Gambling For The Virgin:A Dark Billionaire Romance(54)

OK, well, let me rephrase that. I would have looked at him hungrily. I  mean, he's young. And he's so hot. But I would have controlled myself. I  wouldn't have flirted at the gym. If Michael had even given me a hug in  the six months we were married. Forget about fucking. I don't even want  a kiss. A hug. Or a caress. Even a nice word of affection. Anything.

Can you imagine what it's like to be treated like an employee in your  own marriage? To sleep next to a stranger? And if you wake up with your  arms and legs wrapped around them to have your partner look at you with  disdain and scorn? So much so that you put a pillow between the two of  you so it doesn't happen again?

When I cum my brains out on Lance's cock, I'm not just doing it to have  sex. I'm doing it because I haven't found love anywhere else in this  world. And Lance gives it to me unconditionally.

Five.

That's how many points separate Michael's lead from Jim Jenkins.  Everyone is confident it should be enough to carry the day. I don't  really pay much attention to it. Lance and I are usually having sex. But  we both know we need to keep this relationship a secret till after the  election. The public can't find out. I don't think Michael would really  care at all if he found out I was sleeping with someone. But he would  kill me if he lost the election because of me. Then he'd kill my father.  Then Lance would most likely kill him. I can see the fire in both men's  eyes. They may not be related to each other, but it burns brightly the  same.

Two hundred.

That's where I lost count when I try to think of all the times that  Lance and I have … been together. Ah, we're all grown up here, right?  That's the number of times he's fucked me. And trust me, multiply at  least three orgasms for each time and that's how many times I've cum.  It's like nothing I've ever experienced or felt before. There are simply  no words. I've quite literally become addicted to Lance Anders. I know  there's an opioid addiction problem in the country now, but to me, Lance  is my drug of choice.         

     



 

At least once a day, sometimes two or three. If Michael is travelling,  then even more. The benefit of youth I've discovered is that Lance is  ready to go at a moment's notice. And once he's done, he's only needing  maybe another 15 minutes before he's ready again. And each successive  time the sex is longer and stronger.

You name it, we've done it. One afternoon, not long ago, he found me  lounging next to our pool in the basement. I was wearing a cute new two  piece bikini. Lance had just come back from the gym.

"It's new," I said to him, looking at his reaction.

He didn't hide it, but adjusted himself to show me his huge erection  that was tenting his sweat pants. "Looks like you like it," I said to  him, feeling lascivious. I don't know how I get like that but he  completely brings it out in me.

He didn't say anything that time. Just got on his knees and began to  lick my tits, moving my bikini top to the side. Then he proceeded to  take his clothes off and fuck me so hard while I ran my fingers and my  tongue over those chiseled abs. Those pecs. Those 8-pack abs. I must  have cum at least half a dozen times by the time he finally told me he  was getting close. I still remember that afternoon because he must have  cum in quarts, because he spurted for what felt like forever onto my  tits. Imagine your tits covered in warm, hot, gooey, cum. Then imagine  yourself using your finger to scoop it up into your while he watches and  gets hard.

You can guess what we did after.

Thirty.

That's how many days ago Lance and I basically went from having sex  before we realized that there's something a lot more real to this  relationship. It's not just him fucking me. I mean, that night when I  snuck into his room to keep him from going to Europe-we both sort of  knew then. But aside from that one time, we never really talked about  it. Until a month ago.

"How many women have you been in love with?" I asked him one day. We had  just showered together. He had surprised me while I was in there. But I  didn't mind. I lifted my leg onto the wall and he took me while soaping  up my tits. It was a good thing he held me, because when I came, my  knees gave way. He ended up holding me as he fucked me, completely in  control-treating me like a total sex object. I loved it.

