Guardians(7)
“No. Well, not really. It’s just that she is stunning all the time. I know I won’t be that way but I want to be as beautiful and perfect as I can be. C’mon Pretty, his last girl was a freaking Angel!”
“So?”
“So that means she had a perfect Angel body. Along with perfect Angel breasts.”
“You have breasts.”
“Yeah, but there not…done yet. I always thought they would get full and wonderful in a year or two. I don’t know if you’ve heard, but I don’t have a year.”
“Don’t worry. Whatever time doesn’t give you, Victoria’s Secret will.”
“Okay, as long as it has lots of padding cause…”
I study my chest in the mirror again.
“You keep doing that and you will never get Marcus to sleep with you.”
“Doing what?”
“Comparing yourself to another girl. Guys hate that. You’re amazing all on your own. You have to go in knowing that.”
“You’re right. I am fine. The way I dress is fine.”
“Well…a little shopping couldn’t hurt,” she says softly.
“Will you go with me?”
“Sure.”
“Thank you,” I shout, hugging her tightly.
“Can I ask you another question?”
“So, we are officially not going to first period,” Miku says to herself.
“This is much more important than math.”
“What is it?”
“Did you get to have sex when you were human?”
“Yes.”
“Did it hurt?”
“At first, then it got it better.”
“What did it feel like?”
“Strange, then nice, and then strange again; he wanted to do like a Q&A afterwards.”
“Really?”
“Yeah. He was like ‘How was I at this part?’ ‘Did I do this right?’ ‘How long should I have done that?’”
We burst out laughing. For the first time since I knew her, Miku was blushing.
“Then he launched into a bunch of random facts about the first time. It was like having sex with Wikipedia.”
“So how would you rate his…?”
“Website?”
“Yeah.”
“Not bad.”
“How many guys have you…”
“Q&A guy and someone else.”
“Did you love him?”
“Yeah, that’s why it was better with him. I think sex is always better with the guy you love. Because even if it’s bad, it’s good.”
“What about now, as an Angel?”
“Sex for us is different.”
“How?”
“Put it like this: Sex as a human is like is like a single firecracker. Sex as an Angel is the Fourth of July.”
“Wow…”
“I mean it, Emmy. You may not be able to handle it.”
“But I want to try.”
“Okay, then talk to Marcus. Just be upfront with him.”
“Do I need to buy condoms? Do Angels need that?”
“Condoms are like cute shoes; you always need them. That is unless you’re doing it with an Angel. In that case, you two are fine.”
“So there’s no way I could get…”
“No.”
“I don’t understand why Marcus doesn’t want to do it.”
“He may be a little busy trying to save your life.”
“Yeah, I guess. I just want us to have a night together that is perfect. I made a list.”
“Of course you did.”
I get up and take a small notepad out from my desk. I hand it to Miku. She begins to read it out loud.
“Flowers, music, candles…”
“I try to cover the basics. What do you think?”
“That’s mostly for us. Guys just need one thing: the girl.”
“I know I’m going overboard, but it’s the memory I want to hold on to when…”
“You think Marcus is really going to take your life?”
“He doesn’t have a choice.”
“You are so brave, Em. I don’t get to say that to you enough.”
“I’m not really brave, actually. I just try to stay busy and not think about it. It got so bad the other day I actually studied for my chem test.”
“Wow, you were desperate.”
“Yeah and I got a B.”
“Seriously?”
“Yup, leave it to me to become a super nerd just as my time runs out.”
“When I was dying, I could only think of pain. But if I knew ahead of time, I’m not sure what my last thought would have been.”
“Some days I think about serious stuff like what would college life have been like; what would my children have looked like; and other days I just think how much it sucks that I’m gonna miss the next installment of “The Hunger Games.”