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Falling into Surrender(2)

By:A. Zavarelli


Alanna glances at me, her eyes imploring me to take up his offer.

"I don't know," I say, knowing full well that isn't going to happen. "I  need to think about this first. Everything's moving too fast."

Gabriel sighs, probably expecting nothing less from me. "Fine. You have  two days to wrap your head around it, but you will be coming with me. I  won't give in on this Victoria. But in the meantime, I need you and  Alanna to come with me this afternoon because I'm teaching you both how  to shoot."







We spend the afternoon at the shooting range, Gabriel patiently teaching  us the ins and outs of handguns. He insists on us keeping a small  handgun in the apartment for protection until I agree to stay with him. I  don't shy away from the gun because I've grown up around them. I  already know how to shoot rifles, but I feel more confident knowing I  can protect myself if I need to. Alanna takes a bit more practice  considering she's never shot a gun in her life.

Gabriel drops us both back off at our apartment later that evening. He  tries to stay, hovering over me, but I regretfully tell him to go home  and catch up on work. I need some time to figure all of this out. I  still don't want him getting involved, but after this morning's  bombshell about Alanna, I don't know how much choice I have. I'm afraid  if I leave Alanna here, Eleanore could still come after her. She knows  we're friends. She knows we've been running together for years. And I'm  sure Eleanore is certain it would be one of the quickest ways to bring  me to my knees. Going after someone that I love.





Chapter Two

Victoria





The next afternoon, Nathan picks Alanna up for the evening on the  assumption that I'll probably be busy with Gabriel. I haven't heard from  him yet today, and I don't know if he plans on seeing me tonight or  not. The thought of being without him, or Alanna for that matter, fills  me with sadness.

This is what my life will be like again if I run. Completely alone. I've  been mulling over Gabriel's offer to stay with him though I'm not sure  why I'm even considering it. I know he's trying to be protective, and  it's a really nice offer, but deep down I don't want it to happen under  these circumstances. I love Gabriel, and our relationship has progressed  further than I ever thought it could. The idea of having something real  with him is torturous because I know it's just an illusion.

Just as I'm contemplating my options, there's a knock at the door,  followed by the voice of the familiar delivery man. I open up and he  hands over another gold box with a note card tucked carefully on top.  When I sit down and take off the lid, I find a dozen red roses tucked  inside.

Victoria,

Your favorite color is red, and you look beautiful in it.

My house 7:00 pm tonight.

Please wear the dress I gave you, I'm dying to see you in it.

Bring your camera.

And don't worry, there will be no paparazzi …  just you and me

Gabriel

My heart gallops inside my chest, wondering what he has planned for  tonight. I completely forgot about the red dress stashed in my bedroom  closet, and suddenly, I can't wait to wear it for him.

The rest of the day drags on. I toy with the notion of exploring the  city and taking some more photos. But Gabriel is still being stubborn  about the whole safety issue. He even went as far as suggesting a  bodyguard when he's not around. The idea is absolutely ridiculous, and I  told him as much. Eleanore isn't stupid by any stretch of the  imagination, and one man wouldn't stop her from accomplishing what she  sets out to anyway. I managed to convince Gabriel to hold off for just a  couple more days while I consider the idea. When I pointed out that I  haven't even been in New York that long, and there's no way she could  have traced me here yet, he reluctantly agreed.         

     



 

When six o' clock finally arrives, I shower and carefully slip into the  elegant red dress. The fabric feels soft and luxurious against my skin,  and I can only imagine what it will feel like once Gabriel gets his  hands on it.

I apply some makeup, opting for an old Hollywood glamour look with  liquid eyeliner and the perfect shade of crimson lipstick to match my  dress. I take the time to straighten my hair so that it falls in a sleek  cascade down my back. And when I'm done, I slip into a pair of strappy  silver stilettos to match the silver rhinestone detailing around the  waist.

