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Jedi Apprentice(23)

By:Jude Watson


AVENGE CERASI CHOOSE WAR

Something snapped in Obi-Wan. He ran at the banner and jumped up to grab it. The material was hard to tear, but he kept at it, muscles aching, fingers stiff, until he had ripped it into tiny pieces.

Cerasi could not be used this way. He had to stop it. He had to take his grief and his love for her and fight to stop it.

He had to talk to Nield. No one else could help him.

Obi-Wan found him in the tunnels, in a room far away from the vault where they’d first met. It was a room they’d used for a short time as storage. Nield sat on a bench, his head down.

“Nield?” Obi-Wan entered the room hesitantly. “I’ve been searching for you.”

Nield didn’t look up. But neither did he ask Obi-Wan to leave.

“Our hearts are broken,” Obi-Wan said. “I know that. I miss her. But if she could see what is happening, she would be furious. Do you know what I mean?”

Nield didn’t answer.

“They’re mobilizing for war and using Cerasi as a reason,” Obi-Wan said. “We can’t let that happen. It would violate everything she stood for. We couldn’t protect Cerasi when she was alive. But we can protect her memory.”

Nield’s head still hung down. Was his grief so huge that he couldn’t hear Obi-Wan? Or had he reached him?

Then Nield looked up. Obi-Wan took a step backward. Instead of the grief he expected to see, Nield’s face was twisted with rage.

“How dare you come here,” Nield said, his voice throbbing with fury. “How dare you say you couldn’t protect her? Why not, Obi-Wan?”

Nield stood. In the small space, his head nearly touched the ceiling. His anger filled the chamber.

“I tried to get to her,” Obi-Wan began. “I -“

“She shouldn’t have been there at all!” Nield shouted. “You should have been watching her, protecting her, not rushing into situations trying to save strangers like a … Jedi!”

Spitting out the last word, Nield took a menacing step toward Obi-Wan. His dark eyes

burned. Obi-Wan could see the unshed tears in them. Tears of grief and rage.

“Jedi, always with their minds on higher things,” Nield continued bitterly. “Always better than those they protect, unable to connect with living beings, with flesh and blood and hearts…”

“No!” Obi-Wan cried. “That’s not what Jedi are about! That’s exactly opposite of who we are!”

“We!” Nield cried. “You see? You are a Jedi! You have no loyalty to us. You’re a stranger. You influenced Cerasi, you made her oppose me-“

“No, Nield.” Obi-Wan struggled to keep his voice calm and steady. “You know that’s not true. No one could ever influence Cerasi or tell her what to do. She only wanted peace. That’s why I’m here.”

Nield’s hands curled into fists. “Peace?” he hissed. “What is that? What is peace next to loss? Cerasi was killed by the Elders and they must suffer. I won’t rest until every filthy Elder is dead. I will avenge her or die!”

Obi-Wan was taken aback. Nield sounded like a hologram in the Halls that he detested.

“What are you doing here, Obi-Wan Kenobi?” Nield asked, disgust choking his voice. “You aren’t part of the Young. You never were. You’re not Melida. You’re not Daan. You’re nobody, you’re nowhere, and you are nothing to me.” The anger left Nield’s voice, and weariness seemed to pull him down on the bench. “Now get out of my sight … and get off my planet.”

Obi-Wan backed out of the chamber. He walked through the tunnels until he saw a square of gray light overhead. He pulled himself up through a grate he had never been through before. He found himself on an unfamiliar street.

He was lost. He took a step in one direction, then another. His brain was reeling, and he couldn’t gather his thoughts. They were clouded by Nield’s words.

Where should he go? Every cord that connected him to his life had snapped. Everyone he cared about was gone.

Nield was right. Without the Jedi, without the Young, he had nobody. He was nobody. When nothing was left, where was there to turn?

The gray sky seemed to press down on him, grinding him into the pavement. He wanted to fall down and never rise again.

But as he reached the bottom of his despair, he heard a voice in his head.

Always here, you may come, when lost you are…

Qui-Gon alerted security to be on the lookout for Bruck. They could comb the grounds more efficiently than he could. Then he raised the container from the water himself and dragged it back to shore. At least they could return the stolen property.

He retrieved Obi-Wan’s lightsaber from the dry compartment. He hit the activator, and it shot to life immediately, glowing ice-blue in the darkness. It hadn’t been damaged, he saw with relief. He deactivated it and hooked it into his belt next to his own.