But afterwards, as we lay in bed together and watched the sun rise to  high noon, I wanted to know more about this young man. I already knew a  lot. How his mother died when he was ten. How with no surviving  relatives, his stepfather became his primary guardian. The courts  allowed it and expedited the process-anything for an up and coming  Congressman it seemed. But Lance quickly realized he got a guardian-not a  father. His life was a series of boarding schools and visits to New  York when photo-ops were needed.

I know about the wild period that Lance had, from high school through  college. How he did anything at all to get attention, having been  neglected his entire childhood.

"None," Lance answers my question and pulls me closer to him. "I'm not the falling in love type of guy."

"Everyone is at some point or another," I told him. I can't believe I'm  asking him, a man 15 years younger than me. I sound like a teenager! I  don't know why I was so determined to hear him say that. I should be  over such things.

"I agree," Lance said, and looked into my eyes. "I've never been in love with any woman."

I looked back at him, nodding. I could live with the fact that he just viewed this as sex, if it came to that.

"But I'm in love now," he continued, apparently not noticing my near  complete emotional collapse a second earlier. "With this amazing girl I  know."

And, yes, hun. He really did just call me a girl. Not a lady. Not a woman. A ‘fucking hot girl'.

I should have stopped him there, but he wrapped his arms around me and  turned to his side. "She's cute, and funny. She makes my fucking dick so  hard I think it's going to break," he said to me.

"So romantic, geez," I said back, rolling my eyes. But I was blushing.

"She's sweet, kind, and makes me want to protect her," he kept going,  not bothering to care what I said or did in response. "And I want to be  with her for the rest of my fucking life."

"Do you kiss your mom with that mouth?" I asked him, smiling.

"No," he replied to me and then grinned. "But I lick my stepmom's pussy with it all the fucking time."

I gasped. It still puts shivers down my spine as I imagine him telling  me that. It's sinful. But so delicious. It was noon. The sun was  streaming in onto our naked bodies. And he was telling me he loved me.

But he was also smirking. And without another word, he pivoted his face  lower, showing me with kisses as he traveled down my body.

He kissed down my breasts. And my stomach. Until he reached the folds of my pussy. I sighed. Then gasped.

All of a sudden, he stopped, and looked up at me.

"I love you, Jocelyn," he said to me. And I still remember the giant  smile that went through my face. "In case you didn't get it from before.  You're that girl."

I can't remember much more after that because he made me cum so hard I  think I blacked out for a few moments. But I do remember that. And  that's all I need.

Three.

That's how many days ago Lance and I were out, having lunch at Per Se,  when a reporter from the New York Daily Journal stopped by.

"You're Mrs. Anders," he said. "Mind if I take a picture with you and your lunch date?"

I know that it was a common term. Lunch date doesn't have to mean a  romantic date. Two people can enjoy lunch together and make a date of  it. But is that how Michael would interpret it? Would it hurt the  campaign?

All of a sudden, the feeling of absolute joy that I felt a month ago as  Lance told me he loved me began to evaporate. Instead I saw the scandal.  The newspaper headlines. Michael divorcing me. Running my name through  the mud. One thing I knew for sure is that Michael excelled in the  politics of personal destruction. And Lance. He would try to go after  Lance. And Lance would fight back.

They say there's a big reason you shouldn't cheat. I honestly don't  consider myself to be cheating, hun. But I still lied, I think. And it  made me feel sick.

I barely managed to excuse myself and make it to the bathroom where I  ran into a stall and threw up, heaving until I was exhausted. It wasn't  till at least twenty minutes later I came out again.

One.

That's how many hours ago I realized that I may have gotten a panic  attack three days ago and gotten sick, but it didn't explain the next  morning. Or this morning, for that matter. And I know my body, I can  tell when something is different. And the fact that I'm late.

Ten.

That's how many minutes ago I checked the pregnancy test I bought at  Duane Reade. It's the second one I've checked. I went ahead and went  downstairs and bought them an hour ago after feeling like it was  something I needed to do.

Zero.

That's exactly how many ideas I have as to what the hell I'm going to do now that I'm pregnant.