As I look at myself in the mirror, I have one of those rare moments  where I actually like what I see. The dress is exquisite, with a deep  open back and a high slit up the thigh, showing off just the right  amount of flesh. It hugs my figure and makes my curves look soft and  feminine. But I know as soon as I step onto the street this feeling  won't last. That little voice will be inside my head, questioning all of  the things I dislike about myself.

Before I let that feeling take over, I gather strength in the form of  several deep breaths and steel my nerves. I will not let those feelings  win tonight. With one last twirl in the mirror, I leave my apartment  behind, heading straight for the man that I love.

Downstairs, Paul is waiting for me at the curb, and he raises his  eyebrows in surprise as he greets me. During the car ride to Gabriel's  apartment, the nerves grow a little bit stronger. I like the color red  because it feels bold and powerful, but tonight I need it to serve a  different purpose. The purpose of making me feel like the woman Gabriel  sees when he looks at me. Easier said than done.

When I arrive at his door, I smooth out the fabric one last time before I  knock. A moment later the door whirs open, and my chest squeezes at the  sight before me. Gabriel is draped against the frame, wearing a crisp  black tux and shiny black dress shoes. His eyes sweep over me in lazy  appraisal as he ambles towards me in a predatory fashion. He pulls me  inside for a slow, seductive kiss, effectively disposing me of all of my  wits.

"You look exquisite." He breathes against my ear.

I murmur incoherently as his cologne lingers between us, rich and warm  and enticing in every way. He reaches for my hand and leads me down into  the living area, and I follow like the puppet I am. I notice that the  place has been cleaned up, all the broken furniture and glass replaced,  and to my surprise the place feels much homier than before. The new  furniture is gray but much softer with touches of blue sprinkled  throughout.

Gabriel stops at an open space in front of the floor to ceiling glass  windows, the city lights twinkling below us for the perfect backdrop. He  retrieves a small remote from his pocket, hitting a couple of buttons  to effectively dim the lights and bring the stereo to life around us. I  look up at him questioningly, but he just gives me a sly smile as he  wraps his hand around my waist like a proper gentleman. The soft beats  of a familiar tune come over the speakers before I recognize the song.  It's Save the Last Dance for Me by Michael Buble.

"I'm not a good dancer," I squeak as he begins to move.

"Just follow my lead," he reassures me with a wink. "Like you always do."

I close my eyes for a moment, allowing all of my tension to flee as I  relax into the guidance of his arms. Our bodies move in easy synergy  across the floor, the beat of my pulse quickening when I drink Gabriel  in. He dances like he fucks, completely and utterly ruthless in his  perfection.

"When I was at the charity event without you," he says, "enduring Anya's  endless attempts at conversation, all I could think about was you in  this dress. Dancing with me, watching your beautiful curves moving  against my body. You were all I thought about that night. You're the  only woman I ever think about like that anymore. I wanted to have this  moment with you and nobody else."

Tears spring to my eyes as I nod in agreement. "I love you," I whisper, squeezing him in my arms. "So much."

He stoops down to ghost his lips across mine. "I love you too, Victoria. And it scares the hell out of me how much."

I smile in complete understanding as the music comes to an end, plunging  the room into silence once more. Gabriel takes my hand in his and grabs  my bag from the entrance, pulling out my camera. He leads me down the  hallway to his room, where he proceeds to spin me around in circles  until I'm dizzy with laughter.         

     



 

"What are you doing?" I try to hold back my grin as he sets me down on  the bed and lifts the camera in front of me. He snaps a few shots in  quick succession, like a complete pro. Figures.

"I love that smile," he says.

I feel awkward and uncomfortable in front of the camera lens, but  Gabriel doesn't miss a beat. He leans down and kisses me hard until I'm  breathless and needy with desire. Then he pulls back and snaps away  shamelessly.

"I love that you aren't afraid to show me how much you want me," he says.

I groan and cross my arms like a petulant child. "Am I that transparent?"

He snaps a couple more shots before I try to swipe for the camera.