The moon darkens by cloud cover.
“Okay, I’ve lied to him. But you saw how jealous he gets. It makes me feel like I have to. And I shouldn’t have to defend my right to be friends with another guy.”
I wait. The sky remains dark.
“Fine. The you-know-who situation is weird. Maybe . . . Max and Calliope aren’t so far off. But if I’m never given Max’s trust to begin with, how can he expect me to trust him in return? Do you see what I mean? Do you see how confusing it is?” I close my eyes. “Please, tell me. What do I do?”
The light behind my lids softly brightens. I open my eyes. The clouds have moved, and Cricket’s window is illuminated by moonlight.
“You have a sick sense of humor,” I say.
Her beams don’t waver. And without knowing how it happens, I find myself removing a handful of bobby pins from my desk. I chuck them at his panes. Dink! Dink! Dink dink! Seven bobby pins later, Cricket opens his window.
“Trick-or-treat,” I say.
“Is something wrong?” He’s sleepy and disoriented. He’s also only wearing his boxer briefs, and his bracelets and rubber bands.
OHMYGOD. HE’S ONLY WEARING BOXER BRIEFS.
“No.”
Cricket rubs his eyes. “No?”
DON’T STARE AT HIS BODY. DO NOT STARE AT HIS BODY.
“Did you go anywhere fun tonight? I stayed in and handed out candy. Nathan bought good stuff, name-brand chocolate, not the cheapo mix he usually gets, you know with the Tootsie Pops and Dots and those tiny Tootsie Rolls flavored like lime, I guess you got a lot of kids at your house, too, huh?”
He stares at me blankly. “Did you wake me up . . . to talk about candy?”
“It’s still so hot out, isn’t it?” I blurt. AND THEN I WANT TO DIE.
Because Cricket has turned into stone, having realized the practically naked situation his body is in. Which I am not, not, not looking at. At all.
“Let’s go for a walk!”
My exclamation unfreezes him. He edges out of sight, trying to play it cool. “Now?” he calls from the darkness. “It’s . . . two forty-two in the morning.”
“I could use someone to talk to.”
Cricket pops back up. He has located his pants. He is wearing them.
I blush.
He considers me for a moment, pulls a T-shirt over his head, and then nods. I sneak downstairs, past my parents’ bedroom and Norah’s temporary bedroom, and I reach the street undetected. Cricket is already there. I’m wearing sushi-print pajama bottoms and a white camisole. Seeing him fully dressed again makes me feel undressed, a feeling intensified when I notice him take in my bare skin. We walk up the hill to the corner of our street. Somehow, we both know where we’re going.
The city is silent. The raucous spirit of Halloween has gone to sleep.
We reach the even bigger hill that separates us from Dolores Park. Eighty steps lead to the top. I’ve counted. About twenty up, he stops. “Are you gonna say what’s on your mind, or are you gonna make me guess? Because I’m not good at guessing games. People should say what they mean to say and not make other people stumble around.”
“Sorry.”
He smiles for the first time in ages. “Hey. No apologizing.”
I smile back, but it falters.
His disappears, too. “Is it Max?”
“Yes,” I say quietly.
We walk slowly up the stairs again. “He seemed surprised to see me today. He doesn’t know we hang out, does he?”
The sadness in his voice makes me climb slower. I wrap my arms around myself. “No. He didn’t know.”
Cricket stops. “Are you embarrassed by me?”
“Why would I be embarrassed by you?”
He puts his hands in his pockets. “Because I’m not cool.”
I’m thrown. Cricket isn’t cool in the same sense as Max, but he’s the most interesting person I know. He’s kind and intelligent and attractive. And he’s well dressed. Cricket is REALLY well dressed. “How can you think that?”
“Come on. He’s this sexy rock god, and I’m the boy next door. The stupid science geek, who’s spent his life on the sidelines of figure-skating rinks. With his sister.”
“You’re not . . . you’re not a geek, Cricket. And even if you were, what’s wrong with that? And since when is science stupid?”
He looks unusually agitated.
“Oh, no,” I say. “Please tell me this isn’t about your great-great-whatever grandfather. Because that doesn’t mean any—”
“It means everything. The inheritance that paid for our house, that pays for Calliope’s training, that pays for my college education, that bought everything I’ve ever owned . . . it wasn’t ours. Do you know what happened to Alexander Graham Bell after he became famous? He spent the rest of his life hiding in a remote part of Canada. In shame of what he’d done.”