She did not cry out, so I was encouraged to believe that nothing was broken. She flung both arms around my neck to hold on to me as I climbed back up on to the road and started off again at a trot. I had gone no more than a couple of hundred yards before the muscles in my arms were screaming with the pain of supporting her weight. But I had no choice other than to carry on.
After a while, I fell into a loping rhythm, somehow managing to keep my forward momentum. From time to time I looked down at her. Sometimes her eyes were closed and I feared the worst. At others I caught her gazing up at me, but she seemed almost fevered and I was not sure if she really saw me at all.
I was at the end of my tether, ready to drop to my knees and give up, when I rounded another bend, and there ahead of me was Ard Mor. The castle sat on a spur of land that jutted out into a rocky bay. Lawns extended from the front of it to a crenellated wall with cannon aimed across the water, the hill rising steeply behind it. The road wound down to a clutch of estate workers’ cottages, and a stone archway led to the castle grounds.
The sight of it gave me fresh energy, enough of it anyway to stagger the final few hundred yards, past the cottages and through the arch to the big wooden front door of the castle itself. Laying the little girl down on the step in front of me I pulled the bell ring and heard it sound somewhere distantly inside.
It is hard to describe the maid’s expression as she opened the door, her pink face wide-eyed with astonishment above her black blouse and white pinny.
And then, it seemed, I lost all control of events, as servants were called to carry the little girl into the castle, and I was left standing in the big stone-flagged hall as people ran around like mad things. I saw the laird on the stairs, his face pale and etched with concern. I heard his voice for the first time. But I didn’t understand his English.
No one paid me the least attention and I began to cry, desperately afraid that I had failed my mother and that she was going to die because I had been deflected from the purpose of my errand. The maid who opened the door hurried across the flags and knelt beside me, consternation in her eyes. ‘What’s wrong?’ she said to me in Gaelic. ‘You have done a brave thing. You have saved the life of the laird’s wee girl.’
I clutched her hand. ‘I need the doctor to come.’
‘The doctor’s been sent for,’ she said reassuringly. ‘He’ll be here in no time.’
‘No, for my mother.’ I was close to hysteria then.
But she didn’t understand. ‘Whatever do you mean?’
And I told her about my mother, and the birth of my little sister, and the bleeding. Her face paled.
‘Stay here,’ she said, and she hurried away up the big staircase.
I stood there for a miserable eternity, until she returned at a run and knelt beside me again, a warm, comforting hand brushing the hair from my eyes. ‘As soon as he has seen to Ciorstaidh, the doctor will go with you to Baile Mhanais.’
I felt a huge wave of relief. ‘Ciorstaidh,’ I said. ‘Is that the name of the laird’s daughter?’
‘Aye,’ she said. ‘But they call her by her English name. Kirsty.’
*
I’m not sure now how much time it took for the doctor to come and see to Ciorstaidh. But as soon as he was done we set off on his horse, back along the road towards my village. At the overturned trap we stopped. The horse was still alive, but had almost given up the struggle. The doctor took a look at the man in the ditch. He stood up, grim-faced. ‘Dead,’ he said. Though I could have told him that. ‘Ciorstaidh’s tutor from Glasgow. Only been here six months.’ He got back on his horse and half turned to me. ‘If you hadn’t brought her back to the castle, son, she’d have died out here from the exposure.’
He hit the horse’s flank with his crop and we set off at a gallop, until we reached the turn on to the path and had to slow to let the horse pick its way gingerly among the stones and heather roots, before descending the hill finally to the village.
Somehow, it seemed, they had managed to stop my mother from bleeding any further and she was still alive. The doctor was led into our fire room, and Annag and me were hustled outside to wait in the rain. But I didn’t mind. It seemed that I had saved two lives that day, and I related the whole story to my wee sister, all puffed up with pride in the telling of it.
Then my father came out, and the relief on his face was visible to both of us. ‘The doctor says your mother should be all right. She’s weak and she’s going to need rest, so it’ll be up to all of us to fill her shoes for a bit.’
‘What’s the baby called?’ Annag asked.