Heart of Dixon(31)

After setting me down on the bed, he leans down giving me a soft kiss on my lips before rubbing his thumb affectionately over my bruised cheek. “I’m so sorry this happened to you, Brooklyn.”

I shake my head no and bring my fingers to his lips. “Please. I don’t want to talk about Zak anymore. All I want to do is sleep. I’m exhausted.” I say in between a deep yawn.

Jax gives me a weak smile, “All right. Well, you rest up, and I’ll see you in the morning, okay?”

As he starts to back away, I reach out grabbing his arm. “Will you stay with me? I don’t want to sleep alone tonight.”

Nodding yes, slowly, he begins stripping out of his clothes until he’s standing before me in nothing but black briefs. Pulling the covers down, he climbs into bed beside me and wraps me in his arms. “I’m here whenever you need me Brooklyn. Now try to get some rest, you’re going to need it. Believe me, by tomorrow morning, more than likely every single inch of ya will be hurtin’.”

“Well, I guess I can deal with being sore. It’s a hell of a lot better than lying in a morgue,” I joke trying to make light of the situation. It’s all I can do now. I can’t dwell on what happened. I will not allow Zak to take a single moment from my life. So I promise myself from this moment on I will not think about what happened and I’ll go on with my life.

I smile softly against his chest as I snuggle into his side and drift off to sleep. Sadly, my dreams are not filled with sweet dreams of Jax or even nightmares of Zak. Instead, they're filled with dreams about Dixon. Like every other night, he haunts my dreams just as he haunts me all day while I’m awake.

The first thing I need to do when I get to Houston is set up a time to meet with Dixon. I need closure so I can try to get over him and move on with my life. Or maybe there’s a slim chance he’ll wake up and realize he wants me the way I want him. Sadly, I won’t hold my breath for that happening.



I spent all night tossing and turning as thoughts of Zak and the attack stayed on my mind until early morning. I was grateful to have Jax there with me. He held me all night making me feel safe. I’m not use to feeling this way. All I keep thinking about is the overwhelming ‘what ifs’ that are flooding my every thought.

What if he had shot me?

What if I hadn’t been able to fight him off?

And especially what if Jerome had never gotten back up and shot him, stopping Zak from hurting me any more than he already had?

The feeling of Jax rolling out of bed this morning is what got me fully awake. I rolled over facing him and admired his body as he slipped his jeans and t-shirt back on. He glanced back at me, saying he was going to get me some aspirin and would be right back. He spent the whole morning pampering me after that. First it was the aspirin, then breakfast in bed, followed by amazing sex after I finished taking a long and much-needed bubble bath. I haven’t been with Jax physically since he left for Australia last month, so I was nervous. I had so many emotions running through me, from everything with Dixon to the events of last night with Zak.

He was laying on the small chaise lounge beside the large windows overlooking Savannah’s parents’ backyard playing on his phone when I walked out of the bathroom with my bathrobe on. The aspirin I took earlier mixed with my bath had helped the aching in my muscles from my scuffle with Zak almost nonexistent. After everything Jax has done for me, I figure that the least I can do is thank him properly. No matter what I’ve done, Jax has been right here beside me. Even with everything going on with Dixon, Jax never once made me feel as if I couldn’t depend on him.

Clearing my throat, I slipped my bathrobe off letting it fall to my feet as Jax lifted his eyes up to mine. The instant he looked at me I saw him swallow hard as his Adams apple bobbed up and down his throat. He quickly tossed his phone onto the floor before standing and walking towards me slowly.

His eyes roamed over my body, lingering on my breasts before making their way down the rest of me. His fingers went to the buttons of his jeans, and as he undid them he asked, “Are you sure about this—after everything that happened last night?”

Nodding I told him, “I’m one hundred percent positive this is exactly what I want and need right now. I need your hands on my body, cherishing me, helping rid it of the pain Zak caused it last night. Believe me, a little sex won’t hurt some scrapes and bruises, Jax.”

Stepping towards him I reach out helping him with his pants. As soon as his pants were unbuttoned and unzipped I helped pull them down his legs before he kicked them off. Next were his boxers and his t-shirt. With smooth movements, he pulled his shirt over his head tossing it onto the floor while I slid his boxers down releasing his amazing cock.

