“I guess I already knew that,” Justin says quietly. “Maybe you’ll let me watch one with you sometime?”
“Maybe,” I say, not quite ready to make that commitment. “I don’t really share that with other people. Well, I never have before, but I’ve never really had a boyfriend before either.”
He grins. “So I’m your boyfriend, now?” he teases me. I groan and cover my face with a pillow and toss it toward him. He grins even more and throws it aside. It hurls its way over to my dresser and knocks into the forgotten package from Drake. “What is that?” he asks me. I look toward where his eyes are pointed and my heart skips a beat. He’s looking directly at the package.
He sits up and pulls up his jeans and walks over to the brown package. I watch in horror as he picks it up and turns it around in his hands. “What is this and where did it come from?” he asks.
“Um, I don’t know,” I said, sounding immediately like I’m lying, which is half the case. I sigh. “Drake brought it.”
“Drake?” Justin asks. “You mean, the lawyer?” I nod and cringe. Justin’s face look like he’s working things out. “Jenna, that night I picked you up, was it from his place?”
“Yes,” I whisper. Justin takes my affirmation as a cue to rip open the paper. It’s an unmarked DVD case. My heart feels like it might leap out of my throat as he walks over to the small television I have in my bedroom and opens the DVD player. He turns the screen on and it’s Drake fucking me the first night we were together, the night he got my yellow dress all wet. The night I so willingly fucked him. “Turn it off!” I cry out but Justin doesn’t move. He just watches the screen. He keeps watching and watching and I am watching him watch and feel my face grow hot with tears. He looks wistful, sad, and confused. Then I see his facial expression change to one of horror as the scene changes. It’s the same setting, but it is obvious that Kate has taken over me on the screen. I can’t watch the screen, I can only watch Justin as he takes in what Drake sent to me on that damned DVD, and then I hear myself scream and finally turn and look, and it’s Drake, fucking me over the control panel of his “screening” room, and that’s the last thing I see.
Chapter 14
“Hello Justin,” she purrs.
“Kate?” he blinks and stares. Slowly he realizes the difference. Her tone, her mannerisms, her look she is giving him – they all aren’t like Jenna. They are Kate, and he recalls the night he first encountered her. She seems much more mellow tonight, though. The last time she visited when he was here she was manic.
“That’s right. Good to see you again.”
He crosses his brows together. “I think the only time we ever met we watched a baseball game and there isn’t one on. So perhaps you should let Jenna come back out.”
She smiles bewitchingly. “Actually I watched you sleeping a couple of nights ago and went through your drawers. I’m sad to say I didn’t find much there.”
“No, you wouldn’t,” he says. “I have nothing to hide from you. Or Jenna.”
“I don’t have anything to hide from you either,” Kate echoes. “Actually, Jenna is the one with all of the secrets. She’s told you some things and left out a lot of bits and pieces. When you saw how much she liked what happened on that tape, she hid from you.”
“What do you mean?” Justin asks.
“I mean she likes it rough,” Kate says huskily. She pushes Justin back against the mattress and hovers over him. Her hair dusts against his face lightly.
“You mean you like it rough,” Justin says. “Jenna lets me make love to her. You let men degrade you and enjoy it.”
“She’ll get bored,” Kate says, “Don’t you want to degrade me?” she suddenly asks Justin, as though the idea just popped into her head. “Wouldn’t you like to smack me around and fuck me hard? Maybe you can fuck me in the ass. I’ll let you.”
“No,” Justin replies calmly. “I’d rather be with Jenna than do those things to you. I don’t know you very well.”
“I know you,” Kate says. “I know you like to feel like you’re helping everyone and feeling useful. What kind of charity case did you have before Jenna and Devin came along? Do you only date girls with problems so you can feel like a knight in shining armor?”
He actually looks hurt. “That’s not fair.”
She smiles. “But it’s true.”
Justin looks conflicted. “It’s true I like to help. But Jenna is special to me and if it were anyone else, I might not be so willing.”