“This is horrible,” she said.
“Why?”
“It’s gross. Look at it, I’ve ruined the sheets.”
“So? We’ll change them. A little blood doesn’t bother me, Zara. You gave me something precious, and don’t ever think this is going to be a problem.” He pressed the cloth between her thighs, and she bit her lip, touched by his tenderness.
The Family, the mafia way of life didn’t know what a jewel they had with Tonio. There were moments exactly like this one where she saw the tenderness within him. His father had tried to break him down and tear that tenderness right out of him. He’d not broken though. Tonio was a strong man, and she imagined that was why his father was such a brute. She only knew so much, but she had a feeling that behind closed doors, his father had abused him in awful ways.
Zara wanted to replace those nightmares he had with good ones, kind ones. She wanted to give him the kind of happiness that he deserved. He finished cleaning her up, and her cheeks heated at his intimate touch.
“Your pussy is so pretty.”
“Tonio?”
“Don’t go all embarrassed on me. You gave me something precious, and I’m going to cherish it for the rest of my life.”
She settled back on the pillows, staring at him. “You’re a strange man, you know that, right?”
“Baby, I’ve been brought up to kill people for a living. Of course I’m strange.”
“What was it like growing up?” she asked, intrigued by him.
“Tell me what it was like for you before all the shit started with your parents. It must have been okay.”
Zara sighed. “I love my childhood. When I think back to it, I can’t help but be happy about it, about us as a family. They couldn’t have any more kids. I was a problem pregnancy, or something. Dad, he loved cooking. He’d find any reason to cook up a storm or create a barbeque. In our neighborhood, everyone was always invited for fun and food.” She smiled. “It was nice. They were always trying to make sure I got good grades, and making sure I didn’t fail in school.”
“That’s good.”
“What about you?” she asked.
“Life for the kids of The Family is not easy. We have to be trained to be tough.”
“Trained?”
“We’re supposed to take over, marry who we’re ordered to marry. We’re trained to fight to the death. My father also took great pleasure in torture in case I ever got taken. Our secrets are our greatest asset. It’s what our enemies would like to know in here.” He pressed a finger to his head. “It’s what makes us valuable. Our contacts, our suppliers, all of it. They’d kill for that. Even the law would kill for it, but it stays trapped up there.”
“He trained you to be tortured.”
“Yep. He went as far as he was able to. I still have all my fingernails and toenails.”
“You just got beat to a bloody pulp.”
“All for a good cause.”
She went to her knees, wrapping her arms around his neck, and holding onto him. “That’s all over now, and you don’t need to worry about it again.” She kissed his cheek. “I won’t let anything happen to you.”
“Baby, you’re not going to be able to stop it.”
No, she wouldn’t accept that. “Then remember, I’ve got your back. I’ll always have your back, and I’ll do whatever is needed to protect you. Always.” She cupped his cheek, turning him to face her.
“You don’t owe me anything.”
“This isn’t about doing what is owed. This is about doing what is right. You’re a good person, Tonio. You have the right to be taken care of. To be protected, and if no one is prepared to do that, you’ve got me.”
“When you leave?” he asked.
She saw the pain in his eyes and heard it in his voice.
“Tonio, you’re not getting rid of me. Are you scared yet? I like you, and if you’re happy for me to stick around, I’m not going anywhere.”
He cupped her cheek, stroking his finger against her skin. “What are you doing to me?”
“I’m hoping that I’m making you hard for me again.”
Tonio took hold of her hand and pressed it against his swelling cock. “What do you think?”
“I think I could get used to playing games with you.”
She gripped his cock at the base and started to work up to the tip, then back down again.
“You’re hard again.”
“You’re completely naked. What do you expect? And the answer to your questions, no, you’re not scaring me, not one bit. Secondly, I don’t want you to leave. I want you to stay.”
“Really? Are you sure? I’m a pretty scary person.”
He laughed. “I’m not afraid.” He cupped her cheeks and pressed his lips against hers. She closed her eyes, basking in the pressure of his mouth, loving the feel of his lips against hers. He pressed his tongue to her lips, and she opened up. “Kiss me back,” he said.
