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Heavy Love(8)

By:Amarie Avant


"I see you," I tell them. Each of them excited to the max since their  normal instructors, who are also really good chefs in their own right,  are not here.

"I see you. I see all of you." I point to one young female, must be  about sixteen with dreadlocks, "You been killing them with the curries  and gravies." I don't instruct any courses, but I do keep tabs on how  well each student does. This organization must help set the foundation  for their future or my name means nothing. Giving back is all in the  name that my father has given me.

Everyone is excited once more, as I acknowledge a few more of them.  Giving praise where praise is due, has brought me back to life for this  time being. I hold up a hand, to gather their attention. "Y'all want to  dethrone the champ, you gotta be hungry." There's this look in my eye,  they've all had it. They want to step up to the plate.

A soft chuckle works its way up from deep within my abs, "Don't front,  you all are quiet now. Y'all see the look in my eye. Shit, it hasn't  always been dandy for me, no need to be star struck. Iron Chef Franco de  León wasn't always at the top of the motherfucking totem pole in the  United States."

There's no more laughter. No more ‘mad respect' for the girl with  dreadlocks who is a beast with the curry. Or the pimple faced, virgin  who knows how to do knife tricks. We are all on the same level right now  as I tell them about my rise. I'm no longer the star, I've humanized  myself to their world.





Chapter 7


Angelique





USUALLY IT TAKES me weeks to prepare for these events with Carlton and  his clients. It's not that I don't know how to act around the United  States' most affluent. Give me a topic, any cultural, political topic  and this Compton born and Long Beach raised chick can debate with the  best of them. That's just it, Carlton likes us to be a "team" to be of  one accord while I attend the investment firm's galas.

Carlton surprised me with the latest ‘red-bottom heels' when asking me  to join him tonight. While chatting up associates, he kisses my cheek  every so often. I'll give kudos to Carlton, since these past few years,  he has learned to include me in much of the conversation. But tonight as  we mingle, amongst the arrogant, and servers whisk by with bubbly and  tiny edible treasures, my Iphone vibrates in my bejeweled coin purse. I  gladly leave my boyfriend's side to take the call.



After a Mediterranean chef inspired dinner, I meander to the sitting  room and chat with the "plus twos" who aren't talking investment  portfolios. After a while I walk through the party, and I notice that  Carlton is no longer standing toward the front. Taking a deep breath, I  suck up the irritation of having to go find him.         

     



 

The house has so many rooms that I almost give up.

Then I hear his voice toward the terrace of one room.

"Man, you could've hit that if you wanted to." The voice belongs to none other than Omar Burns. The nastiest of them all.

"Nonsense. I believe in monogamy."

"Carlton so you're really considering proposing to Jelly rolls!"

"C'mon, Angelique isn't all that fat. It's more so her cheeks. And I  thank you for mentioning that nickname." He scoffs sardonically.

"Okay, she's got a gorgeous face, I'll give you that. And I've seen ‘em  fatter. But you're the one who told me you called her jelly one day. The  pussy felt like jelly," Omar chuckles, "I feel you but I'm sure the  handling the merchandise is like a few  …  tiny …  jelly rolls. So marry  chubs. Fuck the waitress anyway."

"What if Angelique finds out? Think, Omar. You haven't noticed that I've  surpassed many of our consorts? Mr. Binder prefers married associates.  So … "

"Jelly rolls it is?"

"Exactly, Omar. She loves me. If my assets continue and I begin a new relationship, how do I know I'm not – "

"Oh yeah. You were always stuck on the gold diggers."

"Yup. It's all logistics, they keep trim, are always down to satisfy. They're the prettiest ones – case closed."

"Fuck yeah, they satisfy as long as you have the assets they give up the  assets." Omar's joke falls flat. He adds, "Carlton, man, I recall you  lost a bit of weight when trying to get Jessica back."

"That was the biggest mistake of my life."

