loud at last.
She met my gaze, and her breathing sped while her cheeks flushed faint pink. I inhaled, tasting that in
the air.
"I'm trying to figure out what you are."
I held the smile on my face, locking my features that way, while panic twisted through my body.
Of course she was wondering that. She wasn't stupid. I couldn't hope for her to be oblivious to
something so obvious.
"Are you having any luck with that?" I asked as lightly as I could manage.
"Not too much," she admitted.
I chuckled in sudden relief. "What are your theories?" They couldn't be worse than the truth, no matter
what she'd come up with.
Her cheeks turned brighter red, and she said nothing. I could feel the warmth of her blush in the air.
I tried using my persuasive tone on her. It worked well on normal humans. "Won't you tell me?" I smiled
encouragingly.
She shook her head. "Too embarrassing."
Ugh. Not knowing was worse than anything else. Why would her speculations embarrass her? I couldn't
stand not knowing. "That's really frustrating, you know."
My complaint sparked something in her. Her eyes flashed and her words flowed more swiftly than usual.
"No, I can't imagine why that would be frustrating at all-just because someone refuses to tell you what
they're thinking, even if all the while they're making cryptic little remarks specifically designed to keep
you up at night wondering what they could possibly mean...now, why would that be frustrating?"
I frowned at her, upset to realize that she was right. I wasn't being fair.
She went on. "Or better, say that person also did a wide range of bizarre things-from saving your life
under impossible circumstances one day to treating you like a pariah the next, and he never explained
any of that either, even after he promised. That, also, would be very non-frustrating."
It was the longest speech I'd ever heard her make, and it gave me a new quality for my list. "You've got a
bit of a temper, don't you?"
"I don't like double standards." She was completely justified in her irritation, of course.
I stared at Bella, wondering how I could possibly do anything right by her, until the silent shouting in
Mike Newton's head distracted me. He was so irate that it made me chuckle.
"What?" she demanded.
"Your boyfriend seems to think I'm being unpleasant to you-he's debating whether or not to come break
up our fight." I would love to see him try. I laughed again.
"I don't know who you're talking about," she said in an icy voice. "But I'm sure you're wrong anyway."
I very much enjoyed the way she disowned him with her dismissive sentence.
"I'm not. I told you, most people are easy to read."
"Except me, of course."
"Yes. Except for you." Did she have to be the exception to everything? Wouldn't it have been more fairconsidering
everything else I had to deal with now-if I could have at least heard something from her
head? Was that so much to ask? "I wonder why that is?"
I stared into her eyes, trying again... She looked away. She opened her lemonade and took a quick drink,
her eyes on the table.
"Aren't you hungry?" I asked.
"No." She eyed the empty table between us. "You?"