Kane(99)
Nico settled Kane in the back of the Jeep, buckled his seatbelt and muttered curse words when Kane fell to the left and instantly began snoring. “Heavy bastard,” he grunted.
I smiled to myself as I rounded on the passenger side of the car and climbed into the front seat, buckling myself up. When Nico was settled in the driver’s seat, he started the fifteen-minute journey to get us home. For the first few minutes, we were silent until Nico began to talk.
“He likes you. You know that right?”
I didn’t reply because I didn’t know what to say.
“He does. He just has a funny way of showing it, but he likes you.”
My heart thudded lightly against my chest.
“He can’t stand me, Nico.”
Nico laughed, “Get real, Aideen. He only argues with you because he doesn’t know how else to approach you.”
That was stupid.
“So he’s just a dick to me because he likes me? That’s the dumbest thing I’ve ever heard.”
“I never said he was smart.”
I grinned a little at that then frowned when Kane snored behind us.
“I... I don’t know if I can spend time with someone like him. His temper... it scares me. I like him too, but I don’t know if it’s enough.”
“He would never hurt you,” Nico assured me.
I nodded my head. “I believe that, but his ability to hurt other people frightens me just as much.”
Nico set his jaw. “It’s not his fault that he’s the way he is.”
I blinked. “Whose fault is it then?”
His hands tightened on the steering wheel of the car. “People from our past.”
“Ah,” I said and snapped my fingers. “Marco? He made you a fighter and Alec an escort, right?”
Nico mutely nodded his head.
“What were Ryder and Kane’s jobs for him?”
He glanced at me. “You don’t know?”
I huffed, “No. The girls are all about ‘respectin’ their men’s privacy’ or some bullshit like that.”
Nico laughed, “I bet that kills you.”
“You could say that,” I admitted.
With a smile he said, “You aren’t missing a lot by being in the dark, trust me, Ado. Being in the dark when it comes to my family is a kindness.”
I groaned, “Not when I’m havin’ a baby with a man who is lost in that darkness.”
“I don’t know what you want me to say, Ado. Kane is my brother, but even I don’t fully understand or know the things he was put through. He doesn’t talk about it. Ever.”
I began to feel sick.
“You mean the cause of his scars?” I asked, my voice low.
Nico nodded and kept his eyes on the road. “He doesn’t talk about how he got them, and we don’t push him on it.”
I leaned back. “Why not? If you understood what he went through, you could help him now.”
“He is fine,” he assured me. “He rarely gets into fights... it’s only since... well, since-”
“Since I got pregnant?”
Nico glanced at me then back to the road as he bobbed his head up and down.
“I know you’re adjusting to your life suddenly changing, Ado, but you have no idea how huge this is for Kane.”
I remained silent as Nico gave me more insight into Kane.
“He has a low tolerance for people. He accepted Bronagh, Branna, Keela and even Alannah because my brothers and me love them, and luckily he grew to love them too. He is a funny and kind person... but he is fucked up, Aideen. I’m not going to sugar coat it—things won’t be easy with him. But just... just remember how difficult this is for him.”
I lifted my hands to my face and rubbed. “I need to know what made him the way he is. It’s not right that he blacks out when he fights—it’s dangerous as hell. He is like a machine.”
Nico was quiet for a few minutes until he said, “Ask him why. Just pick the right moment.”
Until we fully trusted one another to open up and really talk, I just wasn’t sure if the ‘right moment’ would ever happen. Kane had a lot of layers to him, I didn’t know if he would ever let me get to his centre.
“I can’t believe you paid people to move everythin’ into me new apartment for me. Me old apartment is empty, I just have me bed, a few clothes and that’s it.”
I was currently sat on my bed looking around my bare bedroom. I would be moving out of it for good tomorrow, and I wasn’t even sad about it. I was ready to be moving on to a new chapter in my life.