For a Few Demons More(176)

Skimmer and Ivy were with Piscary, and my heart clenched as Ivy did nothing when I tried to catch her eyes. She looked pale and empty, her perfect face still blank and beautiful, graceful in her sophisticated gray dress. It hurt to see her like that, and the memory of her voice rang in my head, the broken sound when she had begged me to keep the sun away from her after Piscary had raped her body and her blood and she thought she was dead. Pulling back, I forced myself to keep from reaching out to give her a shake. Piscary smiled in smug satisfaction at my pain, his hand upon the small of her back as he guided her forward.

I watched until they turned the corner. How could I do nothing? How could I stand here and watch her go by without doing something? She was my friend. Hell, she was more. And with that thought I felt my face go cold.

Kisten and Ivy offered me the same chance at finding blood ecstasy, Kisten’s offer packaged in a way my upbringing would have no problem dealing with, yet I’d said no to him. Continually. All the while, I was courting disaster trying to battle both my preconceived notions of myself and the risk of death to find the same thing with Ivy. Why?

And I closed my eyes, shutting out the world as I hammered the thought home. I wanted something lasting with Ivy. Yes, this spring I had come to grips with the idea that I’d probably moved into the church unconsciously hoping she’d bite me. True, I had beaten her off a few times before in fear, but I couldn’t bring myself to do it anymore if the van incident this spring was any indication. I made no apology for wanting to try to find a blood balance with her. But only now did I realize what that meant. I was talking about a life commitment. Just because it might not involve sex didn’t make it any less important or lasting.

“No way, Rachel,” Edden said, and I stared in panic until I realized he was talking about my wanting Trent with us, not the possibility of Ivy and me together. Bound by blood and friendship. That it didn’t necessarily preempt a secondary, more traditional relationship with a man—with Kist?—only added to the scary factor.

Edden’s head tilted in confusion at my deer-in-the-headlights expression, and I dropped my gaze, feeling dizzy. Crap, why did I always pick the best times to figure things out?

“I need Trent there,” I said, pressing the focus to my middle. “If he doesn’t see me give this thing to Piscary, then it doesn’t do me any good.”

Edden grimaced, making his mustache stick out. “Quen can tell him.”

The door to Trent’s interrogation room opened, cutting our argument short. The FIB officer stopped, but it was too late, Trent had followed him out, accompanied by a second man in a suit. His lawyer, probably.

Trent looked totally unlike himself, yet nothing significant had changed. He was still dressed in his wedding finery, he still walked with grace, but there was an eerie wariness that had been absent before. His gaze fastened on mine with the usual intensity, but the edge of icy hatred was new. Disturbingly controlled, he drew himself upright, hiding the fatigue born of his efforts to lie his way out of his heinous crimes.

“Trent needs to be there,” I blurted, trying to muddle things more. “He’s a council member until proven guilty, and he needs to be present. This involves the city’s security. You want to wait around for someone else to show up? You’re pretty good if you think you can put a master vampire in a room with two alpha Weres, a demon, and a…a whatever Quen is,” I said, remembering to keep his elven heritage a secret.

“Rachel…” Edden warned, but I had given Trent all he needed.

“If there is a city security issue, I have a right to be present,” he said, regaining a modicum of his usual crisp presence. Trent didn’t know what I was doing, but clearly I was trying to include him in it, and despite his probably wanting to put out a contract on me for tagging him, he’d go along with it. All things in their own time, apparently.

The officer and the suit flanking him had a hushed conversation, and when the FIB guy shrugged, Edden sighed. “Damn it, Rachel,” he muttered, squeezing my elbow. “This is not how I do things.”

Tired, I said nothing as I waited for his decision. My thoughts went to Ivy, then Kist.

The squat ex–military man rubbed a hand over his chin and took a firmer stance. “I’m in there with two other men.”

“Just you, and you can cuff him to a chair,” I came back.

Trent’s frown deepened until it showed on his forehead. We all had to press back against the walls as three harried-looking officers carrying boxes of blue paper and envelopes passed. Apparently the room was cleaned up, and I started getting nervous again.