I didn’t want to do that. The undead vampire was the only person I knew who could keep the focus safe until it could be hidden again.
Seeing Jenks’s misery, I took a breath to ask him about his outfit. I’d never seen it before, sort of a combination of Quen’s black uniform with the free-flowing folds of a desert sheik’s robes. But Jenks’s gaze flicked to mine, making me pause.
“Thanks, Rachel,” he said, wings utterly still. “For everything. I want to tell you in case we both don’t make it through this.”
“Jenks…” I started, and he cut me off with a sharp wing chirp.
“Shut your mouth, witch!” he snapped, though I could tell he wasn’t mad. “I want to thank you—this past year has been the best in my life. And not just for me. That sterility wish I got from you is probably why Matalina made it through last winter. The garden and everything that came with working with you?” Jenks’s gaze went distant. “Even if they bulldoze everything, I want you to know that it was worth it. My kids know you can make it if you take risks and work hard. That we can work in the system you lunkers set up. That’s all a parent really needs to give his kids. That, and how to love someone with all your soul.”
This was sounding like a last confession, and I flicked my gaze from the car braking in front of me to him. “Jeez, Jenks. We’re going to be fine. I’ll give Piscary the focus, and he’ll rescind the eviction. And once everyone knows he has the thing, life will go back to normal. Matalina will be fine.”
He didn’t say anything. Matalina wasn’t going to be fine no matter what happened in the next twenty-four hours. But I’d be damned if I wouldn’t do what I could to get her through the coming winter. She was not going to hibernate and risk not waking up, that was for sure.
Jenks’s wings drooped, and he pulled a fold of fabric up and polished his sword. Just as well. I wasn’t enjoying the conversation, and Jenks’s misery was making my stomach hurt. I wished he were bigger again, just so I could give him a hug.
Understanding hit me, and I stiffened. This inability to touch was what Ivy lived with every day. She couldn’t touch anyone she cared about without her blood lust asserting itself.
We are so screwed up.
I forced myself back from the bumper of the guy in front of me. Piscary’s was just ahead, and I wanted to get off the street before the I.S. found me. They were suspiciously absent, and I wondered if they were watching me from a distance to see if I had left to get the focus from someone. I suppose mailing it hadn’t been the smartest thing, but I couldn’t put it into a bus locker, and giving it to Ceri would’ve been a mistake. Humanity had steadfastly kept control of the mail system, and even Piscary would think twice about leaning on an overworked employee who might snap and go postal. There were some things even a vampire wouldn’t mess with.
The jitters started, and Jenks’s wings shifted fitfully as we pulled into Piscary’s parking lot. Yeah, the plan looked good on paper, but Piscary might be more ticked than I thought about my putting him in jail. That I’d just been doing my job probably wouldn’t go very far with him.
Nervous, I scanned the area. There were a few cars clustered about the kitchen entrance that were clearly not patrons’. I didn’t see Ivy’s cycle, but there was a huge mound of stuff piled at the curb. Sheets of paneling that once covered the upstairs windows and the tall, trendy tables and stools that Kisten had put in were now carelessly piled to make a five-foot wall between the lot and the street, waiting for pickup. Apparently Piscary was doing a little remodeling.
My eyes widened, and I took my foot off the gas when I realized Kisten’s light show was among it, the metal scaffolding bent and twisted as if it had been pulled from the ceiling without regard. The colored lights were smashed, and his pool table was leaning atop it.
“Rache,” Jenks said, chilling me, “that pile of trash just moved.”
Fear slid through me, and my heart jumped. It was Kisten sitting on the curb between the mounds of debris. Sun glinting on his blond hair, he threw something into the pile with a metallic ting. He looked rumpled in his red silk shirt and black linen slacks. Discarded.
“Oh, my God,” I whispered. His head came up as I swung the car around to point my nose to the exit, parking sideways against the faded lines. There was anger in his absolutely black eyes—utter hatred blending with betrayal and frustration.
“Ah, Rachel, maybe you should stay in the car.”
Heart pounding, I fumbled for the door, and Jenks zipped out before me, aggressive and wary. Kisten stood, and, leaving the car running, I glanced at the dark restaurant and the upper windows overlooking the parking lot. Nothing moved but a scrap of paper taped to the door. Worried, I paced to him, my kick-butt boots tapping. “Kisten?”