“I’ve missed my thunder down under,” I joke as I drop to my knees taking him in my hand. I begin slowly stroking him root to tip and relish in the soft moans coming from him as his hands slide into my damp hair. Licking my lips, I moisten them before taking all of him in my mouth. At first, I go slow and tease just the swollen head of him sucking on it and twirling my tongue playfully around the tip. The feeling of his fingers fisting my hair was my cue to go deeper. I slowly began to stroke his shaft while sliding all of him into my mouth.

“Fuck, Brooklyn. That feels amazing…” He murmured as I quickened my speed and sucked harder. With my free hand, I cupped his balls in my hand gently rubbing them as I continued sliding his dick in and out of my mouth, each time making him groan with pleasure as I twisted my tongue around his tip savoring the taste of his salty pre-cum.

Not wanting him to finish until he was inside of me, I stopped abruptly and climbed back up to my feet.

Spinning, I made my way over to the bed and sat on the edge of it as I curled my index finger at Jax motioning for him to come to me. “Come here, Jax.” As he made his way over to the bed, I opened up the side drawer and grabbed a condom. Thankfully, no one ever uses this room besides me when I stay here, so Savannah’s mother never found my stash of condoms in the side table drawer.

“Put it on me.” He ordered as he stood before me with his erection hard as steel bobbing before me.

I tore the foil open and tossed the wrapper into the trash can beside the bed before slowly and precisely rolling the condom over his exceptional length. I’ve only ever had sex without a condom with Dixon. I’m not ready to take that step with Jax. It's too personal, and the pain of Dixon breaking my heart is still too raw.

Not wanting to ruin the moment, I forced all thoughts of Dixon away. I scooted back on the bed and laid down on the mountain of pillows as Jax climbed over me. He gazed lovingly down into my eyes, making it hard for me to breathe. With one hand, he positioned the head of his dick at my entrance while the other rested beside my head as he held himself up.

“If, at any time, you find yourself in pain, tell me and I’ll stop, okay?”

I shook my head yes and wrapped my legs around his waist while sliding my hands slowly along his bulging biceps.

“I want this. Please. Fuck me, Jax. Help me push away all the pain and replace it was nothing but pure fucking pleasure.” I was begging, but I didn’t care. He didn’t know it, but I wasn’t only talking about the pain from being attacked but also the pain I was consumed with thanks to Dixon shattering my heart back in the Bahamas.

If he wanted me as badly as Jax did, he would be here right now. He shouldn’t have had to ask me if I wanted him here. Of course, I’d tell him no. He should’ve demanded it.

I closed my eyes and tried to focus on the feeling of Jax as his body burning hot, and feeling like heaven wrapped in my arms slowly pushed his way inside of me before beginning to thrust in a perfect rhythm in and out of me. He rotated his hips at the perfect angle and speed to drive me absolutely wild. Normally every time I have sex, it’s fast, hard, and exploding with pure, palpable lust. With Jax, it was different. He fucked me slowly. Almost to the point of torture as my body begged to be pounded into fiercely. But slowly it built up to a delicious concoction inside of my body making an intense orgasm slowly build up inside my core.

I hugged him tighter to me as his mouth licked, sucked and kissed everything from my shoulder, my neck to my lips. By the time I was orgasming, I was completely breathless, and my head was spinning like a top. It was the craziest sensation as he slowly pumped into me extending my orgasm. It was sensational and an experience I’ll not soon forget.

After we cleaned up and got dressed, we spent the next few hours relaxing in bed watching television while Savannah and Kayden finished getting ready, and waited for the call that the jet was ready to bring us back to Houston.

Twenty minutes later, Kayden knocked on the door, peeking his head into the room letting us know it was time to head to the airport. I was stunned when I was finishing up collecting my bags, and Jax told me he wanted to talk to me, and it was something he felt should be discussed between us in private. I was beyond nervous as I set my bags by the door and sat down beside Jax on the bed.

He turned and looked at me while rubbing the pad of his thumb gently across my cheek while taking my right hand with the other.

“I’ve been thinking a lot since I flew out here last night. I was wondering what you thought about us being exclusive. I’m not saying we have to jump into a relationship because I know you have a lot going on right now, but I’m saying that we only sleep with one another and no one else. I have no desire to be with anyone but you and I hope you’re feeling the same way and would consider taking that next step with me.”