Love's Suicide(15)

I got my next letter in the beginning of July and reading it got me a little worked up.



Katy,

I’m all set to be home for the wedding and the holidays. I’m sure you’ve been real busy planning that dream day that you always wanted. I’ll be home on the 20th, but have arranged to get fitted here in Texas and have the company call the measurements in to the local rental place in town. Branch said he’d pick it up when he gets his.

You’re probably worried about everything going perfectly.

Don’t.

You’ll be the life of the party and everything will be perfect. Your mom and dad would be so proud of you, for all that you’ve accomplished.

I’ll see you in a couple of months.

Don’t bite your nails. You need them to be perfect for the wedding.

Love, Brooks



Knowing that I didn’t have a number to call, I started writing him a message. Then I crumbled it up and decided that I was going to call, even if I had to sneak the number from my fiancé’s phone.

So that night, I waited for him to fall asleep and walked over to his side of the bed where he kept it on the charger. I grabbed the phone and took it into the living room, in case he’d saved it under something different to make it harder to find.

I found it in seconds, seeing that, according to the call log, they’d been talking weekly for months. I felt betrayed, like Branch was keeping it from me on purpose.

I quickly wrote down the number and transferred it to my phone, returning his before he could wake up and notice it was missing.

It was hard sleeping that night knowing I was only hours away from hearing his voice. It had been so long, and I missed my best friend more than words could explain. The fact that Branch was keeping us apart hurt me. Did he really not trust us together?

Then I laid there, thinking about being alone with Brooks.

Suddenly I realized why Branch had every right to worry.

The last time I’d been alone with Brooks we’d kissed and I would have done more if we hadn’t come to our senses.

Then I became mad at myself.

If I wasn’t able to control my emotions and feelings around Brooks, then being around him was a bad idea. I had to remind myself that things happen for a reason and I was with the right man, no matter what his methods were for getting us together. In some ways, he’d stolen me from Brooks. I’d probably never forgive him for that, but the damage was done. Branch was my first and he was going to be my last. Our marriage would finalize that for us, and no one, not even Brooks, would come between us.

On the way to work that next morning, I sat in my car and dialed the number. It rang five times before he picked up and when I heard his voice I hung up quickly.

My heart was racing and I couldn’t believe that I’d done something so silly.

When my phone started to ring and the same number showed up, I knew I had to answer.

“Hello?”

“What, did you change your mind or something? Is my voice not as sexy as it was before?”

I had no idea why, but I burst into laughter. Of all the things he could have said, he’d broken the ice with that statement. “Your voice is fine. I just… I had to sneak to get your number and I don’t really know why I’m calling. I guess I just wanted to hear your voice.”

“Is it everything you wanted it to be?” he teased.

“All that and then some,” I joked back.

“I miss you, Kat. It gets real lonely sometimes. On nights like that I wish I could call you and talk about damn near anything to pass the time. You and I never ran out of things to talk about, did we?”

I traced my steering wheel, feeling warm tears running down my face. When I sniffled, he must have known I was emotional. “Please don’t cry.”

“I can’t help it. I think Branch is keeping us from each other and I don’t understand. We’re family, and he knows how important you’ve always been to me. You’re thousands of miles away. I don’t understand why he wouldn’t want us talking.”

“Kat, Branch found the letter. He went into my room after you fell asleep and read it. He called me that morning, before you woke up.”

“What?” I was in shock. Branch had known the whole time and never said a word to me.

“Yeah. Do you really think that I would talk to everyone else on the phone and not you? If I had to pick anyone to call, you’d be my first choice.”

I started worrying about what Branch had said to his brother. After all, he’d written about sneaking into my room, so Branch knew I’d been with his brother. “He knows about what we did.”

“Yup. He knows.”

“What did he say to you? Did he threaten you? Do your parents know?”