Lex(77)

“You’re not going to take me out of your mouth to answer me are you?”

He shakes his head, and I giggle a smile.

“Can I ask you questions? You nod or shake your head in answer?”

He nods.

“Do you like touching me?”

Nod.

“Are you going to let me touch you?”

Shakes his head, and I frown.

“Have you known about lady all along?”

Nod.

“And it doesn’t turn you off?”

Shakes head repeatedly and an ‘uh-uh’ garbles out of his throat.

“Can I get up to take a shower?”

Shakes his head. I giggle.

“When…can I get up and take a shower?”

His eyes take in my body, sitting atop of his and he cutely bounces his manly eyebrows and sucks me forcefully a few times. Making me groan.

I get the point.

“Not until I get off?”

He smiles, and nods.

“Okay, then you better work your magical mouth. I’ve got to shower, do yoga and we need to talk.”

He nods and starts sucking me harder and deeper into his mouth. Grabbing my butt, he lifts me off his chest, scoots down a little and positions me so he can control my hips thrusting. His arms do the work, as I hold onto the nightstand and he forces me to hump hard into his face with loud and powerful thrusts. Gagging as he hammers my length too far into the back of his throat, tears steam down his face and he does it again. Rough and forcefully, he makes me fuck his face and he moans the entire time, watching me, as I writhe on top of him. Unable to keep myself from steeping in the intense ecstasy, I let go and moan, allowing the pleasure to shamelessly overtake me.

Hot come erupts from my prick and I lose myself again, in his hot wet mouth. Wringing me dry, he sets me back onto his chest, and with a ‘pop’ removes my length from his sexy mouth.

Devilishly smiling, he licks his lips.

“You taste so good. I hope you let me do that every day.”

My eyes widen. He wants this to be more than a one-night stand. Now, I’m confused. I thought all Gage wanted was sexual encounters. I hear men say a lot of things in the heat of the moment, but we’re past that now.

Pushing off his chest with my hands, I stand and pace my room. What is going on here? I’m elated he likes lady. That makes me feel beyond ecstatic, and I like Gage. I mean really like him.

Shaking my head, bewildered, I see him stand out of the corner of my eye.

“What’s wrong?” he asks, breaking the pregnant silence.

“I…I thought you just wanted to…you know… I didn’t.” I shrug, chewing my cheek.

“Didn’t know what?” He’s getting angry, again.

“That you wanted more. Every day kind of… I mean…” I stop pacing and shrug again, raising my hands palms up, with my shoulders this time.

“You think I’d take you to bed like I did last night and not want to do it all the time? Seriously? Do you not know me at all?”

“I….I…dunno.”

I don’t want to talk about feelings. Feelings aren’t good to discuss, not when my mind is such a clustered overwhelmed mess.

“Goddammit Lex, I fucking want you. Not just sex.” He punches the air and growls, “Fuck!”

I wince as his anger rolls through the room like a wild fog.

“Do you think I don’t dream about you? That I don’t want to date you? I want that. I want it all, Lex. Please give it to me. I can make you happy.”

The way he kisses me and touches me, it all feels so right. I can’t deny that. I care for Gage, more than I know I should. What he’s asking for, it is too much… Way, way too much. Men like him will drown me. I won’t be myself anymore. I will fall in love with him. I can already feel it brewing deep inside me, my heart already yearns for him. I can’t go down that slippery slope, no way, no how. I was brave to open my body. I can’t open up the past or the rest of what makes me, me. That’s too painful of a path to venture down. He wouldn’t understand. I’m sure he already has questions about why I have what I have, and not a vagina like he’s used to. The rest is darker, gloomier and more painful than that. He mustn’t know any of it. I can’t speak about it, to no one. Ever!

Turning away so I don’t have to see his pained expression, I mutter. “I think you should leave.”

“No.”

“Gage, please. This isn’t going to work.”

“Yes it is!”

I flinch at his outburst.

Warm arms surround me, pulling my back against his chest. “I’m sorry I shouldn’t have yelled.” He kisses my neck.

Damn him! He’s distracting me.

“Stop. Please.” I cry, my heart aches too much.