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By:Christopher Bram


Hussein, also pasted on foam core. The UN had passed its resolution against

Iraq at the beginning of November and the inspectors were now over there,

hunting for weapons of mass destruction. It was assumed war had been safely

averted, despite the sword rattling by the White House. The crisis had come

and gone without ever really mussing the hair of college life.

Maureen dropped by Daniel’s office to chat before she went home for

Christmas break. She had no new gossip to report.

“No more babysitting for the Rohanis?”

“Nyaah, I think they’re too embarrassed to invite me back.”

“Do you know if they’re staying in town over Christmas?”

She didn’t think they were. Mr. Rohani had asked their class if anyone

knew the art scene in Toronto. She got the impression that he and his family

were going up there to see relatives over the holidays.

“I didn’t know he had family in Canada.”

“Don’t quote me,” she said. “But that’s the impression I got.”

On the final day of the semester, the school began to clear out at noon. By

five it was like a ghost college, a school of the dead. Daniel took a long walk

around campus to soak up the melancholy. The winter dusk provided a good,

thick, familiar sadness. It was like being back at the George School, a Quaker

prep school in Pennsylvania that Daniel had attended in tenth grade, where

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he was alone and miserable and often in love. He crossed Jamestown Road to

Chandler Court, walked through the gate, turned right, and strolled toward

the duplex rented by the Rohanis. If Abbas or Elena saw him out here, so be

it. Let them think he was a stalker, a prowler, a pervert. But the house under

the tall stand of cedar trees was pitch-black. The car was gone. Daniel went up

on the porch and saw two or three days’ worth of mail jammed into the box.

So Maureen was right. The Rohanis had left town. No wonder the college

felt so empty, not just a ghost college but like a haunted house after the ghosts

had been exorcised. No wonder his sadness felt pleasant, not like real pain

but like the first love of adolescence, when you’re pleased to discover you’re

not heartless after all.

When he got home, he asked Zack if Elena had said anything about visit-

ing Canada.

“No. But we’re not in constant contact. Despite how it might look.” He

hesitated. “If it were a long trip, I would think she’d tell me. It must be a short

visit.” He sounded worried.

“I’m sure they’ll be back. I’m actually glad they’re gone. I’m just surprised

neither of them said anything to anybody.”

Over the next few days Daniel noticed that he and Zack were gentler with

each other. Daniel didn’t do anything deliberately: it just came out differently.

He was on vacation now and used his free time to read in the morning and do

errands in the afternoon. He bought a tree and set it up in the living room

while Zack was at the hospital. Daniel loved the novelty of evergreens in the

house, the fresh, sappy outdoor aroma. The smell only depressed Zack, who

reported that Christmas trees looked especially grim at Eastern State. He

might’ve ruled out having a tree at home except he’d learned that the absence

of decorations in the house made his patients nervous. They didn’t care if

their shrink were an atheist or Jew or Buddhist, so long as he celebrated

Christmas.

One night there was a special screening of Orphans of the Storm on Turner

Classic Movies. Daniel and Zack watched it together, transfixed. A silent

melodrama, as shameless as Dickens, it told the tale of two sisters, one of them

blind, separated by the French Revolution. The climax was the rescue of the

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sighted sister, played by Lillian Gish, just as she sticks her head under the guil-

lotine. “What a movie!” Zack said afterward. “It plays your emotions like a

harp. When Lillian hears her blind sister crying in the street, you’re so deep in

the scene you hear the voice yourself, even though it’s silent.”

Daniel adored him for responding so strongly to the movie. We still can’t

talk about love, he thought, but we can talk about movies. Which wasn’t a bad

thing, was it?

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Zack ? Zack ? Wake up, Zack ,” a voice whispered. “Zack, baby. You’re

gonna love this.”

Zack opened his eyes. He was surprised to find Daniel in his room, on his

bed, still wearing his sleep sweater and red plaid boxers. The light on the ceil-

ing was odd, a pale, clear, shadowless glow. Zack sat up in his nightshirt and

looked out the window over his headboard. Everything was blank outside, va-