Upstairs in her bedroom she ditched her clothes, letting them land where they did, pulled on a T-shirt, and got in bed.
She was settling between her sheets when she realized her body was stiff, especially her inner thighs and lower back. Under different circumstances she would have said she'd had a lot of terrific sex… either that or climbed a mountain. But instead it was just the flu.
Shit. Columbia. The interview.
She'd call Ken Falcheck later this morning, apologize for what she hoped was the second time, and reschedule. They were hungry for her to come onboard, but not showing for an interview with the chairman of the department was insulting as hell. Even if you were sick.
Rearranging herself against her pillows, she couldn't get comfortable. Her neck was tight, and she reached up to massage it, only to frown. There was a sore spot on the right side in front, a real… What the hell? She had a pattern there, some raised bumps.
Whatever. Rashes were not unheard-of with the flu. Or maybe a spider had done her in.
She closed her eyes and told herself to rest. Resting was good. Resting would get rid of this bug faster. Resting would bring her back to normal, a reboot for her body.
Just as she drifted off, an image came to mind, an image of a man with a goatee and diamond eyes. His mouth was moving as he looked at her, framing the words… I love you.
Jane struggled to hold on to what she saw, but she was sliding fast into sleep's dark arms. She fought to stay with the image and lost the battle. The last thing she was aware of were tears flowing onto her pillow as the blackness stole her away.#p#分页标题#e#
Well, wasn't this awkward.
John sat on the bench-press in the weight room and watched as Zsadist did bicep curls across the way. The huge loads of iron made a subtle clinking sound as they went up and down, and that was it for noise. There had been no talking so far; it was just like one of their walks, only without the woods. The convo was coming, though. John could sense it.
Z put the weights down on the mats and wiped his face. His bare chest gleamed, his nipple rings rising and falling as he breathed.
His yellow eyes shifted over.
Here we go, John thought.
"So about your transition."
Okaaaay… so they were going to ease into the lesser thing. What about it? he signed.
"How you feeling?"
Good. Wobbly. Different. He shrugged. You know when you, like, clip your nails, and your fingertips are weird for a day, all supersensitive? It's like that all over me.
Oh, what the hell was he going on about? Z had been through the change. He knew what it was doing afterward.
Zsadist dropped the towel and picked up the weights for his second set of reps. "You got any physical problems?"
Not that I know of.
Z's eyes locked on the mats as he alternated lifting his left forearm, then his right. Left. Right. Left. It seemed strange that such heavy weights could make that gentle sound.
"So, Layla reported in."
Oh . . . shit.
What did she say?
Please … not the shower…
"She said you two didn't have sex. Even though it appeared that you wanted to at one point."
As John's brain shut down, he mindlessly kept track of Z's reps. Right. Left. Right. Left. Who knows this?
"Wrath and me. That's it. And it's no one else's biz. But I'm bringing it up in case there's something physical going on that you need to get checked out."
John stood up and paced around in his gangly way, nothing but sloppy arms and legs and a drunk's sense of balance.
"Why did you stop, John?"
He glanced over at the Brother, about to give some kind of blow-off, no-big-deal answer, when he realized to his horror that he wouldn't be able to do that.
Z's yellow eyes glowed with knowledge.
Holy fuck. Havers had spilled, hadn't he. That therapist session at the clinic when John'd talked about what had happened to him in that stairwell had gotten out.
You know, John signed with fury. You fucking know, don't you?
"Yeah, I do."
That cocksucking therapist told me it was confidential—
"A copy of your medical records was sent over here when you started the program. It's standard procedure for all trainees in case something happens in the gym, or in the event the transition starts while you're on-site."
Who's read my file?
"Just me. And no one else will, not even Wrath. I locked it up, and I'm the only one who knows where it is."
John sagged. At least there was consolation in that. When did you read it?
"About a week ago, when I figured your change was going to hit any day now."
What… what did it say?
"Pretty much everything."
Fuck.
"That's why you won't go to Havers, right?" Z put the weights down again. "You figure the guy's going to snatch and drag you into another therapy hour."