She worked his cock with her hand, and at the same time, she followed his lead with the kiss, touching her tongue to his.
“I think it’s time I taught you something else,” he said.
“Actually, there’s something I want to do, and I’ve watched on those porn programs, and I’m kind of curious about it.”
“You are? What is it?”
Climbing off the bed, she sank down to her knees, gripping his thighs. “Do you need another clue?”
She touched her tongue to the tip of his cock and gave it a gentle lick. His pre-cum tasted a little salty. Zara did the action again, watching him the whole time.
“Fuck, that feels good.”
“I want to do this to you, to give you something good to remember.”
“I’m not going to stop you, baby.”
She smiled up at him and gripped his cock in her fist. Holding him steady, she glided her tongue down the vein, before taking the tip of his dick into her mouth. He was a big man, but she took as much of him to the back of her throat as she could. When she was going to gag on the length, she pulled away, and let go of his shaft with a pop.
“Are you going to tell me what you like?” she asked.
“I wasn’t going to complain with my dick in your mouth. You can do what you like.”
Zara chuckled. “So, I can get all the information out of you that I want. This could be my kind of torture.” Before he could say another word, she sucked on him hard, and he cursed. His hands moved to the back of her head, and one of his hands wrapped in the length of her hair, tugging on the strands.
“How did I get so fucking lucky?” he asked.
“You did something good, and you’re being rewarded for it.” She released his dick long enough to speak, and then went about showing him exactly how much she wanted to learn.
Chapter Nine
“Gifts?” Tonio asked.
“Our families are all built on greed. A party for adults, offering pretty much every sin that comes to mind was far too tempting for them to resist,” Luiz said. “Of course they don’t know that drugs and women won’t be there. Alcohol will be of course and food. The other luxuries they can do without.”
They were sat inside Donnie’s large house. Sharon, Paige’s mother, had left to go on vacation, and also because Donnie wanted her out of the way. Tonio didn’t like Sharon. She had willingly put her own daughter in harm’s way just to have a life luxury. He’d never let that happen. Even now he had people that he trusted guarding Zara. She was back at the apartment with Paige and Charlene.
“Where’s the party going to be?” Jake asked.
“Here of course. There’s nothing screams a dead beat party than at my father’s old home. It’s rather … poetic.” Donnie looked around the large extravagant house.
“Will you be bringing Paige?” Tonio asked.
“No. She can’t be here. She’s due to give birth any day now, and I’m not going to risk anything happening to her.”
Tonio stared at his friend, seeing the concern and love for Paige. “Aren’t you afraid?”
“Of what?” Donnie asked.
“Well, apart from Jake, our fathers treated us like shit—”
“Actually, my father was exactly the same. I didn’t have to grow up with the pressure of a title within The Family, but I had to grow up with the strengths of a soldier. I still had to have my training. The only difference between us was how my training was handled.” Jake looked at all of them. “We all have a past.”
“Yeah, and don’t you think it would make us bad fathers?” Tonio asked. He’d been thinking about it a lot. The Family was a lot to take on, but for the most part they’d been training all of their lives for this. Fatherhood, that was a whole different thing. Tonio didn’t know if he’d be a good father. He didn’t know how to be, and he couldn’t even keep Zara safe.
“I know what my father did, and I know it was wrong. This is where I make a choice, Tonio. I choose to be like my father, or I fight what he did. He was wrong in everything. I love Paige with my whole heart. She’s terrified of having a baby, and I am as well. We’re young. Too young to be having kids, and too fucking young to be okay with killing people. Yet here we are, killing people, and making babies. Life is about choices, Tonio. To live or die, to be good or bad. Each day we make a new choice. I’m going to be a good father. I’m going to be everything my father wasn’t, and I’m going to prove that you can live with this life, and still be good to those you love. This is what we planned for. We planned for a future that would make us happy, that would make our sisters safe. I’m still fighting for that. What about you guys?”