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By:Kate Atkinson


‘Hello, Deirdre,’ he said. ‘I think we’d both like a Five-Scoop-Sundae-Special, please, even though it’s a Saturday,’ he added and Deirdre laughed, far too much, Madame Astarti thought, for such a feeble joke.

‘How was she killed?’ Madame Astarti asked eagerly, sticking her fan-shaped wafer into the heart of her sundae.

‘Difficult to say for sure,’ Jack Gannet frowned, ‘but it looks like she was strangled.’

‘Crime of passion, perhaps,’ Madame Astarti said thoughtfully.

‘Well,’ Jack Gannet said. ‘You know that frog–’

—The frog is large and green and cool to the touch.

~ It’s not a frog, Nora says, it’s a toad. She strokes it, a toad-wife, and kisses it gently on the top of its head, an indignity it suffers in silence. When she places it on the floor at her feet it contemplates her for a few seconds as if it’s worshipping her, before hopping lazily out of the door.

~ I must pick nettles, she says, for soup.

‘It’s winter, there are no nettles.’

~ Well, I have to go and pick something, she says vaguely. She is avoiding telling me her story. I know why – it is not a pretty tale.

‘If I were you,’ Martha said to me, ‘I would think seriously about doing a secretarial course so that you can get a job when you don’t graduate.’

But if she was me she wouldn’t say such nasty things.

Janice Rand read out a poem that was something to do with the sun in the sky and the birds flying by and no-one could think of a single thing to say about it.

‘Robin?’ Martha sighed.

‘OK,’ Robin said. ‘I’ve been reworking a scene from Life Sentence . I wasn’t really happy with it before. I’ll just read all the parts, shall I? Unless someone else wants to read? No? Right, well this is the scene where Dod, Jed and Kenny are discussing whether Rick had been right to do what he did –’ Robin took a deep breath and closed his eyes. There was silence for quite a long time and then he suddenly started reading:





DOD Yes, but I mean –

JED Look, there isn’t any point.

DOD I mean –

JED It’s all finished now anyway. It’s over, we just don’t know it.

DOD If I thought for a minute that you were –

JED Yeah.

DOD I mean . . .

KENNY It’s meaningless. Meaning less. Less and less. Why bother?

DOD But do you know what I’m talking about ( shouts )? Do you know what I mean?



And so on (ad infinitum, ad nauseam) until the audience died, one by one, a death of a thousand small words.

‘What did Rick do?’ Andrea puzzled but Robin’s answer was drowned out by the groans of those who didn’t want to remember. Kara patted Proteus vigorously on the back and he burped obligingly, then she turned him round and placed him on the other breast. Outside, I could hear someone singing ‘Where Have All The Flowers Gone’ in a flat voice, to the two-chord accompaniment of an acoustic guitar.

I was just searching in my pocket for a handkerchief – I was sure I was coming down with a cold, I was feeling quite light-headed – when I discovered a crumpled piece of paper. I spread it out on the little desk-table and discovered it was the page of The Expanding Prism of J where J falls over the banister. I wished I’d found it earlier, I could have handed it in to Martha and pretended I’d written it – I expected it was just the kind of writing she would like.

‘Do you think you could pay attention?’ Martha said to me so I screwed the piece of paper up in a ball and stuffed it back in my pocket.

‘And so, finally, to Kevin,’ she said, turning her gaze reluctantly on our fantasist. ‘How is Edrakonia this week, Kevin?’ Martha had tried to persuade Kevin that his magnum opus was not suitable for the course assignment and had indeed told him at one point she was going to fail him point blank if he didn’t stop writing ‘garbage’, but lately she seemed to have become inured to Edrakonia. If nothing else, Kevin could be relied upon to have actually done some writing and there was something about the eager expression on his bovine face that made you feel so dreadfully sorry for him that you couldn’t help but encourage his one pleasure in life. Kevin read in a kind of Benny Hill accent –

‘Duke Thar-Vint and his trusty steward Lart, who himself was of a noble family through the blood of his mother, Martinella, daughter of Si-Jagdar—’

‘Martinella – is that like the female form of “Martin”?’ Robin asked.

‘No,’ Kevin said.

‘Because if it is,’ Robin persisted, ‘it’s a really crap name.’