I ran my hands through Landon’s hair anchoring myself to him. He slid my zipper down slowly. Alexa laughed at something Steven said and Landon stopped briefly. He tried to turn his head but I wouldn’t let him. I didn’t want to lose that connection we had going on.
I ran my finger nails up and down Landon’s back. He shivered and slid off me to the side. I was about to say something but I didn’t get the chance before he started tugging on my jeans. He moved so he could get my pants off.
Once my pants and panties were off Landon climbed back on top of me. He rocked into the place that I wanted him, needed him.
“Landon,” I panted.
He stopped kissing my neck and looked up at me. “What’s the matter?”
I didn’t know how to ask for what I needed but I knew what I wanted. Landon seemed to understand what I wanted though and reached between us and undid his button and zipper. He looked up at me and I nodded. I wanted them gone. I wanted nothing between us.
Steven yelled. “Stop fucking on my hammock!”
I giggled because that’s exactly what’s about to happen. I should’ve felt a little uncomfortable knowing they were right there but they couldn’t see us. You could barely see your hand in front of your face.
“Shut up, asshole!” Landon yelled back but didn’t stop pushing his jeans down.
Once they were down around his ankles he leaned back down and cupped my face in his hands. “Are you sure this is what you want?”
I nodded because if I opened my mouth he would’ve heard the nervousness within me.
“You’re sure?” he asked again.
He needed to hear the words. He wanted me to say them so there was no doubt. “Yes.”
Landon leaned up and dug around behind him. He pulled his wallet out and pulled out a condom then tossed the wallet on the ground.
I watched as he started to slide it on. He felt my stare on him. I wanted to roll it on but I didn’t know how to ask. Landon being Landon and knowing me so well reached for my hand and guided it to where he just had the condom rolled over the head of his dick. Together we put it on.
“I’m not gonna lie, Macy.” Landon breathed deeply. “It’s going to hurt.”
I nodded but knew he couldn’t see me. “I know.”
Landon was right it hurt like hell but as he whispered how much he loved me and how beautiful I was in my ear with each thrust seemed to make it not hurt as much. Tears spilled but I didn’t want him to stop. He didn’t last very long and I was thankful for that because I wasn’t sure how much more I could take of the pain. Towards the end it felt good but not that good.
When it was over Landon held me and kissed away my tears. Madison told me that you bleed after your first time and I began to freak out.
“What’s wrong? Does it hurt that much?” Landon asked.
“I, uh…” How do I tell him this? “I need to go to the bathroom.”
Landon chuckled easing my discomfort. “Come on.” He leaned and rolled off the hammock.
He pulled up his boxers first and I cringed. I wanted to tell him to stop because of the blood but I didn’t. I was too embarrassed. After he pulled his jeans up he held a hand out for me. I took it and rolled off the hammock. I had no idea where any of my clothes were. Landon leaned down for what I don’t know because I couldn’t see a damn thing. His shirt. I sighed in relief that I didn’t have to fumble around in the dark to make it back to the house. After he pulled it down over my head we walked hand-in-hand into the house. No one was up or they were at least in bed.
I let go of Landon’s hand. “I’ll be right out.”
I stepped into the bathroom and tried to shut the door but Landon stopped it. I looked up at him and the corner of his lip pulled up into a half smile. “I’ll help you.”
My eyes grew wide and my cheeks burned in embarrassment.
“We’ll take a shower together.” He offered.
It was a good idea but I was still nervous.
Landon lifted my chin, “Look at me.” And I did. “I know you’re embarrassed but you don’t need to be. I know what happens to you after the first time.” He kissed me. “Thank you.”
My eyebrows drew in confusion, “For what?”
“For giving me your first time.”
All my fears, nervousness and uneasiness faded away after that. As Landon washed me from head to toe, he washed all those feelings away.
Alexa sighs, “Do you think things will be different next year when we’re all away at college?”
No one was really sure where we were all going to end up in college. Steven was the first to get accepted to the University of Oregon and Alexa applied right away after that. She got in the same week that Landon was offered scholarships at the University of Washington and Alabama State. So naturally I applied to both along with University of Oregon but I was hoping I’d get accepted to wherever Landon went. Cash had scholarship offers coming from a bunch of different schools; so many that Madison gave up applying to any until he picked one. By the start of his senior year he had over thirty colleges to choose from. Two weeks after Steven accepted his scholarship, Landon and Cash accepted the offer too. It’s like they were waiting on him. So that’s how we all wound up going to one school.