Honor Student(11)

He pushed back from me, his expression shone of horror. Feeling embarrassed, I crossed my arms over my chest.

“Look at me.” He demanded but I could not bring myself to do it. “Look at me.” He growled as he took his fingers and tipped my chin up. His eyes searched mine for a moment and he looked just as upset as I was. “I can’t do this.” He said quietly and ran his fingers through his dark hair. He turned his back to me and I wished I could disappear. The alcohol was warming my body and I suddenly felt overwhelmed with emotion. I felt the tears welling up in my eyes. I knew I could not keep them from falling so I headed towards the door.

“I’ll find my own way home.” I called behind me, trying to hide the shaking in my voice. Mr. Honor followed and grabbed my arm as I reached the door, turning me around to face him. My tears had begun to fall and as he looked at me with sadness, I could not stop them. He stared at me for a moment with pity. I wanted to scream. I pulled my hand from his grip and left, slamming the door behind me. I made my way down the dimly lit staircase. I realized my books where still in his car but I decided to leave them. It was taking all of my strength not to break down and cry. I just wanted to get as far away from here as possible.





Chapter Ten

I pulled out my cell phone and called Becka as I walked down the gravel road back to the main part of town.

“Hey!” she yelled into the receiver. I pulled it back from my ear and turned the volume down.

“Hey! What’s going on?” I asked, shouting back at her. It sounded like she was standing in the middle of a rock concert.

“I’m at the bar with Claire and a couple guys from school. I’m fucking wasted!” she giggled and I could hear people cheer in the background. “You should come! I heard Jeff thinks you’re fucking hot!” I searched my mind, trying to place Jeff but the name did not sound familiar at all.

“Where are you?” I asked but all I could here was laughter and loud music. After a moment, the line went dead. “Fuck” I mumbled to myself. My phone lit up and buzzed in my hand.

“Come get me.” I said as I answered.

“Where are you?” Mr. Honor replied. I pulled the phone back from my ear and read the caller I.D. It said ‘unknown caller’.

“Like you care.” I replied, not trying to hide my anger towards him. I felt completely rejected.

“I just want to make sure you make it home safely.” He replied and I could hear the frustration in his voice.

“I’m not going home. I’m going out.” I answered and clicked ‘end call’. I smiled to myself as I called Becka again. She answered after several rings and told me she was at a local club not far from where I was.

I made it to the club just before dark. The music could be heard from a block away. I was able to get inside with no effort. I walked through the crowded room scanning for Becka and Claire. I could not find them anywhere.

“Buy you a drink?” A man with dirty blonde hair asked from behind me, standing uncomfortably close.

“She doesn’t want a drink from you.” Becka called from a few feet away.

“Hey!” I shouted, so happy to see her.

“Come on, I’ll get you a drink.” She said, wrapping her arm around my waist and pulling me towards the bar. It was so loud I could barely hear myself think. I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket as we did a round of tequila shots. I slipped it out and looked at the screen. It read ‘unknown caller’. I pushed it back into my pocket.

“Let’s do another!” I yelled and everyone around us cheered. I drank another down as several boys gathered around us.

“This is Jeff.” Becka said pointing to the drunken person beside her. He was lean but muscular and had an amazing smile.

“Hey!” I said, biting my lip.

“We work out around the same time, at the gym on campus. Let me buy you a drink.” He said, leaning in to whisper in my ear. I nodded and he held up his hand, signaling to the bartender to pour us more drinks. I slammed back the shot, grabbing the beer from Jeff’s hand to wash it down. It burnt but the effects were already taking hold and I just wanted to forget about the rest of the day.

My phone continued to buzz and light up in my pocket but I ignored it. I had made a big enough fool of myself for one day.

“Who’s this?” Claire asked, pulling the phone from my pants.

“It’s no one.” I panicked and reached for the phone. She held it back from me as she hit the answer button.

“Hello?” she answered and my cheeks burnt red with anger.

“She’s right here. You should hang out with us. We’re at the Rapture.” She said as she smiled and shot me a wink. “See you soon.” She hung up the phone, holding it out for me.