For a Few Demons More(75)

Hip cocked, she looked to her left as if searching for strength. Or maybe answers. “Better won’t keep you alive,” she said, and I went cold at the caustic sound. “You don’t have it in you. You said yourself you don’t want to hurt me. If I take your blood again without letting my feelings for you shackle my hunger, you’re going to have to hurt me, because the hunger will take control, and I’m not capable of stopping then. Think you can do that?”

My mouth went dry, and my first words came out in a croak. “I…” I stammered, “I don’t have to hurt you to stop you.”

“Is that so?” she said, and as I stood frozen with my eyes wide, she dropped her purse. “Let’s find out.”

I jerked back as she leapt. Gasping, I dove toward her, pushing off the wall. My intent was to get past her. If she got a hold on me, I was dead meat. This wasn’t passion. This was anger. Anger at herself, perhaps, but anger.

The thump of her hitting the wall where I had been brought my heart into my throat. I spun where I landed. She was coming back, and I grabbed her arm, wrenching it to lever her into falling. She twisted from me, rolled by the sound of it, and I spun.

But I was too slow, and I bit back a yelp when a white arm slipped around my neck. Her fingers pinched my hand, bending my wrist backward until it hurt. I went slack in her grip, caught and unable to best her vampire reactions. It was over that quickly. She had me.

“Hurt me, Rachel,” she whispered, stirring my hair. “Show me you aren’t afraid to hurt me. If you aren’t brought up that it’s the norm, it’s harder than you think.”

She wasn’t masochistic. She was a realist, trying to get me to understand. Frightened, I struggled, pain ripping through my shoulder. Her grip was confining without being painful. It was my trying to get away that hurt. I went still, eyes wide and focused on the wall. I felt her warm against my back, and tension pulled my muscles tight one by one as the tingling started high in my neck and trickled lower.

“We can share blood without love if you hurt me,” Ivy breathed, her breath brushing my ear. “We can share blood without hurt if you love me. There is no middle ground.”

“I don’t want to hurt you,” I said, knowing that my magic was like a ball bat. I had no finesse. It would hurt her, and hurt her bad. “Let go,” I demanded, shifting. She tightened her grip, and a thread of heat coiled in my center as my motion ended with more of our bodies touching. This had started as an object lesson to get me to leave her alone, but now…Oh, God. What if she bites me again. Right now?

“You’re the one stopping us from finding a blood balance,” she said. “Love is pain, Rachel. Figure it out. Get over it.”

It wasn’t. At least it didn’t have to be. I wiggled again. “Ow, ow!” I said, feet scuffling. I was starting to sweat. Her scent poured over me, soothing, enticing, bringing the memory of her teeth sliding into me to the forefront of my thoughts as evolution had intended. And when my eyes closed at a surge of adrenaline pooling in me to set my blood rushing, I realized just what kind of trouble we were in. I didn’t want her to let go. “Uh, Ivy?”

“Damn it,” she whispered, and the heat in her voice hit me hard.

We were six kinds of stupid. I had only wanted to talk, and she had only wanted to prove how dangerous finding a blood balance would be. And now it was too late for thinking.

Her grip tightened, and I relaxed into it. “God, you smell good,” she said, and my pulse thrummed. “I shouldn’t have touched you….”

Feeling unreal, I tried to move, finding she’d let me turn to face her. My heart jumped into my throat, and I swallowed as I gazed into her perfect face, flushed with the danger of where we were. Her eyes were black as absolute night, reflecting my image: lips parted, eyes wild. The darkness was colored by the blood lust shimmering in her eyes. And below that, deeper under it all, was her fragile vulnerability.

“I can’t hurt you,” I said, fear a faint whisper in me.

My neck throbbed with the memory of her lips on me, the glorious feeling of her pulling, drawing what she needed to fill the hurting chasm in her soul. Her eyes closed, and, breathing deeply, I felt myself relax against her as her forehead touched my shoulder. “I’m not going to bite you,” she said, her teeth inches from me, and a pulse of need shocked though me. “I’m not going to bite you.”

My soul seemed to darken with her words. The question of what she would do had been answered. She was going to walk away. She was going to let go, drop back, and walk away.