Just One Touch (Slow Burn #5)(41)

That thought immediately sobered her and she vowed to take extreme care this time and not to trust anyone. She'd gotten lucky that Isaac had been someone she could trust, but what if she'd attempted to steal someone else's vehicle? If not for Isaac she'd now be in the hands of brutal monsters. Not everyone was good like Isaac and his men, and from now on, she'd take no chances, thus not giving herself any opportunity to trust only to then be betrayed.

Fear had lent her strength before when she'd fled. It had given her the adrenaline necessary to go through with her plan. But this time she couldn't count on those things to save her again. She had to be smart and use her head if she had any hope of getting out of this place and staying alive.

It little mattered where in the city she went, only that she kept away from darkened alleys and dimly lit streets. Neighborhoods that were suspect. Anything that fired the sixth sense for danger she'd always possessed. This time she'd damn well listen instead of plunging recklessly through the streets looking frantically for something, anything, to aid her in her escape.

She needed to make it a point to keep to crowded areas where she could blend in. Stick to busy parts of town. Shopping meccas. Places where there were plenty of stores, maybe a large mall. It would be so easy to blend in with the thousands of people who scurried along like ants in and out of an anthill.

But before she got too carried away with her plan, she had to make some very important changes or nothing she'd planned up to now would make a darn bit of difference. Her looks were simply too distinctive, too memorable. So she needed to change her appearance, and not by just a little bit.



       
         
       
        

Her hair and features weren't forgettable. Isaac had called her an angel-his angel-in a tone of awe that made her think he truly did see her as an angel with her long, pale, almost white hair, her startlingly blue eyes and her nearly translucent skin.

She needed to dye her hair. She knew it made her sound not only vain but incredibly stupid, but she couldn't bring herself to cut the long tresses. It was her one rebellion. The elders had threatened her time and time again with shearing every bit of her hair off as a way to humiliate her and bend her to their will, but each time she vowed that she'd kill herself before ever agreeing to heal another person in the cult if they carried out their promise.

The fear in their eyes told her they knew she wasn't bluffing, and she wasn't. She'd lost so much already. Why was she even hanging on anyway? It was a question she'd asked herself dozens of times over the years, only to cry herself to sleep because she didn't have an answer.

Perhaps it was the sheer desperation etched into her features that convinced them, or the fact that she looked dully at them, like death was the ultimate freedom for her, one she wanted very badly. Though they hadn't followed through on their hollow threat, security on her had been doubled, and she was forced to eat whether she wanted to or not.

Often they forced a feeding tube down her and held her down while they inserted an IV so they could administer fluids intravenously in addition to the nutrients administered via the feeding tube. It was as though they feared she would make good on her threat to go through with it and end all her pain, humiliation and misery.

It should shame her that she allowed them to think that of her. That she was so weak that she would end her own life rather than fight with every breath for her freedom no matter how long it took. But it bought her precious time, time she needed if she was ever going to make good on the vow she'd made herself when she was but a young girl trapped in an environment where she could smell the stench of evil, so much so that it sickened her and many a night, she threw up every single bite of food or liquids forced on her during the day.

So while she refused to cut so much as an inch off her hair, and it could very well end up the worst mistake of her life, she could alter her appearance in other ways. She could dye her hair a color so different from her own that no one would ever recognize her. Red was out. She simply couldn't see herself as a redhead. But she could do dark brown or even black.

After consideration, she decided that coloring her hair black, like the sky at midnight when no moon or stars were visible through the inky darkness, was her best shot at being able to move through the shadows undetected. If luck and God were on her side, the sky would remain overcast so the moon and the stars couldn't cast their light to penetrate even the best disguise. Then the odds of her remaining undetected would greatly increase. But even better was the fact that visibility would be limited to feet instead of much greater distances.