Only the sure and certain knowledge that act would have disappointed Philip and dishonored Sean held her back. So she’d put away those thoughts and chosen life.
Not the full blown, all-out, grab-all-the-joy-you-can kind of life some seemed destined for and able to achieve so easily. No, her life would be measured and neat, she would set goals, achieve them, and then do what she could to give back.
So why the hell had she just told two handsome, buff men that she would seriously consider having sex with them both at the same time?
“Oh, my God.” Kelsey was still shaking. She held up her hands to watch them tremble as the unwelcome truth settled in her thoughts. She shook, not with embarrassment or dread, but with excitement.
More than five years had passed since she’d had sex, and while the grief counselor had told her she would eventually heal to the point where she’d seek intimacy again, Kelsey hadn’t believed her.
Having sex with two men at the same time was not life as Kelsey Madison had mapped it out when she’d decided to move to Lusty, Texas.
Still, she couldn’t deny the flutters in her belly or that for some time now just thinking about the brothers Benedict made her nipples tight and her pussy wet.
All right, time to regroup. She knew if she wanted to, she could call Matthew or Steven and tell them no. She didn’t have to go through with meeting with them this evening just because she’d said she would. She had choices and options. No was always an option.
Obviously her body needed some attention of the sexual variety. Her female parts, overflowing with estrogen and with no place to put it, had begun demanding action.
Kelsey let her thoughts wander back to the museum.
What the hell would you call that, anyway? Serial menagerie?
Her giggles erupted as the reality that she’d pretty much decided to have sex with two men at the same time hit her.
She was a healthy woman with a healthy libido and what she’d always considered an average imagination. There’d been a time or two, before meeting Philip, when she’d brought herself to orgasm thanks to the fantasy of having two cocks all to herself.
Now here was the opportunity to bring those long ago, lusty fantasies to life.
Oh, yeah, I get the town’s name now.
Kelsey’s mind circled back to the loss of her family and those long ago promises to herself. Recalling, too, the predictions of her therapist, she tried to set aside her arousal and think.
There was intimacy, and then there was intimacy.
Cut to the chase, Kels.
Kelsey had always been honest with herself. She wasn’t about to change that trait now. She could have sex with those two rocking studs. It didn’t mean she was going to fall in love with them or that she would marry either of them.
So why not just go ahead and have sex? They were all three of them unattached adults.
Despite the reactions of her body, she knew falling in love with anyone ever again was simply out of the question.
Her heart had shattered as she’d watched a crazed killer gun down her husband and young son five years before.
There simply was nothing left of that part of her to give to anyone anymore.
* * * *
Steven turned to look at his brother. A smile tugged at the corner of his mouth when he read the expression of satisfaction on Matthew’s face. He hated to play Mr. Obvious, but that was a part of his nature.
“Just because she said we could pick her up doesn’t mean she’ll come to bed with us.”
Matthew shook his head, but his smile didn’t diminish. “Yeah, I know. And even if she does come with us, and come with us, it doesn’t mean the campaign to win her heart is over.”
Steven looked over at his Aunt Anna, who seemed to be reading a magazine as she stood by the information counter. He knew his aunt very well, however. “Let’s go,” he said to his brother.
Matt got it. They each waved good-bye to their aunt and stepped out into the afternoon sun.
“No,” he said to Matthew as they headed toward his Jeep, “I don’t imagine winning Kelsey’s heart is going to be easy.”
“I simply can’t imagine,” Matthew said. “I know what a blow it was for me when I walked in and found Linda in bed with another man.” Matthew pulled his sunglasses out of the V opening of his shirt and jammed them onto his face.
Steven knew the shades weren’t only because of the bright sunlight.
“That leveled me, and I didn’t want to get involved with anyone for a long time. I can’t imagine what it would have been like to see a wife and child shot to death in front of me,” Matthew said.
“No, neither of us can really understand the magnitude of that kind of loss.”
Matthew rested against the fender of Steven’s Jeep. Steven copied his position so they stood side by side. He nodded, as his brother did, to some of the passersby. One of the things Steven loved best about this small town showed itself now. People could see they were having a serious discussion and left them to it.