Sasha laughed. 'Yep. LuAnn-femme fatale extraordinaire. With those huge brown eyes and that body she can have any man she wants. On and off the screen.'
'She may look innocent onscreen but off-screen is another matter.'
It was her gasp that did it. That and her scent, mingled with the strangely enticing aroma of popcorn.
Control failed and his eyes met Sasha's stunning blue. Marco wondered if she knew how enthralling they were. How captivating. How very easily she could give LuAnn a run for her money.
'You've met her?'
'Briefly. At one of Rafael's parties.'
Her eyes returned to the screen. 'As much as I'm dying to know the details of your no-doubt salacious meeting, I don't really want the illusion spoiled. Do you mind?'
Again Marco was struck by Sasha's contrast to the other women he'd dated. They would have been bowled over by his mention of a celebrity, dying to know every single detail. Her refreshingly indifferent attitude made him relax a little more.
When he found himself munching on popcorn another bolt of surprise shot through him.
When was the last time he'd relaxed completely like this? Shared an enjoyable evening with a woman that hadn't ended in sex if he'd wanted it to?
He glanced at Sasha. Her eyes were glued to the screen, her lower lip caught between her teeth. Heat ratcheted through him. Correction-an evening that wasn't going to end in sex because sex was forbidden?
He reached for another mouthful of popcorn and his hand brushed hers. Her breath caught but she didn't look away from the screen. When he reluctantly forced his gaze away from her, he saw LuAnn caught in a heated clinch with Joel.
As a thirty-five-year-old man, who knew that sex onscreen was simulated, he shouldn't have found the scene erotic. Especially not with those damned fangs thrown in.
Nevertheless, when Sasha's breath caught for a second time he turned to her, his heart pounding so loudly in his ears he couldn't hear anything else.
'You should be watching the screen, not me.'
Her husky murmur thrummed along his nerve-endings and made a beeline for his groin.
'I was never much of a spectator. I prefer to be a participant.'
Dios! He was hard-so hard it was a toss-up as to whether the feeling was pain or pleasure. The logical thing to do was to get up, walk away.
Yet he couldn't move. Couldn't look away from this woman his body ached for but his mind knew he couldn't have.
Her eyes found his. 'Marco...'
Again it was a husky entreaty.
His fingers brushed her cheek. 'Why can't I get you out of my head? I took a beautiful woman to dinner but I can barely remember what she looked like now. I ate but hardly tasted the food. All I could think about was you.'
'Do you want me to apologise?'
'Would you mean it?'
Her pink tongue darted out, licked, darted back in. He groaned in pain.
'Probably not. But I may have an explanation for you.'
A few feet away the TV belted out the closing sequence of the show. Neither of them paid any attention. His forefinger traced her soft skin to the corner of her mouth, the need to taste her again a raging fever flaming through his veins. 'I'm listening.'
She shrugged. 'Maybe you share a trait with your brother after all. Deny you something and you want it more?'
Marco didn't need to think about it to answer. 'No. The difference between Rafael and me is that he wouldn't have hesitated to take-consequences be damned. He sees something he wants and he takes it.'
'Whereas you agonise about it endlessly, then deny yourself anyway? It's almost as if you're testing yourself-putting yourself through some sort of punishment.'
Her eyes darkened when he froze. She moved her head and her lips came closer to his finger. Marco couldn't speak, needing every single ounce of self-control to keep his shock from showing. He deserved to put himself through punishment for what he'd done. He'd lost the most precious thing in life-a child-because he'd taken his eye off the ball.
'Maybe you should learn to bend a little...take what is being offered? What is being offered freely.'
An arrow of pain shot through the haze of desire engulfing him. He gave a single shake of his head and inhaled. 'I stopped believing in free a long time ago, Sasha. There are always consequences. The piper always expects payment.'
'I don't believe that. Laughter is free. Love is free. It's hate that eats you up inside. Bitterness that twists feelings if you let them. And, no, I'm not waxing philosophical. I've experienced it.'
