Harmless(10)

"Oh, fuck."

Seg hadn't known what to expect, but the instant Roan's tongue speared his asshole, he damn near lost his balance.

He couldn't help himself, he began rocking against the intrusion. It felt good. Too good. He'd never allowed anyone to play with him like this. For him, sex was usually more about the means to an end, with the end being him coming as hard and as fast as he could.

With Roan  …  Seg wanted more. He wanted to experience everything he'd denied himself over the years. He wanted to find a way to sate these urges and get this out of his system. He couldn't be with a man. Not in the long term, but this would work.

Roan's tongue disappeared and his hands roamed back up Seg's back. He was tempted to turn around, but Roan wouldn't let him, his palm flattening between Seg's shoulder blades.




 

 

"I want to feel you," Roan whispered against his ear. "Let me feel you, Seg. Let me slide my cock deep into your ass and feel you."

Goddamn. His ass clenched again.

But dammit, he couldn't. He'd never …

Seg shook his head. "Can't."

"Can't? Or won't?" Roan didn't sound pleased.

His brain was telling him to turn around, but his body wouldn't move.

"Ever let a man fuck you?"

Seg shook his head.

"It doesn't make you any less gay because you're the top." Roan's tone sounded both amused and disappointed. "Let me, Seg. Let me be the first man to take your virgin ass."

Although he knew he shouldn't, Seg wanted that so badly.

Never had he been tempted to give in, but with Roan, he found himself nodding.

Roan's lips continued to work over his back while Seg remained stone still, his forehead pressed to the tile, the warm water raining down on them. He heard the rustle from the condom, heard the click from the bottle of lubrication. It was going to happen. He was going to let Roan fuck him.

And Roan would be his first and probably his last.

"You ready?" Roan asked, his voice rough.

Seg nodded again.

"I'm gonna use my fingers first."

"Ahh, shit," Seg groaned as one finger pushed inside him. Slowly, gently. His body acclimated to the intrusion, chills racing down his arms as the sensations intensified.

"Okay?"

Seg nodded.

Roan added another finger, stretching him. Seg groaned, closing his eyes as he let the pleasure take over.

A strangled groan escaped him when Roan pushed in three fingers.

"Relax."

Easier said than done, but Seg did his best.

He didn't move, trying to enjoy it, trying to ignore the bite of pain that accompanied it. He was overwhelmed with sensation when suddenly-"Oh, fuck …  Oh, fuck  …  Roan … "

"You like that? That's your prostate. Feels good, huh?"

Good? That was an understatement. What he felt was something beyond good, bordering more on unreal.

Roan's fingers continued to penetrate him, fucking into him slow and easy. If the man wasn't careful, Seg was going to come long before Roan had the chance to fuck him.

"Still good?"

Shit. It felt so damn good it was a wonder Seg hadn't gone off like a rocket. He'd come precariously close though.

"Want more?" Roan inquired, his fingers retreating.

"Yeah," Seg breathed. So fucking much more. "Want to feel you."

Seg tensed when Roan aligned his cock, pushing against the tight ring of muscle. 

"Relax," Roan whispered. "You've seriously never done this before?"

Seg shook his head.

"I'll be gentle, I promise."

Roan pressed in gradually while Seg took deep, slow breaths.

"Push back against me," Roan ordered.

He did. The pain was intense, but it quickly morphed into pleasure. And every time Roan's cock brushed against his prostate, Seg saw stars.

"That's it," Roan urged, his fingers digging into the flesh of Seg's hips. "So fucking tight."

Seg let himself get lost in the sensation as Roan rocked into him over and over. Roan didn't fuck him hard or fast. He simply filled him. In. Out. In. Out.

When Roan's arm circled him, his fingers wrapping around Seg's cock, he jerked, his body on the verge of explosion.

"Come for me," Roan said gruffly. "Come for me while I come in your ass."

Yep. That was all it took.

Seg pulled his SUV into the garage and hit the button to close the door. He should've gone out with the team tonight, but he couldn't bring himself to do it. Not after seeing Roan. He needed to get his shit together and figure this out. No way could he keep going on like this.

At the time, giving in to Roan for one night had seemed harmless. Unfortunately, thanks to the fact the man made him want things he knew he shouldn't want, it turned out to be anything but.