He kept his gaze on me when he lowered himself down, and I immediately felt him between my legs. The heat there was immense, and he wasn’t even inside of me yet. I was looking down at us and not at his face. “Look into my eyes,” he said.
He stared at me with his beautiful green irises with gold speckles spread out like stars in a night sky and said, “I want you to forget the other sexual experiences you think you had, because this is your first time. You will always belong to me and unlike your prick ex-boyfriend, I’m gonna finish the job.” We smiled at each other, and my heart nearly combusted. I was dying for him and just like that, I felt the friction and then the unprecedented pleasure of him fully inside of me.
He kissed me as he moved in and out of me with a graceful intensity. Every movement was intentional, as he started off easy, pulling almost completely out each time before slipping slowly and deeply back inside. When I tightened my muscles around him and grabbed his ass, he laughed over my mouth because he knew I was egging him on and said, “You want to play like that, baby?”
I giggled into his mouth and nodded. He then began to thrust harder and faster and I moved my hands off of his ass, so he wouldn’t lose control.
“Nina…God, you’re so wet. It’s so beautiful. You feel amazing. Better than amazing. Better than anything I have ever felt.”
His kiss became more urgent, and we developed a rhythm for several minutes that was all-consuming. I never understood the meaning of becoming one during sex until this moment. I was lost in him and had no concept of time.
When I returned my hands to his ass, he let out a growl and broke from my mouth. “Tell me you’re close…because I don’t know how much longer I can go. You feel too good. I’m losing control. I need to come.”
“I’ve been holding out for you.”
“Don’t hold out, baby.”
I closed my eyes when he said, “Open them…look at me. I want look in your eyes when we come together.”
He thrust into me harder, never taking his eyes off of mine. I wanted to let go at the exact moment he did. I squeezed my muscles and watched as he groaned loud and deep as his eyes rolled back once before returning to my gaze. He began to pulsate fast inside me and I finally let go and screamed as I surrendered to the best orgasm of my life.
Holy shit. I just had sex with Jake.
Our hearts beat against each other as he collapsed onto me and buried his face in my neck. All I could think about was how right he was. Tonight had been my first real sexual experience.
CHAPTER 19
I hadn’t counted the number of times or ways we made love that night, but we didn’t stop for hours. I kept wanting more, and he kept accommodating me, making good on his promise to “make me come until I screamed in every possible way imaginable.” We might have even been in the midst of another round when I fell asleep because when I woke up at three in the morning, I hadn’t even remembered nodding off.
The lamp was still on, and to my relief, he was right next to me fast asleep. He locked me into his warm grasp with his arm across my belly. As I looked down at his handsome face, I wanted to cry because I had never been so happy and so scared at the same time in my entire life. This moment in time was like a dream I didn’t want to wake up from. I was terrified of what he needed to tell me later today.
My thoughts kept me up, and I really needed to use the bathroom, since I hadn’t peed at all after leaving Eleni’s last night. Quietly slipping from underneath Jake’s arm, I tip toed down the hall. There was a note on the mirror.
Glad to see you two made up. From what I could hear, you actually made up multiple times last night. --T
I would deal with her later.
When I returned to the bedroom, he was in the same position sound asleep on his stomach with his arm reaching across my side of the bed. Lifting it, I slid back underneath him. When I glanced over at my nightstand, I noticed a folded piece of paper that hadn’t been there last night and opened it.
I met a girl, a few months back
With huge blue eyes and an amazing rack.
Turned out she was moving in
And kind of looked like an Olsen twin.
She put up with my shit and sarcastic wit.
And faced my wrath when she sucked at math.
Until her, it had been a while
Since anyone truly made me smile.
It might have been fate, in a way…
Her moving in that day.
I found the more time with her I’d spend
She actually became my best friend.
When we made love, things did change.
In fact, it’s really strange.
That friend delivered by fate?
Turns out…she was my soulmate.
And as I lay here watching her sleep,