'Thank you,' I breathed.
Cam didn't reply. Instead he shut the window carefully, put the pan by the sink, and turned around to gaze at me.
Suddenly the air felt electric between us, like it always did while we worked side by side at the bar. I'd done my darndest to make sure those moments were confined to the bar, trying to feign ordinary interaction outside in the real world.
Today there would be no feigning.
I held my breath at the intensity in Cam's eyes as he slowly began to make his way towards me. When he closed the distance that would be considered socially acceptable between two friends who both had partners, I was just about to question him, stall him, but then my breasts brushed his chest and the words got sucked right back into my mouth along with all the air in the room. I felt his hands in a gentle embrace around my upper arms, his aftershave familiar and intoxicating, and the heat of his body made mine languid.
I hadn't been able to meet his eyes, and so I was looking at his throat when he leaned in and pressed the sweetest kiss to my forehead. A yearning, deep and expanding, burst open in my chest and I melted into him, feeling his lips chase a delicious shiver across my skin. He replaced his mouth with his own forehead. I closed my eyes as he closed his and we rested against one another, breathing each other in.
I was filled with such longing, a longing only intensified because I knew it was reciprocated.
'Cam,' I whispered, wanting him to pull away and needing him to never leave.
He groaned and gently slid his forehead down the side of mine, his nose skimming my cheek, following my jaw, and coming to rest in a nuzzle against my throat.
I held my breath, waiting.
His hot lips touched the skin there. One brush. Two.
And then I felt the wet, erotic touch of tongue and I shuddered, falling against him. My nipples pebbled against my thin shirt, begging him to go further.
A sharp, piercing ringtone shattered the air between us and I jerked back, coming to my senses. Cam cursed, his jaw clenched so tight it was close to shattering. He reached for his phone on the counter beside us and then blanched as he read the caller ID. He shot me an unfathomable look. 'Becca,' he stated grimly.
I gulped, not believing that I'd let him touch me, that we'd been seconds from hurting two people who didn't deserve to be hurt. More than that, I was shocked at how much I hadn't even cared – my need for Cam was that selfish.
This was not good.
If it was anybody else, I would have suggested it was time to put some distance between us. But this was Cam. I needed Cam.
'I better go. Malcolm is picking me up in a few hours.' I straightened my shirt and tightened the band holding my ponytail in place. I couldn't meet his gaze.
'So we're back to pretending there's nothing between us?'
My spine stiffened at his curtness and I looked up, only to flinch at the anger I saw in his eyes.
Shit.
I couldn't lose Cam's friendship. It was the best thing that had happened to me since Cole. 'Cam, please don't. I'm with Malcolm and you're with Becca.'
His mouth opened to respond, but I fled his presence before I was forced to hear what he had to say.
All day I felt I might be sick at any moment. I could barely do anything, really only taking time to reply to Cole when he texted me that he was staying at Jamie's house that night. I dressed uncharacteristically casually for the party, pulling on a skintight black miniskirt and a print tee from Topshop. I paired them with knee-high boots with a fleecy lining so my legs wouldn't freeze and a dark faux fur jacket I'd got at a sale and usually wore with something dressier.
Tonight I wasn't in the mood to sparkle. I wanted comfort, youth – I wanted to be me in some tiny way. I shook the entire time I was dressing, wondering what Cam was doing, wondering if he was ever going to speak to me again. I could still feel his hot mouth against my throat, burned there along with the tingling sensation of his tongue. Why did he want us to face our attraction when we were both with other people? Did he want to leave Becca? Did he want me to leave Malcolm?
And the biggest question of all was, could I?
Could I walk away from a man who cared about me, who could provide me with security and safety? Could I risk it for Cam? If I did, what would happen if it just turned out to be physical between us? No emotion, just spark.
My head pounded from overload.
Malcolm waited outside my building, beside our cab, and I almost came to a standstill at the look on his face as he eyed my outfit. When he was done with the once-over, he gave me a small smile before pressing a quick kiss to my lips.
'What is it?' I asked, frowning, sensing that something was off and not liking it. My stomach was already in upheaval over facing Cam again; I didn't need to worry about Malcolm too.