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Duty and the Beast(10)

By:Trish Morey


'Reflexes a bit slow today?' he teased, looking at his cheek. Zoltan  knew he wasn't talking about the paperweight. 'I reckon I might actually  beat you over twenty laps today. What do you say?'                       
       
           



       

Zoltan was already on his feet. 'Not a chance.'

Aisha could not believe it had come to this. She lay on the big, soft  bed, her pillows drenched with tears. But now, hours after she had  returned from that fateful meeting in the library, her tears were spent,  her eyes sore and scratchy, and she was left with just the aching chasm  in her gut where hope had once resided.

There was no hope now. There was nothing but a yawning pit of despair from which she could see no way out.

For tomorrow she was required to marry Zoltan, an arrogant, selfish,  impossible man who clearly thought her no more than a spoilt princess  and who had made it plain he considered she was getting the better end  of the deal in having to marry a barbarian like him, and that there was  not a thing she could do to avoid it. To renege on the deal would result  in bringing down the royal families of two countries and smashing apart  the alliance that had kept their countries strong for centuries.

And, for all the power that knowledge should bestow upon her-that she  was the king-maker of two countries-she had never felt more powerless in  her life.

She had never felt more alone.

She rolled over on the bed, caught a glimpse in the corner of her eye of  the magnificent golden wedding-robe sitting ready and waiting on a  mannequin in the corner of her room and squeezed her eyes shut again.

Such a beautiful gown. Such a work of art. Such a waste. A gown like  that deserved to be worn to a fairytale wedding, whereas she was to be  married to a monster. Expected to bear his sons, destined to be some  kind of brood mare. Doomed to never find the love for which she had once  hoped.

Such foolish dreams and hopes.

After all, she was a princess. She swiped at her cheeks. What right had  she had to wish for any kind of normal life, even if her two brothers  had the future crown of Jemeya well and truly covered?

Yet still, other princes and princesses around the world seemed to marry  for love these days. Why shouldn't she have dared hope for the same?

She shook her head. It was pointless feeling sorry for herself. She  forced herself to move, found herself a wash cloth in the bathroom to  run cold water over and held it to her swollen, salt-crusted eyes. She  could mope for ever and it would not change things. Nothing she could  do, it seemed, could change things.

She returned to her room, passing by the open balcony doors when the  curtains shifted on a slight breeze as she still held the cool, soothing  flannel to her cheeks. Rani must have opened them, she guessed, before  she had left her to her despair, for she was sure the doors had not been  open before.

Poor Rani. She had been so excited to show her the gown when she'd  returned from her meeting with Zoltan, so delighted to tell her what was  planned for her preparations the next day-the fragrant oil-baths, the  henna and the hairdresser. Aisha had taken such strides to hold herself  together until then, all the way from the library through the convoluted  passageways and along the cloistered walk to her suite. It had been so  much effort to hold herself together that, in spite of all of the young  girl's enthusiasm-or maybe, in part, because of it-she had taken one  look at the dress, collapsed onto the bed in tears and told the girl to  go away.

The breeze from the open doors beckoned her, carrying with it the  late-afternoon perfume of the garden below, the heady scent of jasmine  and the sweet lure of orange blossom. It drew her to the window, to  where the soft inner drapes danced and played upon the gentle breeze.  She stood there for a moment before venturing out onto the balcony of  her suite. The sun was dipping lower now, the evening rays turning the  stone and roof of the palace gold, even in the places it was not. The  garden was bathed in half-light, the sound of the splashing fountain and  birdcalls coming from its green depths like an antidote to stress.

It all looked so restful and beautiful, so perfect, even when she knew  things were far from perfect, that she could not resist the lure of the  perfumed garden.

A set of stairs led down from the balcony. She looked back into her  suite and realised someone had already taken away the jacket she had  torn off and discarded en route to her bed, but it didn't matter,  because she probably wouldn't need it anyway. It was deliciously warm  and without the sting of the sun's rays. It wasn't as though she was  planning on running into anyone.

She wasn't in the mood for running into anyone. A lifetime of training  had told her that she must be presentable at all times, in all  situations, prepared for every contingency; given a lifetime of doing  exactly that, only to find that your life could take a bizarre turn and  force you into marriage with someone just because some crusty old piece  of paper said you must, what then did it matter how she looked? She  finger-combed her hair back from her face and smoothed her creased  trousers with her hands. That would do. Once, she might have cared, but  today, after all that had happened, she felt a strange sense of  detachment from her former life.                       
       
           



       

It didn't matter any more.

If she could be married to someone she hated because the ancient  alliance between their two countries dictated it, then nothing mattered  any more-not how you looked, how you acted or certainly not what you  dreamed and wanted from your life. Only that you were a princess. Only  that you came from the right breeding stock. And Zoltan hated her  anyway. It wasn't as though he cared how she looked.

Zoltan was stuck with her, just as she was stuck with him, and somehow  that thought was vaguely comforting as she descended the stairs into the  garden. After all, why should she be the only one inconvenienced by  this arrangement? Why should she be the only one to suffer?

Her legs brushed past lavender bushes intruding onto the path as she  walked, releasing their scent onto the air. She breathed deeply, taking  it in, wishing herself the soothing balm it promised.

The garden was deserted, as she had hoped it would be, silent but for  the rustle of leaves on the breeze, the play of water and the call of  birds. She drifted aimlessly along its paths, breathing in the scented  air, delighting in the discovery of the ever-changing view and the  skillful placement of a bubbling bird-bath or a flowering frangipani to  surprise and delight. She stopped by one such frangipani tree laden with  richly scented flowers, picked a cluster of bright white-and-yellow  flowers to her face and drank in their sweet perfume.

Her mother's favourite flower, so her father had told her when she had  leafed through her parents' wedding photos. She could see her parents'  wedding photos now, and her mother's bouquet, all tight white rosebuds  amidst the happy brightness of frangipani flowers as she drank in that  sweet scent.

She wondered what her mother would tell her now. Would she be as cold  and clinical as her father, who had told her today that there was no  point thinking or dreaming or wishing for things to be different,  because she was what she was and that was how it was to be? Or would she  be more understanding, at least empathetic of her situation?

And not for the first time she wondered about her own parents' marriage,  wishing she knew more of the circumstances of how they had met. But her  mother had died way too early for her to be interested in any of that,  and now it was all so long ago.

She arrived at an opening in a wall, keyhole-shaped, potted palms on  either side. A path to another garden? she wondered. But as she looked  through it she could see it was not one but a series of archways through  which she caught a glimpse of greenery and whispering palms that  beckoned to her.

She looked back, trying to get her bearings so she would not get lost,  saw what must be her balcony above the tangle of vegetation and realised  she was in the far corner of the square, the other side of the palace  to where the library lay.

Further from Zoltan, she figured, so maybe it wouldn't hurt to venture a  little further, especially not if this was to be her new home.

She encountered only one other person, a maid, who blinked up at her, bowed and soundlessly and quickly moved on.

She passed by a bird-bath with a bubbling fountain where birds splashed  happily, oblivious to her passing, and the breeze whispered through the  palms, the promise of the archways luring her on. She loved them all.  Every one of them was decorated slightly differently, one whose walls  were covered with blue-and-white mosaic, another inlaid with  mother-of-pearl, the last with a pair of peacocks with bright and  colourful plumage, every one of them a work of art.