Lost in Silence (The Lost Series Book 1)(85)

Erik nuzzles my neck, breathing in deeply. His hot lips pressed wet kisses against my skin and I struggle to keep from flinching. “I’ve missed you Alleycat.”

I keep my body frozen, stifling the fear and disgust rolling through me. I can’t show him any emotion, he wouldn’t like it and my punishment, whatever he has planned, would be much worse if he knew. I have to be his Alice. She would take what he gives her standing, no fear, no emotion and then she’d get down on her knees and suck him off. My stomach rolls again thinking about what he used to make me do. I send up a silent plea hoping he just kills me instead. Something dawns on me though. Alleycat. She was my ticket out and if I played the part well enough, she just might save my life too.

“Have you missed me,” his other hand finds my nipple, pinching it painfully. I can’t help the squeal that escapes my throat and he chuckles, finding pleasure in my pain. “I’ll take that as a yes.”

Erik let’s go of me abruptly and I panic as the blindfold keeps me from seeing anything. I have to remember my part, my role. Alleycat. I strain my ears, listening for everything. His feet move away, stopping a short distance from me. The clanks and jingles coming from his location, sends chills down my spine. I knew those noises. They were the sound of his torture devices. I take a deep breath, trying to steady myself.

“Yes, I’ve missed you but you’ve been so bad,” his voice is muffled confirming he’s turned away. I wiggle my hands, trying to get the circulation running but it’s painful. There’s no point tugging on the ropes holding my arms above my head, they’re firmly in place.

“Did you really think I wouldn’t find you?” he asks his voice no longer muffled and suddenly closer. I hadn’t realized the clanking stopped. I can hear each step, circling me. “Did you think your new boyfriend and his friends would keep me from you?”

He stops behind me, his hot breath on my shoulder. My ears perk up, waiting for some kind of sound to prepare me for what’s next. Something cold runs down the length of my side and I can’t help it, I flinch. He presses it harder causing a slight stinging feeling, something warm trickles down my side.

It’s blood.

“Tsk, tsk, Alleycat, you shouldn’t have moved,” his voice hardens, dripping with disappointed. I can feel him behind me. He leans into me placing his lips against my ear. “Why do you always insist we rush things?”

He reaches around the back of my head, releasing my ball gag. I flex my jaw, careful not to bring too much attention to the movement. I sputter and gag as he brushes the coppery wetness of blood across my lips. He laughs in my face and plunges his fingers into my mouth, pushing them past my gag reflex. “Suck them clean, like a good little Alleycat.”

I dry heave against his fingers.

“You know better than that,” he grabs my jaw, gripping it roughly. He pushes me away, nearly yanking my arms out of the socket. I yelp from the movement. “Your new boyfriend’s cock must not be up to your usual standard, your gag reflex is suffering.”

“Erik, please,” I croak, my voice scratchy.

“I’m sorry did you say something?” his hands are on me again. My arms are on fire, the movement and friction doing nothing for my circulation. “Who do you think you are speaking my name?”

“I—I’m sorry,” I manage, trying to reign it in. I needed to calm down and recollect myself if I had any hope surviving this nightmare. This was a game for Erik and the only one with anything to lose was me. I needed to be smart, choose my words carefully. It’s what Alleycat would do. “I won’t do it again.”

“Good,” his voice softens slightly, allowing me to see a weakness. I can still feel his anger radiating around me but he waits on baited breath for me to speak.

“I shouldn’t have run,” I whisper, the words feel wrong on my lips but I ignore the feeling. My words are for Erik and his ego, designed to compliment him. Something I learned to do long ago. Men like him loved to have their egos stroke almost as much as they like to have their cock sucked. “You were good to me and I was ungrateful.”

I hear his breath hitch, the atmosphere around us changes ever so slightly. He steps back and away from me but I lean towards him playing my part. “Please, don’t leave me. I promise to do better, to take my punishment and to be your Alleycat.”

He’s silent. My words fill the room, disintegrating some of tension. He was beginning to relax, rethink things even. He wasn’t expecting me to relent so easily and he isn’t sure how to react. Knowing Erik, he had the entire punishment planned out. Now, he wasn’t sure what to do.