His hand made small, teasing circles. Around my nipples, down my stomach, and in between my legs. He pressed his fingers in until they came out wet.
"Ready?" he asked, positioning himself over my entrance.
"Stop stalling." My whole body clenched in anticipation.
He leaned in slow, pausing just as I felt his light touch. "Promise me. You have to promise me you'll stay. Don't go back to him."
I looked up, his eyes were pleading. So were mine. "Let's not do this now."
"I have to, I can't lose you ever again."
I lifted myself up on my elbows. "No."
"What?" He rocked back on his heels.
I sat up. "I left her, Micah. Can you grasp how big that is? I abandoned my child."
He shook his head. "You didn't—"
I held up my hand, cutting him off. "As long as I am close to Shawn, I know she is safe."
He reached out and pulled on my wrist until I joined him on my knees. He traced my wrist tattoo with the pad of his thumb.
I am the hero of this story.
"You can't save everyone, Kaitlyn."
"You're right." My eyes flitted over to the window, seeking the glow of the 16th Street Mall. "But I can save her." I looked back at him. "Are you done bribing me with sex?"
He smiled. "Are you done being a control freak?"
"Hardly." I pushed on his shoulders and he fell back on the pillows. I climbed, positioning over him, and lowered myself. Slowly.
He tried sitting up. I pushed him back down. "Stay still," I hissed. I lowered myself a few more centimeters. He was stretching me out unbearably wide.
"Kaitlyn…" He gritted his teeth. "I can't wait, I need you now."
I lifted myself up a little, threatening to release him completely. "I waited two years for you. You can handle this. Now, don't move."
He looked at me, narrowing his eyes, debating. Finally, he relented and laid his head back against the pillows.
He was going to pay for his hesitation. "Put your hands behind your head."
When he obeyed, I lowered myself a little more.
"Please," he groaned. "Let me touch you."
"No." I caught the hand he extended by the wrist, then leaned forward to hold them both down. The movement opened me up, and I slid the rest of the way down. We both sucked in our breath. It was almost painful…almost.
I scooted my knees forward, getting them under me. I raised myself all the way up until we were about to detach, then lowered again. Four slow counts up, four slow counts down.
Micah groaned again. Still holding him down, I turned his head with my chin until his ear was exposed.
"Shhh," I whispered. Four up, four down.
"Kaitlyn—"
"Shut up." My lips stayed at his ear. My tongue snaked in and out. I felt him shiver underneath me. "Do you know what I had to do without you?"
He didn't answer.
Good boy. I moved faster now. Three counts up, three counts down. "I had to pleasure myself."
He shivered again. I bit down on his ear lobe. "I did it with our toy rock. I worked it without you." Two counts up, two down. My knuckles were turning white around his wrists. My hips pivoted back and forth as I moved up and down his length. My whole body began to tingle with energy.
"Oh my God." My back arched, head tilting back. One up, one down. "Now, Micah. Touch me now!"
As soon as I released his hands, he was against me – turning me over. Pillows scattered; my back hit hard floor. His hips went into motion. He thrust forward, faster than I could do it. I would've been shoved back, if it weren't for his lips pinning me into place. He forced his tongue into my mouth. It was my turn to groan.
I wrapped my legs around his waist and lifted my hips, encouraging him. The energy still flowed. I took it in, swimming in it. Wine in my head, adrenaline in my veins.
One final, deep push, and we climaxed together. Our muscles vibrated with tension, until he collapsed over me. Full of renewed energy, I pushed him off, then sprung to my feet. My hands practically glowed with light; I needed to return the power before I exploded.
I spun in a circle, holding onto it for one last second, then raised my arm up and out. Akasha burst out of one of the windows. An unstoppable stream of light. The glass shattered, littering the pavement 250 feet below.
"Stop! He'll see it!" I felt Micah's hand on my ankle.
It didn't take long, Akasha expended in a matter of seconds. I looked down. Micah was still on the floor, breathing hard.
I bent down next to him. "What's the matter?"
He shook his head. "Help me to the pillows."
I put my arms under his shoulders and pulled until he was on top of blankets, one pillow under his head. He was much lighter than I remembered.