Finding Master Right(11)
“Me neither.”
“You might get married sooner than I do.”
“Not unless they change the law.”
Banner pinched his cheek and Rook swatted him away. “In a few years I’m sure the law will have changed. If it hasn’t we’ll all drive to another state for the wedding.”
His brother was nodding, looking lost in thoughts too serious for a fourteen-year-old.
“Did you tell Mom yet?”
Rook pressed the toe of his Converse sneaker into the dirt. “She’s got enough to bring her down. She doesn’t need to deal with me coming out.”
He put his arm around Rook’s shoulder and squeezed. His brother leaned into him.
“Mom’s mental health isn’t your battle. Staying in the closet to protect her is sweet, but you deserve to be happy and out, if you want to be out.”
“You gave up your dream job to follow in Dad’s footsteps and rot out children’s teeth.” He shrugged. “I’ve had a selfless role model.”
Dreams. The thought brought Banner back to when he’d tried to make a living painting and selling his art. The starving artist thing had been great as he’d traveled through Europe, staying in hostels, but he wasn’t young anymore. Sure, he’d fallen in love with Sweden when he was there, and he’d hated leaving it to come home when his father’s health started waning, but he’d known he couldn’t do it forever.
“Sometimes I think you’re as sad as Mom.” The boy eyed him, then stared off into the distance. “You just hide it better.”
Banner grabbed the bag of cotton candy from Rook’s hand and untied it. He balled up the last two bites and shoved one into Rook’s mouth, then ate the other one.
“Shh. You’ve got your own things to worry about. Quit worrying about everyone else.”
Rook laughed around his mouthful of candy. He chewed, watching a rollercoaster as it swooped by, then turned back to Banner. “Meadow says I’m too sensitive, and that if I don’t toughen up I’ll never get a date.”
Banner winked at him. “Well, I guess it’s good that Dylan doesn’t like going out much.”
***
She was either late or not coming.
The time they’d agreed on had come and gone, and he was still entirely alone—other than the hard-on that had been nagging at him on and off all day.
There was a chance she was stuck in traffic. He checked his phone, but there was as much from her now as there’d been for the past few days. Nada. Maybe Janine had found someone for her, or maybe she’d come to her senses and realized messing around with Banner wasn’t a good idea.
Why had he let himself get so excited about a girl who wasn’t going to be permanent? Sure, he wanted to play with her, but there were plenty of other women who were willing to do that. Ones that were definitely submissive. Submissive was closer to slave than a vanilla girl was, right? So what was the big deal about training Kate?
In his studio, he tried to paint, but he was too tense to work. Instead, he headed down to the home theater.
He forced himself to sit on the couch and turn on the TV. He hated TV.
Flip, flip, flip.
Out of his peripheral vision, he caught sight of the T-shirt he was wearing. Suddenly, it annoyed him. He stalked off to his bedroom, slid open the doors to his walk-in closet, and rifled through the neatly folded shirts in their cubbies. When he found the one he wanted, he yanked the other one off over his head.
Calm the fuck down.
The doorbell rang. He froze. If it had been Ambrose coming to snoop, he’d have walked right in. The maid wouldn’t have bothered with doorbells either.
With unhurried movements, he headed for the door, pulling on his shirt as he went. Irritation and uncertainty were crowding him, but he slowed his breathing and tried to pretend none of this mattered to him.
He opened the door, and there she was, in all of her innocent, vanilla glory.
Kate looked up at him, her eyes wide and full of trepidation.
“Come in, Kate. I was expecting you twenty minutes ago.”
She stepped cautiously across the threshold, craning her head. “This is your house?”
“Yes.”
“It looks like a museum.”
“It’s old.” Forget this polite shit. “Why are you late?”
Kate’s smile trembled and fell away. “I-I’m sorry. I was going to say I got lost, or something, but I don’t want to start today out with a lie.” She bit her lip and looked down at her shoes. “I was scared. I didn’t sleep at all last night, and I didn’t have clothes like what you wanted me to wear, so I had to go shopping, but it took forever to find what I wanted.” Her voice quavered through the last of it.
