“You can't do this, she's mine too.”
“If you're here when I get back I will gut you and bury your ass somewhere.” Her eyes widened and she stumbled backwards.
“Oh yes bitch you fucked up royally. The next time you see my kid she'll be thirty fucking years old. By then she'll know how to take care of herself. No contact from now on, not even a fucking postcard.”
I turned and left after that, her tears and pleading bullshit didn’t mean shit to me. Now I had to go hunt this fucker down.
I would ask one of my boys to stay here and make sure she was gone but I knew they wouldn't. They were all staying close until Holly was home safe and sound. “Any word?”
“Nah boss, the others called in and he’s not in any of those places. Nate’s headed back to the club to see if he can find anything that we’ve missed in the earlier searches.” Deke was pissed and scared though he tried to hide it. I felt like a fish out of water because I didn’t have the slightest clue where to go from here. If this was somehow about me I had no doubt that I’d hear something soon. But if it went south and the fucker just…
No Blade, don’t think that way. Can’t think that way. I’ve been here before; only those other times it was someone else’s kid on the line. This shit did not feel good at all. I will never again tell another parent not to worry that everything will be okay, because those empty words mean nothing when your guts are hanging out and your heart has been ripped to threads.
We spent hours searching in every hole between the school and all his known haunts with no luck. Lily had called me about five times but I had nothing to give her. I didn’t want her stressing over this either so I was in a tight spot. Trying to keep her sheltered as much as I could without making her feel left out of the loop.
I didn’t want to go home at the end of the night. Not with my girl still out there but I knew it was better if I got some rest so I could start fresh in the morning. The cops gave me an update but I wasn’t holding out much hope on that end. They gave me the whole let us do our jobs spiel but that shit didn’t fly. The fucker was dead one way or the other. He was dead the minute he put hands on my kid.
I went home after my boys and I worked out a schedule for the next day. Nate still hadn’t found anything by the time we knocked off and I tried not to be discouraged.
My phone rang just as I was parking my bike in my driveway. “Blade.”
“I’m on it.” That was Jake on the other end. In all the turmoil I’d forgotten to get in touch with him.
“Thanks brother, you got everything you need?”
“Of course, and don’t mention it.” He didn’t stay on too long and I dragged my ass into the house.
Lily had every light in the house blazing as she sat on the couch huddled under a blanket. Seeing her face went a long way to easing the pain in my chest, but fuck I wish this day were over.
I sat next to her and pulled her into my lap with my hand on her protruding stomach. She curled into me and let her tears flow. I let her cry for a minute before drying her face and holding her close.
We sat there in silence for the longest time as I felt my child kick in her womb. All that I kept telling myself was that things will work out; that I will find my daughter. I kept pushing back the memory of her little face because even that was too much right now
“Let’s go to bed.” I picked her up and carried her into our bedroom where we both got undressed in silence. When she reached for her nightgown I took it from her hand. “No baby you don’t need that.”
“Okay.”
We climbed into bed on opposite sides and met in the middle. Without words being spoken between us our lips met in the dark. Soft and sweet and sad as I tasted the tears on her lips. I rubbed her body up and down on my growing length, making sure to hit her at the right spot. In the back of my mind was the wonder that my body could react even at a time like this; that I could want her even now.
Pushing her hair back from her face I stared up at her in the moonlight. “I love you Lily, my Lily, my heart.” I don’t think I’d ever said anything that gentle to her before, and when her breath caught and she lowered her mouth to mine I kissed her as softly as I could.
“Lean back for me baby.” She leaned back and I ran my hands over her middle and up to her much fuller breasts and back again. She trembled and sighed as I lifted and took one of her nipples between my teeth. She was still grinding her pussy into me and on one of her downward slides I lifted her hips enough to find her with my tip.
Easing her down on my length I kept my hand there to stop the last few inches from going in and hurting her but she pushed my hand away.