Heart of the Raven(6)

"Do you want to hold him?" Eva asked solemnly.

"Yes." He rubbed his hands on his thighs then reached for the baby. The  blanket fell away from his face and Heath looked at his son for the  first time. He wriggled, pursed his lips and arched his back but didn't  open his eyes. He had dark hair, a sweet pink face. Heath's eyes blurred  as he dragged a finger lightly down his son's face. "He's perfect." He  reached to take Eva's hand. "Thank you."

She stared at him for a long time, then she lifted her chin. "Do you want him?"

"Of course I want him. I've told you so all along."

"I mean-" she pulled her hand free "-do you want to keep him yourself? Forever?"

His heart slammed against his sternum. "What?"

"If you do, I'll leave him here with you."

"Why?"

"Do you or don't you?"

Heath tried to make sense of what she was doing. Why would she offer  such a thing? Postpartum depression? If so, undoubtedly she would be  back to claim her child.

But in the meantime, no one else would have his son. "I do," he said simply.

"How much is he worth to you?"

Shock ripped through Heath. She was selling him? He didn't know her at all. He realized he never knew her.

My son is worth everything. How could he place a dollar value on his own  child? "I can write you a check for ten thousand right now. If you want  more, you'll have to wait until the bank opens on Monday."                       
       
           



       

"I'll take it."

He hesitated. So little? She knew he could afford much more than that.

Something wasn't right. But when he looked at his son, the thought fled.  "Will you sign a letter agreeing to my assuming full legal custody of  him?"

"Sure, why not?"

He started to put his son in Eva's arms while he tended to business but  realized he couldn't let go of him. "Come up to my office. We'll draft  an agreement."

He dictated the note as she typed it, her hands shaking, then they both signed it. He wrote out the check and gave it to her.

"You'd better not stop payment on this or I'll take him back," she said  coldly. "I only have to claim severe postpartum depression. Everyone  will understand that."

He was more concerned that the document wouldn't hold up in court. "Did you give him a name?"

"No."

"When was he born?"

"Yesterday."

"Yesterday? Shouldn't he still be in the hospital?"

"No." She started to leave the room, her face ashen, legs wobbly.

"Eva," he said, touching her shoulder. "You need to rest. Stay here. Sleep for a while. Have something to eat."

"I can't." Her eyes shifted to the baby, then she ducked her head and  hurried out of the office and down the stairs. She flung open the front  door and raced out.

"Wait!" he called, but she didn't stop. He tucked the blanket more  tightly around his son and followed her into the yard. "Where can I  contact you?"

"There's a bottle in the diaper bag. You just have to warm it." She got in her car and slammed the door, then she was gone.

He stood there until he could no longer hear her engine, then he walked  back into the house. The baby made a noise. Heath pulled the blanket  from his face and stood in the foyer staring at him. His son. His second  chance.

He leaned over and kissed his tiny forehead. He felt dizzy, almost  nauseated. He made his way into the living room and sat down to stare at  the boy. Soon he started to fuss, then whimper, then cry. Heath dug  through the diaper bag in search of a bottle.

He cried in earnest now. Heath didn't know whether to heat the tiny bottle in the microwave or-

He decided to run hot water into a bowl. It might take longer but it couldn't melt the nipple or anything.

While he waited for the bottle to warm, he walked the kitchen floor,  whispering soothing words, holding his son close, bouncing him lightly.  His cries got louder. Heath tested the milk. Not warm yet. He ran more  hot water, then picked up the telephone. He glanced at the business card  sitting on his kitchen counter.

Five-fifteen in the morning, he noticed as the phone was ringing. Would she mind?

"Hello?" she said, her voice layered with sleep, but trying not to show it.

"Cassie?" he said above the baby's cries.

"Heath? Is that-?"

"It's my son. Can you come over?"



Cassie waited anxiously at Heath's front door. The usual silence  surrounded the house. No sound of a baby crying. No birds singing in the  early dawn.

She prepared herself for meeting Eva, for being polite to the woman  who'd caused Heath grief and worry on top of what he already lived with.

She prepared herself, too, for the fact she wouldn't see him after this.  The issue was closed. She hadn't even had a chance to find the baby  herself, to solve the case, to show him, frankly, how good she was at  her job. She should be glad it was over. She was glad it was over, for  Heath's sake, but he would be completely involved in his new life now.

Maybe Eva would even agree to marry him, and they could live together as  a family. The baby deserved that opportunity. Eva should give it a  chance.

The front door opened. His arms were empty. He should be smiling. He wasn't smiling.

"Thank you for coming," he said, gesturing her in.

Cassie stepped across the threshold and into the foyer. The lights were  on in the living room but Cassie saw no signs of the redheaded Eva.

"Where's the baby?"

"Asleep. In his basket."

He led her toward the living room. She spotted a wicker bassinet on the coffee table.

"And Eva?"

"Gone."

"Where?"

"I don't know."

Cassie bent over the bassinet, saw that it was lined with yellow  gingham. "You don't- Oh! Oh, how sweet." He was wrapped in a blue  blanket, his tiny face barely visible. Her heart melted. She'd felt a  bond with him from the moment she knew of his existence, her concern for  his welfare her priority. Seeing him in person cemented everything.                       
       
           



       

She straightened. "What do you mean you don't know where she is?"

"She sold him to me for ten thousand dollars, then she left."

It took her a second to comprehend what he'd just told her. "Seriously?"

"Signed, sealed and delivered."

She sat on the sofa but kept her hand on the basket as Heath related what happened.

"What do you think?" she asked. "It sounds like she was emotional."

"Definitely. But there are all kinds of emotions, Cassie. I can't  pretend to know what she was feeling. I only know the truth of what's  here in front of me-my son. He needs me to take care of him now, no  matter what happens in the future."

She looked into the bassinet as the baby stirred. "Yes. First things first."

"I doubt the paper she signed will hold up in court."

"I doubt it, too. But it's a start. You need to have him checked by a  pediatrician. You need his birth certificate as soon as it's available.  And he needs a name." The baby's eyes opened. Cassie smiled at him. "You  need a name, don't you, sweet pea?"

Heath lifted the baby out of the basket. "Daniel. Daniel Patrick."

"That's nice. Is there some significance?"

"My father's name-before he turned hippie and started calling himself Journey."

"You're the product of hippies?" Cassie laughed.

He didn't react, just stared at her for a few seconds, but she couldn't figure out why.

"It's the truth," he said finally. "My mother calls herself Crystal. They live on a commune in New Hampshire."

"Did you grow up there?"

"Yeah. I couldn't wait to go away to college."

There was fondness in his voice, though, indicating he might have resented his upbringing then but not now.

"They're into macrobiotic diets," he added.

"That's grains and vegetables, isn't it?"

"It's cardboard."

She smiled. "I like steak."

"Me, too. And ordering in."

Daniel started to fuss. Cassie clenched her hands. She wanted to hold  him, but Heath hadn't offered, so she leaned close and sang. "The itsy  bitsy spider-"

"Don't."

Startled at his vehement tone, Cassie sat back. The baby wailed. "Don't what?"

"Sing." He bounced Daniel.

"Why not? Babies love singing. It calms them."

"I don't have to explain myself." He tried to shush the baby, who had worked up a full head of steam.

Cassie wondered about Heath's sanity. Or was he just stressed over  everything that had just happened? "Maybe he's hungry," she offered.

"He had a bottle right before you got here."

"Maybe he needs a diaper change. Do you want me to check?" When he  didn't answer, she looked straight at him. He's afraid to trust me, she  realized. He's probably afraid to trust anyone. "I'll take good care of  him," she said gently.