"Trees again momma. You know I don't like trees." He says
"I know you don't like trees honey, but we had your favorite yesterday." I reply.
"Yeah bruder I don't like peas they are slimy, but I ate them yesterday." Jazz says to him and Jamie groans.
"At least there's Mac and Cheese and Chicken Nuggets." He says with a sigh.
"Yeah this is the best dinner ever." Jazz says cheerfully.
"Well you better get to eating it you two before it gets cold." I laugh
They tell me about their day and I wait patiently to hear about that little shit Mitch. They retell the story but nothing new comes out of the conversation. I tell them they need to go get their pajamas and pick out their school clothes for tomorrow. I go to the kitchen and grab a mason jar so I can pour a glass of Moscato. After I pour half a glass I take a hefty drink. I shake my head as I think back just a few moments ago. I told the kids about the phrases I learned when I was their age. One phrase was by a women named Mrs. George Cupples.
"Sticks and stones will break my bones but names will never hurt me." She wrote
They both looked at me like I was crazy. I told them the another one I learned as a child also.
"I'm rubber and your glue. Whatever you say to me bounces off me and sticks to you."
They both laughed and have been trying to memorize that saying all evening. My heart breaks for them, but at the same time I'm happy they're resilient. They've already forgotten about what that little fucker said to them. I clear my head with a shake. I make my way downstairs to start the shower for Jamie.
"I'm the man of the house. I don't take baths like girls do." He says to me last week.
I don't know where he comes up with some of the things he says. He does reminds me of his father. I get him in the shower first because it doesn't take him that long. He still takes some of his toys in there with him. After he gets out and puts his Star Wars pajamas on. He then goes upstairs to watch his favorite program while his sister's in the bath. I rinse out the tub and take his toys out. I put them in his bucket next to the tub. I start the water for jazz and put some of her toys in the water. Her bucket sits next to tub also.
"Do you need help washing your hair?" I ask
"I can wash my own hair momma. I like it better when you do it though." She looks up at me with a smile.
"I like to wash your hair princess." I tell her with a warm smile.
Both her and her brother have my hair color but they have green eyes. Just like the ones that haunt my dreams. I wash and condition her hair and stand up.
"Wash up your body princess. You have fifteen minutes to play."
I leave the door open and make my way upstairs. Jamie and I grab a cuddle before it's bedtime.
"I love you, momma." He says as he cuddles in close to me.
"I love you to the moon and back baby boy."
"When you brushed your teeth did you sing the alphabet song twice in your minds?" I ask as they were getting into bed.
"Yes momma." The both answer.
I get them tucked into their beds and give each a cuddle. I tell them to sleep tight and I love them. I turn off the main light. They have their night lights on to see if they have to get up in the middle of the night. They're both yawning and tell me they love me as I'm shutting their door.
I grab my pajamas and robe and make my way into the bathroom. All I want to do is go crawl into my bed. I know if I don't shower now I won't have time to in the morning. I wash my hair and put conditioner in. I grab my body wash and loofah. I start washing my arms and stomach. As the loofah rubs against my nipples I feel a tingling in my clit. I rub the loofah down my stomach. I make my way down to the lips of my pussy. I start to rub my clit and drop the loofah and start using my fingers. I touch my sensitive nerve and it shoots pleasure throughout my body. I start to rub my throbbing clit and dip my fingers into my pussy. My mind goes back into time. I start picturing him touching himself knowing I'm watching. A moan leaves my throat. I picture him standing behind me. It's his fingers doing the rubbing while he uses his other hand to finger fuck me. As I cum I remember that I'm in my bathroom. He left me without a backward glance. He unknowingly left the twins also. I shouldn't be imaging him when I pleasure myself. I have to remind myself that I hate him even if I really don't. I can't say I blame him for taking off after I gave him my virginity. I remember the conversation that Pete had with Ali about giving her pussy away and he wasn't going to turn it down. I was stupid thinking Dean loved me and I was his forever girl. I was a naive child thinking I found my true love at sixteen years old. I rinse my hair and body and get out of the shower. I stand in front of the mirror as I dry off and look at myself. I look myself in the eyes and tell my reflection that I'm beautiful, smart, kind, loving, and deserve the best this world has to offer. I nod my head at myself. I brush my hair, my teeth, and put my pajamas and robe on and go to my room. I'm laying in bed and I thinking about the to do list for tomorrow. The twins have an appointment. I remember that I have to send a note to school. I'm so glad that they're both healthy and we don't see the doctor often.
I'm walking into work the next morning when I see Quinn. I try to discretely get to my office without him noticing.
"Come in." I say but he has the door open before the words are out of my mouth completely.
He's a good looking man with black hair that's styled in a faux hawk. He has piercing blue eyes that have made many women drop their panties for him. He's 6'3 and lean but defined in a way I've always found attractive. He steps in and shuts the door behind him. He takes a seat in the chair directly in front of my desk. He sits back in the chair like this is his office and not mine. I'm getting a little aggravated with his presence already.
"What can I do for you Quinn?"
"I wanted to know if you wanted to have dinner with me on Thursday?"
"For the last time Quinn my answer is No."
"You'll say yes at some point." He gets a look in his eyes but it disappears just as quick.
"Why don't you hold your breath until then." He gives a short laugh like what I'm saying is funny.
"Why do you always say no." He asks me like he really doesn't know.
"There's a long list as to why I always say no. The first two reasons are my children."
"I know your children and they know me. What's the big deal?"
I use the voice I use with my children so that they know I'm serious.
"They know you in regards of being my boss's son. They see you around the office ever so often. You know them in the same regards. I won't go out with you for that main reason. However, there are even more reasons I have. I shouldn't have to explain myself to you or anyone else. NO means NO and you need to learn that really quick. For the last time; I won't date you because you're my boss's son. You go through women like I go through water bottles. If and when I decide to date someone it'll be because I want to start a relationship. Which you my friend aren't looking for. Now I have work that won't do itself so if you'd kindly show yourself out. I need to get most of this done before I have to pick my children up. I have to leave early today."
His flirty attitude leaves him and there's a stunned look on his face momentarily.
"I'll leave you for now. I'll be back though and I'll show you that you're perfect for me. I would change my ways if I had a woman like you." He smirks and has that cocky grin on his face that I would love to smack off.
I shake my head and ignore him until he leaves my office. I start up my computer to prepare for my day. I look at the clock and see its already 9:15 am. I don't have anything done and I'm annoyed. I start on my tasks and before I know it my alarm goes off. I see that it's already time to pack up so I can get the kids to the doctor.
I walk into Dr. Stoner's office and the kids go right to the play section. I walk up to the desk to register them and the receptionist greets me. I sign the paperwork and give her our insurance card so she can make a copy. I hear a couple receptionist talking about the new doctor that's taking over the practice. They say she's here today shadowing Dr. Stoner so that she can start meeting the patients and their parents. I knew Dr. Stoner was older but I didn't think she'd be retiring yet. When the receptionist comes back I ask her about it.
"Dr. Stoner's getting married and they're going to travel that's why she's retiring early. The new Doctor is young around your age. Maybe a little older maybe." Jill says to me.
"How can she be out of medical school if she's so young?" I ask
"She graduated when she was sixteen and went right to college." She replies
She must be smart because I only know two people that graduated that young and they were twins I think to myself.