My man's response floors me. Carlton has told virtually a stranger to  me, about our sex life and allowed that very man to make comments about  me. I'm literally at a loss for words, my heart feels so fucking heavy. I  recall Jessica, she was the reason he likes to go ‘halfsies' on  everything. That bitch never dug into her pockets, according to Carlton.  Which I suppose is true. So my eyelid twitches, as I recall the day  Carlton decided that we needed to go on a diet. Guess, losing weight is  better with friends. But to get your current girlfriend to put some pep  in her step in order to finesse on the old one?

My legs are full of lead. I continue to listen as Carlton says he is done with Jessica for good.

"All right Mr. Man with a plan. Marry ‘chunks.' Then continue to step up  the ladder. One day you'll make enough to take care of the chubby  chucker's eating requirements and another chick's shoe habit …  ha …   habits. Habitual liar!" Omar chokes on his words, as I pop my head  outside. "Carlton I told you that Dunbar is a habitual liar," He says  mentioning one of their newest coworkers. This idiot thinks I didn't  hear a word he said.

"Hey guys." I smile, "Carlton. It's getting late."

Carlton glances at his Apple watch. "Yes, it is."

I eye the skinny black guy, "Having fun with your comedian friend?"

Omar stutters, "Uhhh, we were just taking a moment from the party."

"Yeah I'm sure just a moment from this bland party would do." I start  back into the room, with Carlton at my heels. Since we're playing a game  of lie to me, I add, "Omar is a riot isn't he? So damn funny. It sounds  like you two were enjoying a good chat."

"Gossiping with my comrades at an event? Honestly, Angelique, you  could've taken the initiative to pass out business cards. Don't you  aspire to have a private practice one day? Make the most of the evening,  my dear." Carlton chides, ignoring my mention of their conversation.

"You would say wouldn't you?" I roll my eyes, but he's already noticing a person that he hasn't chatted with tonight.

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Later that evening, Carlton's car pulls alongside my Mazda that's  parallel parked at the furthest entrance of his condominiums. For a  weeknight, all of the visitor parking was gone when I arrived to  accompany him for the event. Now, I have to drive myself home. The seat  warmers had me in a good place for a while, now it's time to get out  into the cold, at night, and drive home.

"Look, Angelique, you looked good tonight. If I didn't have to fly to  the Hamptons in the morning … " He reaches over to caress my cheek.

I can't spend the night because you're too selfish. You want to be  refreshed in the morning for your clients. Asshole, I like my sleep too!  But that's not a statement that I can say because I've been waiting for  our forever. I turn in my chair, eyelid twitching as usual, awaiting  the next lie. "If you didn't have to fly to the Hampton's, Carlton, what  would our next step be?"         

     



 

A naughty grin parts the stupidity on his face. Carlton seems to be  thinking as he sheepishly smiles, "You know, a glass of wine, plus, you  like those new heels don't you?"

"Of course I love these heels. But don't get it wrong, Carlton, after  many," I begin with a nod, "many, many, many more hours with my clients  than you have with your accounting clients, I could have afforded to  purchase my own Louboutin heels. As a matter of fact, I splurge every  once in a while, it's a given for a female to love herself enough to do  that. But do you know what I also know, what should be a given – "

"Jelly – "

"Jelly Rolls ain't in the mood for that!" I snap. Now I know how to get  snooty when need be, graduating as part of the honor society has  provided me with that, but for the moment, Angelique Tonia Curtis from  Compton is not feeling this. "Jelly Rolls, and any other self-respecting  woman lo …  loves …  LOVES HERSELF enough to know that a man who won't  drive me home, or at the very least wait up to call and make sure I make  it home isn't worth shit. A man who needs to split the bill, because  he's insecure, rather, has spent too much money on his little  gold-digging floozy on the side – "

"Angelique," Carlton's bottom lip drops, "Where is this coming from? I have never had a mistress!"

"Hmph! You wanna hop into the convo now? Yeah, how about that," I nod  with a hard grin. "Let's take it there. The fucking hoochie, coochie  mistresses! Oh but don't gold diggers have a God given right to treat  your fat ass like shit. Your words – perhaps paraphrased – not mine! So you  can splurge on a trick, allow her to walk all over you, then turn around  and walk over me. Boy, you have got me all kinds of wrong; it's a damn  sin!"