'Really?' he mocked, dropping his hand. When his senses screeched in protest he merely willed the feeling away. 'To whom did you make your promise?' he asked, the need to know as forceful as the need raging through his veins.
Wariness darkened her eyes. Then her shoulders rolled. 'My father.'
'What did you promise him?'
'That I'd win the Drivers' Championship for him.'
'Out of some misguided sense of duty, no doubt?' he derided.
Anger blazed through her eyes. 'Not duty. Love. And it's about as misguided as your bullheaded need to coddle Rafael.'
'There's a difference between responsibility and your illusionary love,' he rebutted, irate at this turn of the conversation.
'I suffer no illusions. My father loved me as unconditionally as I loved him.'
Tensing, he sat back in the seat. 'Then you were lucky. Not everyone is imbued with unconditional love for his or her child. Some even use their unborn children as bartering tools.'
Her breath caught. 'Did you...? Are you saying that from experience?'
A cold drench of reality washed over him at how close he'd come to revealing everything.
Surging to his feet, he stared into her face. 'I was merely making a point. As much as I want you, Sasha, I'll never take you. The consequences would be too great.'
CHAPTER EIGHT
THE CONSEQUENCES WOULD be too great.
Sasha tried to block out the words as she adjusted the traction control on her steering wheel. The tremor in her fingers increased and she clenched her fists tighter around the wheel.
Shears, Marina Bay, Raffles Boulevard. Watch out for Turn Ten speed bump-Padang, pit lane exit, look after the tyres...
Her heart hammered, excitement and adrenaline shooting through her as she went through the rigorous ritual of visualising every corner of the race. At her third attempt, fear rose to mingle with her emotions.
She'd secured pole position for the first time in her racing career, but despite the team's euphoria afterwards she'd sensed a subtle waning of their excitement as speculation as to whether she could do the job trickled in. Sasha had seen it in their faces, heard it in Luke's voice this morning when he'd grilled her over race strategy for the millionth time. Even Tom had weighed in.
Consequences...responsibility...last chance...
Sweat trickled down her neck and she hastily sipped at her water tube. She couldn't afford dehydration. Couldn't afford to lose focus. In fact she couldn't afford to do anything less than win.
Beyond the bright lights of the circuit that turned night into day at the Singapore Grand Prix thousands of fans would be watching.
As would Marco.
He hadn't spoken to her since that night on his sofa in London, but he'd attended every race since the season had resumed and Sasha knew he was somewhere above her, in the exclusive VIP suite of the team's motor home, hosting the Prime Minister, royalty and a never-ending stream of celebrities.
Some time during the sleepless night, when she'd been looking down at the race track from her hotel room, she'd wondered whether he'd even bother to grace the pit with his presence if she made it onto that final elusive step on the podium. Or whether he would be too preoccupied with entertaining his latest flame-the blonde daughter of an Italian textile magnate who never seemed far from his side nowadays.
She tried desperately to block him from her mind. Taking pole position today-a dream she'd held for longer than she could remember-should be making her ecstatic. She was one step further towards removing the dark stain of her father's shame from people's minds. To finally removing herself from Derek's malingering shadow.
Yet all she could think about was Marco and their conversation in London.
She clenched her teeth in frustration and breathed in deeply.
Luke's voice piped through her helmet, disrupting her thoughts.
'Adjust your clutch-'
She flicked the switch before he'd finished speaking. The sheer force of her will to win was a force field around her. Finally she found the zen she desperately craved.
Focusing, she followed the red lights as they lit up one by one. Adrenaline rushed faster, followed a second later by the drag of the powerful car as she pointed it towards the first corner.
She made it by the skin of her teeth, narrowly missing the front wing of the number two driver. Her stomach churned through lap after gruelling lap, even after she'd established a healthy distance between her and the car behind.
What seemed like an eternity later, after a frenzied race, including an unscheduled pitstop that had raised the hairs on her arms, she heard the frenzied shouts of her race engineer in her ear.