I knocked on the door and rang the bell to my old home even though I still held a key. It had been my decision to leave my kid in her family home but the shit was still in my name because I’d beaten Deanna’s ass in the divorce. She didn’t get shit from me, and since there was no proof that I was a neglectful parent she couldn’t fight for child support.
I make sure my kid was well taken care of in all ways, that’s why I’m here now.
“Hayden, what’re you doing here?” She opened the door with that slick smile of hers that had caught me off guard when I was too young, dumb and fucking horny to know any better. Now it just made my blood run cold.
I handed her the envelope without a word and moved past her in the doorway. “What is this?” I didn’t bother to answer her; my mind was on one fucking thing and one thing only.
“Daddy, daddy.” My lil bit came bounding into the room pigtails flying, her cheeky grin brightening up her face.
“Come on Princess, you and daddy are gonna go for a ride.”
“Wait a minute, you can’t just barge in here and take her in the middle of the night.” She tried standing in my way as I opened the door and beckoned one of the guys over.
I handed Holly off to Deke who started tickling her to sidetrack her from the drama about to unfold.
“I warned you that if I found out that you’ve had that fuck anywhere near my kid I’d bury you.” She tried pulling on my shirt as I turned to leave.
“You can’t do this, you have someone in your life why can’t I?”
“Bullshit, you’ve had plenty since I ditched your ass and before come to think of it.” Her face paled and she took a step back.
“Oh yeah, I know all about your bed hopping and I didn’t give a fuck because I don’t give a fuck about you. As long as you kept that shit away from my kid I could care less. Now you’ve crossed the fucking line. Not only does he have a record, he’s a violent fuck who likes to beat up on women and children. I told you this shit months ago and you swore you got rid of him. That’s the only reason I didn’t take her then.
If you’re that fucking desperate go for it, but she won’t be a part of it; your choice.” I left her standing there because there was nothing more to be said. My kid’s not gonna be a fucking statistic. I’ve gone above and beyond to ensure her safety the best I could. I’ve taken measures not even her mother knew about, and that’s how my guys were able to catch this shit before it was too late.
When I’d first made the decision to walk away from her, I’d come up with an idea. It was the only way I could have a peace of mind while not being there everyday with my practically newborn baby girl. I’d sent Deanna to her mother’s for a couple of weeks, never letting on what I was up to.
While they were gone, I’d done some repairs and other shit to hide up my true purpose. It had taken everything in me not to wire the whole house but I couldn’t justify infringing on Deanna’s privacy like that. I planted eyes in my daughter’s room though, and could give a fuck what anyone thought of that.
In my mind, since I couldn’t be there, that was the next best thing. I also rigged her window so that an alarm would go off at my place if anyone tried opening it from the outside. Anything and everything I could think of for my little girl’s well being I put into effect back then, and have upgraded a lot since then.
By the time they came back and I served Deanna with divorce papers, I’d already taken care of my daughter’s safety. I’d seen too much shit when I was on the force and later as a Steel and I’m not taking any chances. You can’t really prepare for everything; life’s always throwing fuck you balls at you. Some things come out of left field and blindside your ass on a good day, but my plan is to cover as much shit as I can for my little princess. That was daddy’s promise the first time I ever held her tiny little form in my arms and I mean to keep that shit.
Saying that my life became a shit storm after that is putting shit mildly. Instead of backing down and getting her head straight Deanna, for the first few weeks at least, decided to play hardball, or what she thought was hard. She held to the idea that as an adult she could do whatever she wanted with her life, which was never at issue in the first damn place. Sometimes I think this trick is on something because she doesn’t understand so good.
I kept conversation with her ass to a minimum. I was more about seeing for myself if she’d ever get her head out of her ass long enough to get her shit together. She was all torn the fuck up that Lily was now spending more and more time with Holly which as a fair man I can see how that shit would sting. In all honesty I don’t want and won’t ever fucking allow some other dick to have any part in raising my kid. How the fuck I’m supposed to deal with that shit if that day ever comes, is left to be seen.