Still, the idea was too tempting. It would be a dream come true. She could work until she had enough money saved up and then she could leave town and go anywhere in the country she wanted and start over where no one knew who she was or what she could do. She would simply be another nameless, faceless person in the crowd. The excitement that washed over her couldn't be controlled or called back no matter how hard she tried. It was stupid to get her hopes up only to have them dashed, but she had to try. She wasn't a quitter. If she had been, she would have done what the elders had wanted her to do years ago.
FOURTEEN
ISAAC had been so caught up in planning strategy and plotting their next move that he hadn't checked on Jenna in the last half hour. As soon as the realization struck him he turned around frantically, seeking her out. But when he saw her huddled against the wall on the far side of the room, her legs drawn to her chest in a protective posture, his pulse sped up. And when he saw the betraying quiver of her shoulders, he cursed long and loud under his breath.
Her face was buried against her knees, her hair providing an effective barrier so her facial expressions were completely shielded, but he didn't need to see her to know she was weeping silently, doing her best to hide her distress from the others. In that moment, she looked so alone and fragile, his heart ached and he vowed to alleviate the pain in any way possible. She was hurting, but so was he, because he couldn't bear for this beautiful, selfless woman to suffer so much pain. It made him feel helpless and inept, two emotions he was not accustomed to experiencing in his line of work.
But she wasn't work and she wasn't a goddamn job. She was fucking everything.
"We're done here," Isaac said sharply, his gaze never leaving Jenna's defeated posture, hating with every breath that she was silently crying and trying not to be a burden-a fucking burden! When in such a short time, she'd become his entire world.
When his teammates followed the direction of his stare, there was a mixture of softening and hardening of their expressions. None of them were happy that while they had been deciding their next move, Jenna had been ignored, sitting alone, frightened and vulnerable.
He strode over to her and simply bent and slipped his arms around her and lifted her, ignoring her startled gasp. He tucked her damp face into his neck so she would be saved the discomfort of the others' concerned scrutiny.
"Shhh, baby," he murmured as he carried her toward the bedroom. "Just let me take care of you. I don't want you to worry about anything. You never have to be afraid or uncertain when you're in my arms," he said in a whispered vow.
She relaxed against him, her body melting into his as he entered the bedroom and pushed the door shut behind him. He didn't release his hold on her until he eased her down on the bed and then he stood above her for a moment, hating to separate himself from her even for the few seconds it would take to collect one of his oversized T-shirts for her to sleep in.
He returned and slowly, so as not to alarm her, began undressing her. She swallowed, a small gasp escaping her sweet, puffy lips, and color stained her cheeks as she quickly wrapped her arms around her chest to cover her breasts.
"You never have to be shy with me, Jenna. You're so fucking perfect. So beautiful you make me ache. I need to get you in something more comfortable to sleep in. The girls brought over clothes and shoes for you, but tonight you'll sleep in my shirt so you know who you belong to."
Her cheeks flushed again, this time pleasure making her eyes shine, and her earlier sadness evaporated as she stared at him as though he were a goddamn hero. Like he was the only man in the world, and as long as he was the only man in her world he could manage to breathe without the ever-present panic of losing her, of her disappearing from his world and taking every shred of goodness and light with her.
He knew she was his entire world, that no one else existed for him, but he had to ensure himself an equal place in her world and future. There was nothing he wouldn't do to make her his, to bind her so tightly to him that there was no hope of escape for either of them.
With shaking hands, he pulled the shirt over her head and slowly dragged it down her body, his knuckles softly grazing the swells of her breasts. They both exhaled sharply and her pupils suddenly covered nearly all of the pale blue, leaving only a thin ring around the dark orbs.
Her chest heaved as though she struggled to breathe, but then he hadn't taken a single breath since he'd bared her delectable curves in order to dress her for bed. His chest burned with the need for oxygen, and only when she was fully covered once more did he find it possible to suck air into his starved lungs.
"You need to rest, sweetheart," he said as he tucked her beneath the covers. "Tomorrow's going to be a long day and this might be your last chance to get a good night's sleep for a while."