“Hey,” I nudged his back with my foot.
He turned to me and put his hand on my leg, rubbing it gently. His voice was groggy. “Hey…I thought you were sleeping.”
“Don’t leave just yet. Stay.”
He saw the look on my face, and his eyes bugged out of his head. “Are you sure?”
I pulled the sheets off of myself revealing my fully naked body. He hadn’t seen me like that, in the light of day, in months. “Yes. Get over here.”
He let out a long unsteady breath, and within seconds, he was on top of me. His skin was warm, and he was fully hard as he covered me with soft kisses from my neck down to my stomach. “I have been dying, baby. I missed this. I missed you. God…I love…your body,” he whispered in between breaths, kissing his way back up to my mouth.
I wanted to tell him how badly I missed this too but couldn’t speak, having become completely absorbed in him once his lips covered mine. The kiss started out slow, then he nudged my mouth open greedily, and it became desperate as if we were competing with each other to prove who wanted the other more.
He broke away just long enough to say, “I need to be inside of you…right now…please…”
I nodded through our kiss, and he spread my legs open, entering me without further permission. I gasped at the feeling, made more intense by weeks of absence. I had been cruel, undeserving of this reward…of him. It felt better than I ever remembered it.
It had been too damn long.
He moved inside of me fast and hard; there was no option to be gentle after the long torturous wait I had put him through. He groaned deeply from the back of his throat, and it was loud. He bit my shoulder to stifle the sounds of his pleasure, defeating the purpose, because the feel of his teeth biting into me made me moan even louder than he had.
Then, as if on cue, came the cries from across the room.
No.
No.
No.
Not yet.
Jake spoke into my neck and pushed deeper into me in retaliation. “Fuck…not now. I can’t stop.”
The crying became louder.
“Shit. Jake…I have to get him. He never woke up for his four-am feeding. He’s hungry.”
“So am I,” he said hoarsely in my ear. Still inside of me, his movements slowed as he conceded defeat, eventually pulling out.
“I know…I’m sorry.”
I searched for my robe as Jake got up, threw his pants on and walked over to the corner of the room, lifting our son out of the crib. A.J.’s dark hair was sticking up, wild and crazy, just like his daddy’s. Jake kissed him on the head. “I love you, you little cockblocker.”
I laughed as I sat up against the headboard and grabbed the Boppy pillow, as he handed me the baby and placed him on my breast. A.J. immediately started suckling, and I was glad at least one of my guys was happy for the moment.
He sat next to me, and we both looked down at our son in awe, then up at each other. Jake’s unsatisfied desire for me still shown all over his eyes when they met mine. He caressed my other breast gently with the back of his index finger. “You have never looked more beautiful to me as you do right now,” he said before laying his head on my shoulder.
I wanted so badly to pick up in the shower where we left off, once A.J had been fed, but Jake was already running late. On top of that, I had asked him to come home early, because we would be leaving for a visit to New York this afternoon. It would be our first time back since A.J was born.
“I need to go,” he said.
“I know.” I nodded, offering a slight smile, determined not to show my sadness.
He got up from the bed and walked toward the bathroom, turning around and gesturing down to his pants. He was still hard. “I have to take care of this in the shower real quick.” He snarled. “I’d rather be taking care of it inside of you.”
I smiled. “Rain check?”
He walked back over to the bed and kneeled over me, kissing my forehead. “I am so glad you’re feeling better.”
“Me too.”
His eyes smoldered, and his expression turned serious. “I’m using that rain check tonight. I want you…all to myself. Promise me.”
I want you now. I want you to stay. I hate it when you leave me to go see her.
“I promise.”
He shook his head, and his eyes looked watery. “I love you so much, Nina.”
I knew that my behavior lately had scared him. Really scared him. He thought he was losing me. Hell, I thought I was losing myself.
“I love you, too.”
With no time for breakfast, he showered and left but not before stopping to kiss A.J. and me goodbye, lingering longer than usual this time.
I looked down at our son, who was now falling asleep on my breast, his mouth moving slowly but no longer drinking. “It’s just you and me, Bubs. What do you want to do today?” I bent down to kiss his head as his breathing slowed. “I think you’re doing it right now.”