“I don’t have time for this shit I didn’t come here for this. How dare you leave us standing out here like this?”
“Hey, not in front of my kid.” I kept my voice low and even. If there was one thing I know it’s that parents fighting in front of their kids fucks with their little heads. I never want that for my kid. Her mother and I might be fucked up but there’s no way I’m going to let that touch her.
“Is your little whore in there? I don’t want her anywhere near my kid.” I could see that look in her eye that I knew only too well. She was ready to show her ass but good. The thing that got me is how she could’ve lived with me for so many years and not know me at all. She should know by now that her attitude was only going to piss me the fuck off.
“Hey princess why don’t you go on inside while I talk to mommy for a minute?” I lifted my daughter’s chin and looked into her eyes so I could be sure that she wasn’t affected by the little drama unfolding.
“Okay daddy.” She grinned and ran through the door, her head was probably full of chaos and mayhem. If her mother ever knew how much she liked Lily there would be hell to pay, but that was not my problem. I waited until she was out of earshot before turning to the pain in the ass in front of me who was hell bent on causing my ass grief.
“First of all, that’s not gonna work.” She swallowed audibly because she knows my looks too, and she knows damn good and well that I wasn’t about to play that game. “Let’s get something straight okay, the only reason you still have my kid is because I have a mother, I know what that shit means to a kid. You’ve also never given me any reason to doubt your ability to take care of my kid. And lastly who I have in my home has nothing to do with you, you burned that bridge when you decided to ride some other dudes dick.”
“It was a stupid mistake…”
“Not going there with you again, it’s done, we’re done. The only thing we have to say to each other is about our kid. Now what was it that you wanted? Is Holly sick?”
“No.”
“Is there food in the house?”
“Of course there’s food in the house; I need some cash…”
“No. My kid’s taken care of, I don’t owe you shit. I gave you this month’s money, I just took her to the doctor and dentist, Pre-school’s paid up and she went shopping with mom two weeks ago.”
“Is that all you think about is her, what about me? We were married for ten years how can you be so cold?”
“You fucked someone else in my bed while my kid was in her crib crying, be glad that your ass isn’t the one that’s cold and in the fucking ground. And the next time you disrespect my woman things are only gonna get worst for you. I don’t disrespect whoever you choose to shack up with.”
“No you just run background checks on them and threaten me with custody if you don’t like what you find.”
“You bet your ass, if anyone’s gonna be around my little girl they better not even have a speeding ticket. I don’t care who you fuck as long as they’re not a danger to my kid.”
“What about her, your precious Lily?” She flung her hand out towards the door.
“I ran her ass too and she knows it, besides she doesn’t come with any baggage, I was her first.” I knew that would cut her deep but what the fuck did I care? Any feelings I’d had for her had died a long time ago. If not for my daughter I wouldn’t even say hi to this beast on the street. But because I love my kid immeasurably there wasn’t anything I wouldn’t do to make sure she was happy.
Holly loves her mother no doubt about that, and she loves me. I can’t give her everything she wants, like a solid home with her mom and dad, because dad would end up decapitating mom over the breakfast table and that shit wouldn’t be good for anybody. But everything else, daddy had it covered.
I didn’t even feel sorry for her ass; she’s been running from man to man since the divorce. She kept that shit discreet and didn’t bring that shit around my kid or I would’ve taken her a long time ago. I wasn’t about to tell her how to live her life but she wasn’t going to fuck up my kid’s life. Lily wasn’t the first fuck I’ve had since the split but she’s the only one that Holly has ever met. That’s because she was more than just a fuck and as soon as I realized what she meant to me and would mean to my life I knew it was okay to introduce her to the woman in my life. My daughter.
Deanna was out in the cold and she knew it. While I was moving on with my life she was still floundering around looking for what the fuck I don’t know. But I know she was sure that what I had with Lily was serious, and that there was only one place for us to go. She probably knew that shit before I did.