"What a way to tell me!" he says, scowling. "In front of over a hundred people! How intimate!"
"Oh, so it's not enough that I told you; it has to be in the right setting?" I raise my eyebrows. "Next time should I brew some tea and make sure the lighting is right, too?"
Tobias lets out a frustrated sound and turns away from me, pacing a few steps. When he turns back, his cheeks are splotchy. I can't remember ever seeing his face change color before.
"Sometimes," he says quietly, "it isn't easy to be with you, Tris." He looks away.
I want to tell him that I know it's not easy, but I wouldn't have made it through the past week without him. But I just stare at him, my heart pounding in my ears.
I can't tell him I need him. I can't need him, period-or really, we can't need each other, because who knows how long either of us will last in this war?
"I'm sorry," I say, all my anger gone. "I should have been honest with you."
"That's it? That's all you have to say?" He frowns.
"What else do you want me to say?"
He just shakes his head. "Nothing, Tris. Nothing."
I watch him walk away. I feel like a space has opened up within me, expanding so rapidly it will break me apart.
"OKAY, WHAT THE hell are you doing here?" a voice demands.
I sit on a mattress in one of the hallways. I came here to do something, but I lost my train of thought when I arrived, so I just sat down instead. I look up. Lynn-who I first met when she stomped on my toes in a Hancock building elevator-stands over me with raised eyebrows. Her hair is growing out-it's still short, but I can't see her skull anymore.
"I'm sitting," I say. "Why?"
"You're ridiculous, is what you are." She sighs. "Get your stuff together. You're Dauntless, and it's time you acted like it. You're giving us a bad reputation among the Candor."
"How exactly am I doing that?"
"By acting like you don't know us."
"I'm just doing Christina a favor."
"Christina." Lynn snorts. "She's a lovesick puppy. People die. That's what happens in war. She'll figure it out eventually."
"Yeah, people die, but it's not always your good friend who kills them."
"Whatever." Lynn sighs impatiently. "Come on."
I don't see a reason to refuse. I get up and follow her down a series of hallways. She moves at a brisk pace, and it's difficult to keep up with her.
"Where's your scary boyfriend?" she says.
My lips pucker like I just tasted something sour. "He's not scary."
"Sure he's not." She smirks.
"I don't know where he is."
She shrugs. "Well, you can grab him a bunk, too. We're trying to forget those Dauntless-Erudite bastard children. Pull together again."
I laugh. "Dauntless-Erudite bastard children, huh."
She pushes a door open, and we stand in a large, open room that reminds me of the building's lobby. Unsurprisingly, the floors are black with a huge white symbol in the center of the room, but most of it has been covered up with bunk beds. Dauntless men, women, and children are everywhere, and there isn't a single Candor in sight.
Lynn leads me to the left side of the room and between the rows of bunks. She looks at the boy sitting on one of the bottom bunks-he is a few years younger than we are, and he's trying to undo a knot in his shoelaces.
"Hec," she says, "you're going to have to find another bunk."
"What? No way," he says without looking up. "I'm not relocating again just because you want to have late-night pillow chats with one of your stupid friends."
"She is not my friend," snaps Lynn. I almost laugh. She's right-the first thing she did when she met me was stomp on my toes. "Hec, this is Tris. Tris, this is my little brother, Hector."
At the sound of my name, his head jerks up, and he stares at me, openmouthed.
"Nice to meet you," I say.
"You're Divergent," he says. "My mom said to stay away from you because you might be dangerous."
"Yeah. She's a big scary Divergent, and she's going to make your head explode with only the power of her brain," says Lynn, jabbing him between the eyes with her index finger. "Don't tell me you actually believe all that kid stuff about the Divergent."
He turns bright red and snatches some of his things from a pile next to the bed. I feel bad for making him move until I see him toss his things down a few bunks over. He doesn't have to go far.
"I could have done that," I say. "Slept over there, I mean."
"Yeah, I know." Lynn grins. "He deserves it. He called Zeke a traitor right to Uriah's face. It's not like it's not true, but that's no reason to be a jerk about it. I think Candor is rubbing off on him. He feels like he can just say whatever he wants. Hey, Mar!"