“Shh. Come in.” He felt like an ass. Why had he assumed she was playing a game with him? He’d dated a few subs who had tried head games with him, but she didn’t seem the type. He was too eager for this, and all the waiting and wondering had made him grumpy. Showing up at all was pretty ballsy of her.
She stepped inside, and he closed and locked the door behind her, even though he didn’t usually bother. It would tell Ambrose he didn’t want to be disturbed, at least.
“Take off your shoes and put them by the door.”
“My shoes?”
“And socks.”
Although she quirked a brow at him, she still complied. Some Doms insisted their women wear heels for them, but he felt that bare feet set a better tone. Barefoot submissives tended to remember their place, even if the rest of their clothing stayed on.
“Would you like a soda? Water?”
“Nothing for now, thanks.”
Back to small talk. He hated small talk. Small talk made him feel as if he were at work.
“The house was built in the 1880’s. I’m having it slowly restored. The company doing it specializes in this kind of thing.”
Kate walked across the foyer and turned back to look at the stained-glass window high above the door, then followed the light filtering through it to the pattern it made on the pale marble flooring.
“Original?” She pointed at the window.
“Yes. The artist knew what he was doing, luckily. I’m glad, because I doubt I could commission something so beautiful now.”
“It’s Saint George?”
“I assume so, because of the dragon.”
She stood and stared at it, and while her eyes were busy, Banner looked her over. Yoga pants, T-shirt. Those she’d done. Lines under her clothes betrayed the bra and panties she’d worn despite his instructions not to, plus her hair was in a ponytail when he’d told her to wear it loose. It was pulled back so tightly from her face that it must have made her scalp ache. She looked like a sadistic primary school teacher on her way to her Saturday Pilates class.
However, the way the yoga pants clung to her perfect ass was sinful. Whoever had dreamed up yoga pants must have used Kate’s ass as inspiration.
So, how did one go about disciplining a vanilla girl who said she wanted to be submissive but dug in her heels?
“Do you need a few minutes to finish getting ready?” Banner let his gaze meet hers and narrowed his eyes slightly.
A pink tinge spread across her cheeks, and she averted her gaze. “Do I have to? I mean, I almost didn’t come because of that. Telling a person how to dress is kind of creepy. I’m a grown woman. I should be able to dress the way I like.”
“Creepy? You better get used to it if you really want a Dom. They’ll expect you to follow their orders.”
She nodded carefully, but her face betrayed her trepidation. “I’m trying to understand it all, but some parts seem so weird.” Chuckling, she added, “Other parts are totally hot.”
He understood where she was coming from, but she’d have to learn to give in a little. Sometimes being a submissive was about stepping out of your comfort zone. That was something he’d have to explain as they went. For now, baby steps.
He led her through the house. Occasionally, her whispering footsteps paused in his wake, and he waited while she gawked at the rooms or art that interested her before he continued on. Once she stopped to admire a landscape he’d painted years ago, but he didn’t tell her it was his work.
“You didn’t mention you were rich.”
“Does that make a difference?”
“No.”
Women always said that, but for some reason, with Kate it seemed true.
They arrived in the home theater room, which was cozy and soundproof, although noise probably wouldn’t be an issue today. He turned to face Kate, but because she’d been rubbernecking around the room, she hadn’t noticed he’d halted. She stopped too close. Only inches away, she tipped her head back to look at his face. Lips parted, eyes wide, she looked surprised they’d almost collided.
“Give me your BDSM checklist and the list of limits you have regarding your arrangement with me, then go finish getting ready in the bathroom across the hall.” He wondered if she’d obey, considering how reluctant she was when it came to other things.
She drew a stack of papers from her purse and handed them over but stayed rooted in place instead of heading across the hall.
“Do you need me to walk you there, Kate?”
She fidgeted. “But I don’t want to. It’s demeaning and disturbing.”
“Chances are your Dominant will tell you how to dress, at least sometimes. This will start getting you used to that idea. Is there a serious reason why you can’t comply? Is it a trigger for you?”